arg.. i am not happy right now. Friggen Jackson was caught in the act of pissing on my coat which so happened to be on the love seat. What a fucker. There is nothing more discusting then the smell of cat piss.
I dont care if he can be all nice and cuddly..DONT PISS ON MY STUFF!
enough
My head is kinda spinning right now. My course just seemed to decide to dump all of the work into the next couple of weeks. Whatever though. It is my own fault for going to school part time.
I am a big whiner..
I am lucky that i am a never ending optimistic loser though. Otherwise I would probably be pretty depressed right now.
I am finally beginning to understand that i am a huge money waster. Best of all is that I usually have nothing to show for it.
I was just sidetracked for about 20 minutes..
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Dream
I had a dream the other night.
I was at an old friends house, and so was my cat chicken. Hime me and a couple other guys were just hanging out in the living room when this guy i dont know says "hey lets go hand out in the other room for a minute" I said" Oh god I know what you wanna talk to me about"
He was going on to me about how he knows that i have a man but my friend just doesnt understand why i dont want him. How this friend still really likes me, and thinks that we would have something 'special'. I looked at this guy and rolled my eyes and told him" ya that I have been with Dan for four years. This has been going on with _____(friends name) for over four years. I cant believe that he is still talking about it."
The guy was all shocked. By this time we were just hanging out lying in this ol friend of mines bed. He started getting all touchie feely when my cat chicken jumped up on my chest all happy. She was just purring away and i didnt look at her .. When i did look at her i saw that she caught a mouse. She ran away leaving this dead mouse on my chest.
I thought "okay eww gross i have to get that off me"
The guy said "hey that's not a mouse"
I looked back down at it and whatever it was its eyballs started bleeding out along with other places.
I started freaking out, jumped up and started gagging.
I was going to vomit.
So I ran to the bathroom only to find that the it was in use and the door was closed/ So I ran to the kitchen to find somewhere to puke and found that my ol friends parents were doing dishes.
There wasnt any more time. I put my hand over my mouth and started projectile vomiting. Vomit spraying in between the cracks of my fingers all over the kitchen floor, even some on the wall.
Everyone was looking at me like my head was cut off.
Then my stomach started rowing again, so i ran to the bathroom and continued getting sick.
Nice dream ey?
My dreams are so vivid, its like my unconcious mind is trying to scream at me to listen.
I was at an old friends house, and so was my cat chicken. Hime me and a couple other guys were just hanging out in the living room when this guy i dont know says "hey lets go hand out in the other room for a minute" I said" Oh god I know what you wanna talk to me about"
He was going on to me about how he knows that i have a man but my friend just doesnt understand why i dont want him. How this friend still really likes me, and thinks that we would have something 'special'. I looked at this guy and rolled my eyes and told him" ya that I have been with Dan for four years. This has been going on with _____(friends name) for over four years. I cant believe that he is still talking about it."
The guy was all shocked. By this time we were just hanging out lying in this ol friend of mines bed. He started getting all touchie feely when my cat chicken jumped up on my chest all happy. She was just purring away and i didnt look at her .. When i did look at her i saw that she caught a mouse. She ran away leaving this dead mouse on my chest.
I thought "okay eww gross i have to get that off me"
The guy said "hey that's not a mouse"
I looked back down at it and whatever it was its eyballs started bleeding out along with other places.
I started freaking out, jumped up and started gagging.
I was going to vomit.
So I ran to the bathroom only to find that the it was in use and the door was closed/ So I ran to the kitchen to find somewhere to puke and found that my ol friends parents were doing dishes.
There wasnt any more time. I put my hand over my mouth and started projectile vomiting. Vomit spraying in between the cracks of my fingers all over the kitchen floor, even some on the wall.
Everyone was looking at me like my head was cut off.
Then my stomach started rowing again, so i ran to the bathroom and continued getting sick.
Nice dream ey?
My dreams are so vivid, its like my unconcious mind is trying to scream at me to listen.
Monday, January 15, 2007
Busy busy busy.
I like it. I can truthfully say that I would rather have a million things to do and be putting them off than to have nothing to do and be doing nothing.
I have been putting a lot more effort into getting together with the family lately. I mean the grandmothers and maybe even the cousins. I spend a ton of time with my immediate family, which is great. When I lived in fredericton i missed them so much i got a house right next door to them when i moved back!! Im not sure if i will always be like that though. If i am it will be impossible for me to ever move far away for a while. Cant live with them or without them:)
I would like to make a tribute to Mr Clow. Who passed away last Saturday evening. He may have been 85 years old but he was always out and about...Until the unfortunate turn of events on Saturday night where he was crossing the street and was hit by a vehicle. (No alcohol or anything was involved but it is still really sad)
He is one of the neighborhood people that you would always see around within grand tracadie. If he wasnt driving up and down the road in his car he was taking Toby for a walk, always giving a wave on his way by.
I beleive that these things happen for a reason though. Even if they dont seem to make sense they happened for a reason. There have been so many deaths in this neck of the woods that it just makes me wonder what it is suposed to mean. Bernie, Darrell, Grampie, Tyler, Linus...
I dont know.
I like it. I can truthfully say that I would rather have a million things to do and be putting them off than to have nothing to do and be doing nothing.
I have been putting a lot more effort into getting together with the family lately. I mean the grandmothers and maybe even the cousins. I spend a ton of time with my immediate family, which is great. When I lived in fredericton i missed them so much i got a house right next door to them when i moved back!! Im not sure if i will always be like that though. If i am it will be impossible for me to ever move far away for a while. Cant live with them or without them:)
I would like to make a tribute to Mr Clow. Who passed away last Saturday evening. He may have been 85 years old but he was always out and about...Until the unfortunate turn of events on Saturday night where he was crossing the street and was hit by a vehicle. (No alcohol or anything was involved but it is still really sad)
He is one of the neighborhood people that you would always see around within grand tracadie. If he wasnt driving up and down the road in his car he was taking Toby for a walk, always giving a wave on his way by.
I beleive that these things happen for a reason though. Even if they dont seem to make sense they happened for a reason. There have been so many deaths in this neck of the woods that it just makes me wonder what it is suposed to mean. Bernie, Darrell, Grampie, Tyler, Linus...
I dont know.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
arg
.. umm yeah.. about the last post... Dont really remember where i was trying to go with that. flagla.
So christmas has come and gone.. Everyone family wise were sick all at different times.. I was a little but not bad enough to complain.
My job is really boring. It is so friggen boring. Some of you out there wouldnt think so.. you would love every minute of it.. but im just going through a blah work stage.
What else is new?
the potluck last night was great. Everyone had suck amazing food. It was delicious. Huge turn out though. Met a lot of new people.
Once again realized how much I would like to learn to play guitar.
Just another thing on my huge list of things i want to do.
So christmas has come and gone.. Everyone family wise were sick all at different times.. I was a little but not bad enough to complain.
My job is really boring. It is so friggen boring. Some of you out there wouldnt think so.. you would love every minute of it.. but im just going through a blah work stage.
What else is new?
the potluck last night was great. Everyone had suck amazing food. It was delicious. Huge turn out though. Met a lot of new people.
Once again realized how much I would like to learn to play guitar.
Just another thing on my huge list of things i want to do.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
that's right
Im making a post and i am reallllly wasted!!!
"rocK oN!!!!"
I know a lot of things about myself aka i am learingin to diserfer them.. blah spelling LOL!@
ok soo just so you can see where i am coming from .. so far tonight i have drank a bottle of homemade wine.. some champagbe.. rev.. captain morgain spiced rum ... moose head dry..whatever else i cannot rememmer. .. i am enjoying some wicked awsome live musice shake~m...
i am hearin conversation about "how real it feels... in the 70's)
wtf
am is still doin here!! ahhh
ok enough!!!!!!
"rocK oN!!!!"
I know a lot of things about myself aka i am learingin to diserfer them.. blah spelling LOL!@
ok soo just so you can see where i am coming from .. so far tonight i have drank a bottle of homemade wine.. some champagbe.. rev.. captain morgain spiced rum ... moose head dry..whatever else i cannot rememmer. .. i am enjoying some wicked awsome live musice shake~m...
i am hearin conversation about "how real it feels... in the 70's)
wtf
am is still doin here!! ahhh
ok enough!!!!!!
Monday, December 11, 2006
locomotion
Christmas is almost here!! I have been putting of shopping stubornly because I was in denial how close it is! We put lights up outside last night. Bright blue ones. It is fun to have our own house and get to pick what goes outside.
Every week goes by quicker and quicker. We keep getting busier and busier. I love it like that.. so I am not complaining. I am one of those people who goes nuts when there is nothing to do. I would much rather have a load of things I could be doing and choose to do nothing instead :)
My weekends are too short. Friday night poker is always pretty wicked.. and then I cant help but go out Saturday night, Simply because I dont work Sundays.
So Danial is makeing a 'special' supper for me right now.. I am so hungry.. mmm
I dont have anything very interesting to say.
Yet I have noticed all of the friggen court hearings about murders lately. Pretty crazy. I dont even have to read a good mystery anymore.. just turn on the news. I have been thinking a lot about how it would suck to be on jury duty. If I was jobless or something it wouldnt matter. But for those huge cases they are only paying people 16,000.00 a year. For people like me with student debt..\other debt.. thats not enought to cover the bills.
I suck .. I am 20 year old and am up to my eyeballs in the negative.. lol
I dont care though.. Things always work out in the end... Although sometimes I feel like I am 47.. Which is why my current goal is to live young for godsakes.. ..I AM YOUNG
~peace
Every week goes by quicker and quicker. We keep getting busier and busier. I love it like that.. so I am not complaining. I am one of those people who goes nuts when there is nothing to do. I would much rather have a load of things I could be doing and choose to do nothing instead :)
My weekends are too short. Friday night poker is always pretty wicked.. and then I cant help but go out Saturday night, Simply because I dont work Sundays.
So Danial is makeing a 'special' supper for me right now.. I am so hungry.. mmm
I dont have anything very interesting to say.
Yet I have noticed all of the friggen court hearings about murders lately. Pretty crazy. I dont even have to read a good mystery anymore.. just turn on the news. I have been thinking a lot about how it would suck to be on jury duty. If I was jobless or something it wouldnt matter. But for those huge cases they are only paying people 16,000.00 a year. For people like me with student debt..\other debt.. thats not enought to cover the bills.
I suck .. I am 20 year old and am up to my eyeballs in the negative.. lol
I dont care though.. Things always work out in the end... Although sometimes I feel like I am 47.. Which is why my current goal is to live young for godsakes.. ..I AM YOUNG
~peace
Thursday, November 30, 2006
It is 1:45am and I get to work tomorrow. Too bad I cant sleep. I just cant stop thinking when i go to bed lately. I am constantly daydreaming.
Hopefully this post will make me tired enough to sleep.
This week I had a few days vacation.. pretty cool I basically chilled with Dan and Tasha. I have actually been kinda sick for about a week. Sick enough to make me not want to do anything but not sick enough to miss any days i had to work.
Dan and I finally got some yard stuff finished.. We made a wooden railing for our front step today. That was fun ,,I dont think i did too bad using the eletric saw. I have been in christmas mode too.. Doing some decorating around the house. I did skip out on a pot luck that was suposed to be at work tonight. It sounded really fun.. everyone would bring in really yummy food and do christmas decorating crafts.
Sounded fun, but not fun enough for me to go in on my last day of vacation.
So I was just sitting here staring blank for about 10 minutes which to me means I have nothing left to post lol.
:)
Hopefully this post will make me tired enough to sleep.
This week I had a few days vacation.. pretty cool I basically chilled with Dan and Tasha. I have actually been kinda sick for about a week. Sick enough to make me not want to do anything but not sick enough to miss any days i had to work.
Dan and I finally got some yard stuff finished.. We made a wooden railing for our front step today. That was fun ,,I dont think i did too bad using the eletric saw. I have been in christmas mode too.. Doing some decorating around the house. I did skip out on a pot luck that was suposed to be at work tonight. It sounded really fun.. everyone would bring in really yummy food and do christmas decorating crafts.
Sounded fun, but not fun enough for me to go in on my last day of vacation.
So I was just sitting here staring blank for about 10 minutes which to me means I have nothing left to post lol.
:)
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
new way
.. So I have been doing well with stuff.. yep thats right .. stuff.. Work is good.. I really like my job. And when you are working full time .. it's important.
I kind if feel like I have turned a new leaf.. I usually am feeling really refreshed feeling.. and when i feel depressed.. i just use it to motivate me.
mmm My hands smell like vanilla.
I just went blank,..
Dan and I are finally makeing our place feel like home.. Our walls arent quite so bare. still have a closet half full of unpacked things.. for most part we are good though.. We are such pack rats.. We keep the most meaningless peices of paper.. Like a blank paper I had a doodle of a flower on it..
We found a bag that we didnt unpack since 2003 which had broken glass from the front of an art piece.. I cant believe how horrible my spelling has gotten.. Dam high tech computers and auto spell check.. meh
If ANYONE wants a kitty .. they are ready to go now.. We found a home for one so there are 2 left.. both girl kitties.. on fluffy one medium haired.
I cant live meuch longer with 4 cats.. Cats are great.. Its just cleaning up 4 cats poop box that sucks. blah ..
I also would like to **announce that Dan and I will be hosting a New Years bash this year... The more the merrier! I dont know how many people look at this blog so i will make sure to pass the word more so when it gets closer.
i guess thats enough jabbering for now..
I kind if feel like I have turned a new leaf.. I usually am feeling really refreshed feeling.. and when i feel depressed.. i just use it to motivate me.
mmm My hands smell like vanilla.
I just went blank,..
Dan and I are finally makeing our place feel like home.. Our walls arent quite so bare. still have a closet half full of unpacked things.. for most part we are good though.. We are such pack rats.. We keep the most meaningless peices of paper.. Like a blank paper I had a doodle of a flower on it..
We found a bag that we didnt unpack since 2003 which had broken glass from the front of an art piece.. I cant believe how horrible my spelling has gotten.. Dam high tech computers and auto spell check.. meh
If ANYONE wants a kitty .. they are ready to go now.. We found a home for one so there are 2 left.. both girl kitties.. on fluffy one medium haired.
I cant live meuch longer with 4 cats.. Cats are great.. Its just cleaning up 4 cats poop box that sucks. blah ..
I also would like to **announce that Dan and I will be hosting a New Years bash this year... The more the merrier! I dont know how many people look at this blog so i will make sure to pass the word more so when it gets closer.
i guess thats enough jabbering for now..
Monday, November 13, 2006
skndal it!!!
I have a kitty scratch on my pinky finger.. oh well.. I miss everyone!!!!! I went to visit tash last weekend and had a wicked time. here are some new pics.. some from the trippppp
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
WOH
October what? Blue October? Who!?
My fist memory of the hate song by Blue October is wicked.. I was really out of it middle of the night.. and a late night show came on.. I had/have no idea whether it was J~Lenno.. back to the point They rocked that stage.. I will never forget it. Last weekend was awsome.. I went to Elizabeth's concert of hope..with my boss and his wife lol. I saw some crazy intense violin with the horse strings flying off everwhere.. then some Shaye, Dan HILL and Jacksoul. It was cool. During intermission Dan and I did a hop and a skip to the liquor store and got some beer, which we consumed at one of my 'brother in laws' place.. Havent seen them since the wedding. One long night talking about banking clevage.
The weekend before that was also pretty sweet.. Dan and I went bar hopping in the ch'dot. After eating half a delicious donair at Jacks Dan got it to go and put the container in my big toronto purse.. Bad idea.. Cab ride home reached to make the payment to find everything drenched in donair sauce and donair meat. Im sure the cabbie loved it!
Well I have tomorrow off and have the whole night to do whatever I want!
BTW.. Thanks to EVERYONE who took part in the wedding..Everyone pulled together and made our day great! I love all of you!!! :P
October what? Blue October? Who!?
My fist memory of the hate song by Blue October is wicked.. I was really out of it middle of the night.. and a late night show came on.. I had/have no idea whether it was J~Lenno.. back to the point They rocked that stage.. I will never forget it. Last weekend was awsome.. I went to Elizabeth's concert of hope..with my boss and his wife lol. I saw some crazy intense violin with the horse strings flying off everwhere.. then some Shaye, Dan HILL and Jacksoul. It was cool. During intermission Dan and I did a hop and a skip to the liquor store and got some beer, which we consumed at one of my 'brother in laws' place.. Havent seen them since the wedding. One long night talking about banking clevage.
The weekend before that was also pretty sweet.. Dan and I went bar hopping in the ch'dot. After eating half a delicious donair at Jacks Dan got it to go and put the container in my big toronto purse.. Bad idea.. Cab ride home reached to make the payment to find everything drenched in donair sauce and donair meat. Im sure the cabbie loved it!
Well I have tomorrow off and have the whole night to do whatever I want!
BTW.. Thanks to EVERYONE who took part in the wedding..Everyone pulled together and made our day great! I love all of you!!! :P
Friday, September 22, 2006
hunkin fliez
jua zee
I have the weekend off.. That's right, both Sat and Sun! It seems like no one ever updates their blogs anymore!!
Cmon people! Give me something to do.
brrr
I cant beleive how cold it has gotten today! Time just doesnt stop playing this game with me.. I mean. I am still stuck in April 2005..
Oh yeah.. those awsome nights out with Alex or Tori.
hmmm I think that all I have been doing lately is Reminising.. Right now... I feel almost undescribable.. I dont know what I have been thinking about,, or what I want to do..
I now understand.. that my life is never going to slow down.. Not for a looong time anyways.
Does anyone else feel that time is just rediculous>?
Blogger isnt letting me post pictures..
I have the weekend off.. That's right, both Sat and Sun! It seems like no one ever updates their blogs anymore!!
Cmon people! Give me something to do.
brrr
I cant beleive how cold it has gotten today! Time just doesnt stop playing this game with me.. I mean. I am still stuck in April 2005..
Oh yeah.. those awsome nights out with Alex or Tori.
hmmm I think that all I have been doing lately is Reminising.. Right now... I feel almost undescribable.. I dont know what I have been thinking about,, or what I want to do..
I now understand.. that my life is never going to slow down.. Not for a looong time anyways.
Does anyone else feel that time is just rediculous>?
Blogger isnt letting me post pictures..
Monday, September 04, 2006
I am not a born bride.
So the wedding was awsome. It was a beautiful ceremony, the food at the reception was awsome, and I had a lot of fun at the dance.
I am glad that we put as much work into it as we did, but it is time for the wedding excitement to go. LOL.
I was a strange little girl growing up. I never had fantacies of what my wedding day would be like.. let alone fantasize about being married. I was much too preoccupied with discovering whether or not supernatural powers could be acquired.
Growing up I always believed that one day I would just explode with super powers that have been waiting to suface from within.
Even though I am such a BORING adult right now... I definetly have super powers. You want details. nah.
On another note.. I cant wait to begin making clothes again. My parents got Dan and I a sewing machine for a wedding shower,, and I cannot wait to rekindle.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006
Sunday, July 16, 2006
less than a month!
I am going to be a mrs in less than a month. It hit me a bit more today with the wedding shower. ..I am having so much fun with this. I hope to see everyone at the open dance... :)
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Heres a look.
It is funny.. even though i am 'all grown up' When my brother pushes my buttons .. i explode. My family fights a lot.. just like most families.. but what i have been doing for the last few years.. is try to be the peace maker. I dont let them get on my nerves for all of the stupid things they do.. I try to be there for them to talk to me.. because they cant talk to eachother.. I try to be there for them..
But no matter how much one tries to make thing right.. thing will always blow up. and today by thing i mean me. I just get so sick of trying to do good. and then i slip up by -> yelling back or something..
uh
I just cant keep that built up inside. Anyone who know me.. know that is not me.. I say what i think,,. even when i shouldnt.
Talk about internal conflict..
In case yas couldnt notice.. I am really angry right now. I just get so stressed ..that sometimes.. i just want to jump on a plane and take off..
Some things do get better as ppl get older.. others just dont.
It is funny.. even though i am 'all grown up' When my brother pushes my buttons .. i explode. My family fights a lot.. just like most families.. but what i have been doing for the last few years.. is try to be the peace maker. I dont let them get on my nerves for all of the stupid things they do.. I try to be there for them to talk to me.. because they cant talk to eachother.. I try to be there for them..
But no matter how much one tries to make thing right.. thing will always blow up. and today by thing i mean me. I just get so sick of trying to do good. and then i slip up by -> yelling back or something..
uh
I just cant keep that built up inside. Anyone who know me.. know that is not me.. I say what i think,,. even when i shouldnt.
Talk about internal conflict..
In case yas couldnt notice.. I am really angry right now. I just get so stressed ..that sometimes.. i just want to jump on a plane and take off..
Some things do get better as ppl get older.. others just dont.
Friday, May 12, 2006
MAy.. ITs MAY!
Time makes me sick sometimes.Then again ..... (Oops lost my train of thought there)
I have started sending out wedding invites. We dont have a lot of ppls addresses.. so if you would like to be reallllly helpful.. send it to me!
Things are going to be pretty wild for time until the end on june.
Unless I become a horrible slacker and throw everything away. One summer course at upei is the equivelent to 2 regular courses it seems. Meh.
Like the pasty white
I am sick.. again :( I seem to be catching anything that is going around these days. Thats what i get for dealing with dirty money I guess.
I want some ice cream. mmm butterscotch.
Dan was on vacation this week.. Lets just say ..I didn t see too much of him. haha
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