For so many reasons. Mainly because dad is in the hospital. This is the first time and it has been awful. He is doing well but not well enough to be discharged back home. I have been totally scattered, trying to decide if I need to go to PEI. There are just so many factors. Stupid stuff of course. Like; I have to work, there is no one to take care of the dog and cat... the dog and cat have a complicated pill regime, I don't want to go home, I'm exhausted. Most of all, I'm sad.
It's quite fucking lonely here in NB by myself with just a dog and cat. Sure, I have friends who would lend an ear, maybe even give me some company. But no one that I feel comfortable enough with the just let it out. It's causing me to wonder why I do not have overly close friends. I have buds that I see once a week or every two weeks. That is usually cool with me because life is so busy. Then again, I am probably just cutting myself off from people that would be more than glad to be here for me.
Ultimately, I don't want to put on a face to entertain socially. But feel free to drop by and just sit with me while I stare blankly.
