Thursday, December 03, 2009

Good ol' blog

So, for those of you who are extremely unobservant my blog format has drastically changed. I like most of this layout except for the "coloured" tag thing. Hopefully I can get rid of it... some day.

I have had this blog since 2004 and find my "young" posts to be funny and immature. The thing about having a blog that is as old as this one is you never have a clue who reads the thing.

I have said it before but I find that my posts are really censored and I can't rant about what is really on my mind. With this said, I am considering making this into an "invite only" place. I really don't think that many people visit this place... I realize that I am NOT that interesting but paranoia consumes me.

If anyone out there is reading and would like to continue reading let me know!

I am going to think about it some more. We shall see.

Monday, November 23, 2009

<3 Love you S

I want to wish a certain lady best wishes and positive energy with her surgery which is scheduled tomorrow in Halifax.

You are strong and I believe you will make it through smoothly :)
<3 Jenn

Friday, November 20, 2009

Oh baby

It's Friday night,
Just got paid..
1 venti caramel brule latte
1 10 page paper due tonight
1 bundle of nerves

Ah, the memories. It seems that I am reminiscing with UNB days of all nighters, too much caffeine and anxiety.

Instead of writing my paper I am complaining about it here.
I have a huge file that I am attempting to submit for this project. I have been waiting forever for it to upload which means it will likely fAiL. At least if that happens I will have a legit excuse for passing it in tomorrow? Maybe?

It is a lovely video of me doing the social worker thang with a chick. I got to film it and watch it over and over again and critique it. I was disgusted from watching myself each time. Torture.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Lies-Kitty montage







Aww my kitty is so adorable. Look at all of the cute things that she does.. Yes those are my chubby hands with Dan's.. attempting to show off our wedding rings.. and the castle like photo is a swank "medium security" prison that we used to live by.

We moved across town last weekend. Perk of being a "military family" is all of the strong helpful men that are eager to help. 6 people are so much better than 2. I LOVE our place. Did I mention that I did not see it until we got the keys? We have so much more space. I was expecting a crappy place but they re-did pretty much everything so it feels new.. :) I am so happy with it.. We are actually unpacking which we really haven't done since we moved to Ontario.

That's all for now!

Friday, November 06, 2009

What am I trying to tell myself?

**Exhale
For some strange reason I am having another cycle of vivid dreams. Usually these cycles have themes like the end of the world, nuclear bombs, PEI flooding, being 3 hours late for something important etc. etc.

Now I have 2 themes:
same sex sex
reproduction

My girl on girl dreams always involve me and someone I know.. I am too embarrassed to spill these names on my public blog. I somehow find myself in sexual circumstances that I feel obligated to continue with. These dreams are not fun or even funny. Actually, they are kind of stressful and sad. I feel that if I say "no" these girls they will be heart broken. But then they become upset because they realize that I am not "enjoying" myself...

When I googled it here is what I got:
Dreaming that you are a lesbian (but you are not in your waking life) means a union with aspects of yourself. It is symbolic of self-love, self-acceptance, and passion. You are comfortable with your sexuality and femininity. If, in your dream you abhor the notion of lesbianism, then it represents your fears and rejection of parts of your own sexuality. If you are a lesbian in your waking life, then the dream is simply a reflection of your own self.

So I wasn't actually a lesbian in my dreams but the first part of the above paragraph couldfit

My second theme has been about babies... People I know being pregnant, me being pregnant and the most recent one was my cat being pregnant.

My poor cat was both herself and a friend of mine in my dream.. She was raped and I found her in a field near death after miscarrying 4-5 pups that were approximately the same size as she is. When I questioned her about the happenings she became my human friend telling me about the multiple rapes that she has experienced by dogs.

I have no idea how to google that one.
My dreams are so intense and messed up.. Weird.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Halloween 2009





A dead zombie like fellow and a "punk" pirate made their way out on the town last night. I was impressed with the dance club that included minimal groping. Yet, I did see a little too much Vag for my liking.. In a room crowded with random ghosts and ghouls I might add. I get that Halloween give dames the opportunity to dress as racy as their hearts content but please, no penis and clam in public.

Anywho, it was a good night. I met a bunch of amazing people and am looking forward to doing it all again :)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The tension in my chest is lifting...

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I finally got the nerve to once again attempt to talk to the student loan appeal dude. I emailed and got a lame response about how busy they were and to check in a week. The same response I have been getting for the last 3 weeks...

Danial randomly decided to check my loan status and look who decided to finally do their job! I now have some money to live off of...

Also got my laptop back today... my love bug hassled the shop for their mess up and we ended up getting everything we wanted and more for free.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

All I want for Christmas~

is to go home!!!!

I am a big baby who want to be home for the holidays. Keeping fingers crossed!

..................

Danial took my laptop into Future Shop yesterday to have extra RAM installed.. The technician attempted to update the BIOS and failed. May need a new motherboard. Listen to all of this computer lingo coming out of ma mouth! Point of the story is that I may be without my laptop for 2-3 weeks.

So we decided to celebrate this with Whiskey and Vodka as any good patron would. I wonder how much of our rowdiness that our neighbour(LanDlorD) heard. Doesn't really matter,,, we are outta here in November. How responsible of me.

PEACE

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

You know what really erks me??

The fact that the student loan people call my approved amount an "award". Really? An award that I get to pay back with interest when I am finished?

As usual I appealed my loan at the beginning of September... I am beginning to get stressed about it though because it's taking longer than usual to get approved. I have this term payed for but I need to be able to live too.. ugh.

The last time I called the appeal guy he was so nasty that he almost made me cry. I tried to get around talking to him today but he is the ONLY one with my answers. Man. Is it really not enough to put me in crazy debt? You really need to make me feel like shit on a personal level too?

Obviously, I just need to get thicker skin and hassle him. I can't be such a sensitive crybaby.

Danial took a peek at one of the base apartments today. We are going to go for it. It will be nice. We will be upgrading from a 1 bedroom apartment with no closet space to a 3 bedroom apartment with a storage area. We will need to buy a fridge and stove which is kind of weird. I have never owned appliances for an apartment. There is also washer/dryer hookup so I am almost regretting that we sold ours.

All in all I am pretty happy right now. I go through big ups and downs about being married to someone in the military but right now it feels okay. I feel like I might have reached a balance.

Monday, October 05, 2009

Yes, I am doing on of THOSE posts

Layers of the onion..............

LAYER 1: Tell us your…

* Name: Jenn
* Birthday (month, day): April 3
* Birthplace: Charlottetown, PE
* Current location: Kingston, ON
* Eye color: green/hazel
* Hair color: light brown with blondish tones.
* Height: 5'7
* Righty or lefty: Lefty
* Zodiac sign: Aries

LAYER 2: What’s…

* Your heritage: French, German..
* The shoes you wore today: None- I didn't leave the apartment :/
* Your weakness: Chick flicks, no matter how devastating
* Your fears: Not being able to become happy with life
* Your perfect pizza: greek pizza with ranch sauce
* Goals you’d like to achieve: MSW
* Your first waking thoughts: What time is it?
* Your best physical feature: Maybe my eyes?
* Your most missed memory: Being crazy close to certain awesome ppl

LAYER 3: Do you…

* Smoke: Not recently
* Cuss: Fuck yes
* Sing: Yes. Usually I am unaware that I am doing so
* Do you think you’ve been in love: Yes
* Did you go to college: University, yes
* Liked high school: Didn't hate it didn't love it
* Want to get/stay married: Yes
* Believe in yourself: Usually
* Think you’re attractive: I sometimes manage to convince myself
* Think you’re a health freak: Nope
* Get along with your parent(s): Usually
* Like thunderstorms: Yes, but they scare me haha
* Play an instrument: Nah

LAYER 4: In the past month have you…

* Drank alcohol: Yes
* Smoked: nope.. Except for second hand
* Done a drug: nope
* Made out: Yes
* Gone on a date: Indeed
* Gone to the mall: Mostly because I work there :/
* Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No.. eww
* Eaten sushi: Yes
* Been on stage: No
* Been dumped: Nope
* Gone skating: No
* Gone skinny dipping: No.. I am no longer that close to the ocean
* Stolen Anything: No.. unless you count failing to make a stupid waitress aware that she undercharged me.

LAYER 5: Have you ever…

* Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes
* Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes
* Been caught “doing something”: This is probably going right over my head.. but if it is fooling around, most likely.
* Been called a tease: Yes
* Gotten beaten up: No
* Shoplifted: Yes

LAYER 6:

* Age you did get/hope to be married: Married
* Numbers and names of children (either you have or want): No more than 2.. I like the German name Resme
* Describe your dream mate: Someone loving, open, honest and loyal
* How do you want to die: In my sleep when I am wrinkly beyond recognition
* What did you want to be when you grow up: Psychologist, actress, singer
* What country would you most like to visit: Somewhere in Europe

LAYER 7: Now tell…

* Name a drug you’ve taken illegally: Hmm… marijuana
* Name a person you could trust with my life: Danial
* Name a favorite CD that you own: I do not own many CD's but am loving the Yeah Yeah Yeahs right now
* Number of piercings: ears.. 2
* Number of tattoos: None
* Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Maybe 3 or 4? From wayyy back
* Name a past experience that you regret: I am trying not to regret the past right now.. but probably the unnecessary offensive things that I have said to ppl

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Q?

Danial and I were talking a few days ago about how much it will suck for him to drive to work in the winter. Currently, he has to wake up around 5am just to be out the door to get to work on time. Obviously with crappy weather it is gonna take him longer to drive all the way across town. If he is late for work (say stuck in a snow bank) he gets in a lot of trouble. When we realized this, it was obvious that living on the base would be sooo much more convenient and stress free (for him).

I know! I have groaned and snorted about the idea of living on base before but it has some positives to it. He contacted the military personnel living quarters place and it seems that a "Q" (apartment) will be available by November 15th.

Living on base would also mean that I would be conveniently close to the gym.. Lunch time aerobic woot woot! A 9 month membership will cost me 30 bucks!!! I don't even think that my UPEI gym membership was that cheap.

So how many moves would that be in the last 12 months? 5. Feels like 2004/2005 all over again. Whatever. Someday I will settle down.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Life Life Life

Here is my daily(ish) routine:
~Drag myself out of bed as early as possible
~Check my online school thang and attempt to read the 100 missed messages from the last 12 hours
~Attempt to get organized to be productive
~Force myself to do some school reading.. Luckily a random reading will be really interesting
~Watch some TV online that I missed the night before (ANTM, Greek)
~Attempt more school/lunch
~Finally shower and get ready for work
~Bike or walk to work
~Become really pissed that I am at work even though it is just a 4 hour shift
~Come home and wonder why there is hardly any school work done

It seems that I am not the most productive while schooling at home. I always find ways to better occupy my time such as laundry, random internet, checkin out photo albums...
LAME LAME LAME

I guess that is not really all that I do.. I also get to stress about my student loan not yet arriving and the fact that I desperately want to go home for Christmas. My grammy is getting old and I don't want to miss xmas with her. Not to mention missing everyone else.

When I was in Victoria I met a lot of cool dudes who live in Vancouver. Maybe I should move there(ha). Next year Dan finds out where he will be posted and I don't want to stay in Kingston. Possibilities include: Halifax, Ottawa and Victoria.

On a happier note: I have never done a practicum of any sort so am going through the long confusing process now. I met with someone from a place for mental health and it turned out that I was being kinda sorta interviewed. Know what I mean? You speak with someone and agree to meet so they can explain to you what they do and then it turns into them interviewing you.

Anyhow it worked out because he wants me. Probably not sexually but definitely for a field placement. I wasn't aware of this until he began sending me huge emails about the process of having a 'mask fitting', getting my email set up and keys.

Does no one else get this excited about working in mental health?!
Yeah, I am pretty excited.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Gimme a minute

So I decided to leave it till the night before to really plan for my Victoria trip. I need to meet some rad social work buddies this week to get into trouble with.... HA.. I feel that my rad buddies will all be older and at a completely different life stage than me.

Here is a list things my instructor told me to bring:
scissors,
markers, crayons
a pic of me when I was a child
a cultural icon
pics of friends, family and places
a mug
a glue stick
a book with a hard spine
music
maybe a poem

Obviously completely different than what I expected. I guess we will be doing some crafts and sharing.

I will be soooo happy when this degree is finished. I need to be back in the workforce. Don't get me wrong.. I like school.. I am happy to have the opportunity to go to school but I miss making money.

I STILL haven't explored Kingston... really..

I have a new perspective with Danial being in the army. It actually gives me some direction with life. Before I had a freakish amount of options and choices to make. Now it seems so much easier to see what our future might be like. There are some pretty sweet benefits that come with being in the military.

Ahhhh. I keep forgetting to plan my practicum for school. I am supposed to do it by the first of school.. which is in 2 weeks. It feels impossible.. I have no idea what is here or where I would like to go. All I do know is that I don't want to be doing child services for this one.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Okay...So here is my spanking *new* life

I am kinda wound right now. As some of you know, I recently got a job as a family photographer. It is cool because through this job I will earn my photographer certification. Also, I was hired to be the assistant manager. I am not looking for a job that stresses me out like crazy (*Cough* bank :S)but this seems like it will be good.

It is also pretty sweet that our studio just went digital so the ability to be creative is endless. I have not been fulfilling my creative needs for the last year so now I'm happy.

At the end of this month I am going to Victoria.. yeah you know that. I just got off the phone with my professor so I am now really pumped. Sure it is only a week of face to face training but it is going to be such a good experience. If I am lucky I will get to scoot over to Vancouver and see a certain buddy.

Haha.. I am lame... getting excited about work AND school.

Clearly, I am loving living with Danial again. It is cool to see how adaptable that we are.

AS FOR KINGSTON: It is surrounded by water! There are even beaches close by. I am pretty sure that one of my biggest disappointments about moving away from PEI was being away from the water. I need to take some photos of Kingston so yas can see what I'm talking about.

As previously mentioned: I Love Ontario shopping! It is nice to have some variety. There a couple of cool looking vintage shops that I would like to explore.

All in all... Kingston seems to be the perfect 'stepping stone' to living in a big city. There are more people but they still look you in the eye when you walk past them on the street.

So yeah,,, things are pretty good so far...Except for missing my buds and family like crazy. My dreams are once again haunting me about how silly stuff went down in the past. I hate it. Waking up from a dream relating to something that happened 5 years ago with friends that I am no longer close to. It makes me re-evaluate and consider making amends. Until, eventually I remember why I decided to do things as I did... yuck.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Hello Kingston

Yep. I am here in Kingston now. I forgot what it was like to be surrounded by awesome shopping at all times. Which is probably why Danial and I purchased a new bed and 37' flat screen on our first day. Yikes :)

Since Friday I have been sleeping on an air mattress with a leak. Pretty crappy. BUT our new bed arrived today so it should be an awesome sleep tonight.
Currently, I am procrastinating. I have a paper due tomorrow. Then this summer class will finally be over!

I am brainstorming about where I would like to work. I am thinking that it needs to be a job that I don't need to stress over. Possibly a waitress? hmm.

I am getting really excited for my upcoming Victoria trip. It will be the only time for my social work degree that I am required to meet with fellow students face to face.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Eek

Thursday is coming soon.. our day of departure. It is crappy because it is also a crazy week for school work. I would much rather chill with buds before I leave instead of writing papers and studying for finals :S

I should stop complaining. I have the entire month of July off and I am not living on the streets in poverty. Who knows when I will ever get a summer month off again? Care-free summers are pretty amazing.

I am really looking forward to having my own place again :)

P.S.: Even though I live merely 5 minutes away from the beach I have not seen it this month. Usually I am a beach addict... so wtf? Eh. Maybe I will get there this week... mmm Beach Beer.

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Oh yeah.. update...

-Danial found out that he has a 2 week vacation from July 18th till Aug 2nd.
-He will aid me with moving shenanigans.
-I am jobless for my time remaining on PEI
-Planning my trip to Victoria for social work training~wootwoot
-I already miss my PEI buds
-Canada's wonderland....
-Listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers
-Army STILL hasn't 'approved' our move

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Since when is everyone pregnant?

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Plann~ish

Yep.. I've now got a kinda sorta plan. Danial has been apartment hunting.. so he is hoping to get one that is available in July. He looked at one that he likes last night and will probably take it.

If that is a "go" then I will take a carload up at the beginning of July.

Hopefully I can work something out for our kitty (Chicken). I took her to the vet last week and they say that she is healthy but she gets crazy nervous traveling.
I tried to dope her up with *vet recommended* Benedryl as a test run today. She started frighteningly salivating and frothing as if she had rabies. Then her eyes began to water and I felt like an awful kitty momma.

She then proceeded to upchuck the 1/4 tablet of Benedryl along with her breakfast.

It sucks. She has always been a freak about traveling but now it is getting to the point where I think that she will have a panic attack etc etc.

When I took her in to the vet she got crazy, bugged her eyes out and her mouth began to stretch open with her tongue hanging out. She then began panting as if she could not get any air. Then to top it off she peed her fur pants.

Any ideas as to how I can move her to Kingston without killing her?

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Come to the desert and I'll circumcise you

Man, I haven't heard that song in forever.

For a long time now I have been kind of grossed out with this blog. My posts are so fluffy with only a censored line or two about what is truly on my mind.

Lately I have been outraged about issues that have been bubbling to get out of me. I'm thinking that I will begin ranting about them here.

I also need to change my blog template. The good ol martini lounge just doesn't seem to represent like it used to.

With that said, who knows whether or not it will happen.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Please stop spinning..... Please stop spinning!

I am finally accepting that Danial will probably not be coming to PEI to move our crap like I hoped. Unfortunately when paperwork goes missing it screws up plans. Funny how that goes. The office people keep telling him to come back the next day to get an update. Quite impressive use of technology ey?

Speaking of technology, my laptop is becoming useless. It especially likes to be a challenge when I am trying to do school work.. on a deadline of course.

Oh yeah, back to moving. Seems likely that I will be doing the move around July 6th. If it turns out that way I plan to hire some friendly movers. I am already cranky enough without moving hehe.

I guess that is it for now. I lost any inspiration I had to write.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

What's up, what's up?

Fuck I am sexy with a cold. So fucking sexy.

It's almost JUNE 1st. Dan updated me with his army posting orders. This changed our plans so that I am moving at the beginning of July which I'm actually kinda excited for. I hear that Kingston is a big penitentiary town which gives me lots of work to do. (By work I mean get a rad Social Work practicum)

It was.... interesting to have the chance to live apart but I am OVER it. 5 months is enough to get a taste. Think it is lame if you want.. but I want to live with my lover.

I wonder.. what will Kingston bring? Will it be horrible and boring? Or an exciting adventure. I have to guess that it will be neither. Oh well. I think that it is time for me to leave PEI for a while. I have been back since 2005.. so yeah.. it is time.

I was thinking about what I was doing this time last year and realized that I was wasting away at the bank. Even though I am not in the happiest living situation I am damn glad that I am not working there.

I must admit that my job is growing on me. Having dudes that are the same age as my brother call me "teacher" is pretty hilarious. It is also kind of funny that they seem to like it the harder that I am on them.


Internet School


Is it for me? Do I like it or hate it? I have no clue. I will likely wait to decide until after I get some grades back.

Oh yeah.. that is basically my life right now. Internet school, work, volunteering... oooo I am happy that my crisis line volunteering is almost finished. I find it to be soooo stressful.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Gross

I made some chicken and I didn't cook it all the way through WHOOPS.

Summer summer summer. How I have missed you.
I am still getting into the new routine of work and school. I am trying to gauge how it's gonna be but no luck yet. Too early.

My job requires a lot of creativity apparently. I like to think that I am creative but that may be just wishful thinking. Silly me. I assumed that I would get to use material from the last person who did this job. That would have been nice... instead of doing the whole term from scratch. It is pretty surprising the amount of freedom I have with it.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

.... I'm moved out of the apartment and now at Melissa's. I'm so happy that the move is finally finished. I am just waiting for Natasha and Cory to move out so that the landlord can do the inspection.

Monday is my first day of work and school. I am excited for school but not so much for work. I am hoping that work will be kind of flexible with days off. I won't complain though because I will have the weekends off.

Last weekend I drove to Quebec to visit Danial. It was a pretty sweet weekend. I headed over Thursday to get there early and have a mini vaca by myself. We had Boston Pizza... I know-- we have one on PEI no big deal. The Boston sized drinks were pretty enjoyable though.

This week Danial is in the woods somewhere sleeping in a tent doing his army man exercises. I will be heading there again to see Dan for his army grad on May 14. Then he has to report for duty on Sunday in Borden Ontario.

I kinda feel sorry for him because he is going to miss PEI summer. I doubt that he will get the chance to pop home for a visit.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Good

Finished my exams and now have 3 weeks to do..... what? Hmm. I get pissed at myself because I get so excited for time off but when it happens I get anxious with nothing to do. Time off should work out this time cause I have to move.

Apparently Danial and I have a horrid issue with keeping unnecessary things such as telephone bills from 2007. Gross.
I will likely get stir crazy and make a trip to Quebec to visit Danial. No one plans to go to Montreal for the end of April ey?

I will probably end up going myself. Brave it or whatever.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

So I found out that I got the job at UPEI. It should be interesting. I met with the instructors that I will be working with today and we created a general layout for the term. I think that I'm really going to like it. In the afternoons I get to take the students to different places to teach them about PEI. I am planning on taking them to the beach once or twice so it should be good :D

I haven't been excited about a job in soooo long that I have forgotten what it is like to work somewhere that I like.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

So my birthday turned out a lot better than I thought. I had three birthday cakes and was completely spoiled. Friends and family certainly came through :D

I have been boozing with family over the last couple of weeks which is always interesting. Last night my mother kind of made it clear that I am a real 'mix breed'. Lots of German, Scottish, French and English.

Friday, April 03, 2009

APRIL 3rd

Ek. I am exhausted. For some reason I got myself all sketched out about a intro sociology paper that is due today. I don't understand what my problem was. I didn't care about anything else that was due this week nearly as much as this stupid first year paper.
Whatever, I am glad that classes are finished!!!!

It is my birthday today as well. Right now I am being a big crybaby and wishing that I got to spend it with Danial. This is the first time that I will be celebrating it without him since I was 17 or something.
Here is a tribute me being a fucking cry pussy:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OVGCK91Bt8

SO- I was disappointed because I didn't even get April fooled this year! Is it pathetic that I look forward to being fooled?

I have a feeling that tonight is going to be one of those *extra vulgar nights.

Fuck. I just need to shutup and be positive.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Opportunity ya shay?
mmmmm I just made a really yummy spaghetti dish. I made whole wheat spaghetti Alfredo. Then in a separate pan I made a stir fry of yellow pepper, onions and mushrooms with a hot salsa. mmm. then I poured the stir fry over the pasta and it mixed to become something amazing.
I am sure that chef's have a fancy name for this or something. So good!

I had an interview today for a summer position at UPEI within the english assistance program. I think that it went okay. Apparently I will find out by Wednesday. I haven't had an interview for a job that I cared about for a few years. The job would be to: tutor students English, coordinates activities, possibly assist with the EAP summer courses and other random office crap. The majour focus being international students.
It would be 30 hours a week--Monday till Thursday 9 till 3 and Friday 9 till 12. C'mon-- that is sweet.

It would begin in May which would happily give me the Month of April off. This would be convenient for moving and all that.

I am probably going to make another trip to Quebec in April. St Jean is such a boring town that I think that we should probably stay in Montreal for the weekend this time.

Apparently Danial is doing well with the army and all. He says that during the week it is disgustingly busy.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Relief
I got a letter from university of Victoria today indicating that I have been accepted to their social work program. This means that my life no longer feels like it is on hold and I can begin to make some general plans for the future. It is a distance program so I am able to move anywhere which is A+. I will likely move to Kingston Ontario with Danial in the summer after he is shipped there.

I am happy that I will be able to live with my hubby but am a bit sad that I will be leaving all of my buddies. It won't be happening for a long time yet though. I just want enjoy the positive side for now.

I don't mean to sound cocky, but I am pretty proud of myself for getting in. I applied last year and was rejected. So I have been working my ass off for school and it seems that it is paying off.

Arg-- I cannot let myself forget about a meeting that I have tomorrow evening..

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Panorama Zing-- Strange Australians

So Thursday night at midnight I officially decided to make a trip to Quebec to visit Danial. I called my parents to let them know in case I ended up dead on the side of the road. By 1 AM my dad decided that he would come along for the ride. This was convenient because he brought along his GPS.

It was not a fun short road trip but worth it both for Danial and I. He wasn't "aloud" out until the following day because they failed their Friday inspection. We didn't know for sure that he had Saturday off until Saturday at 12:00 ish. It was all on a whim.

We had a pretty good night together except for a fucking ridiculous email from my X-boss. I am so glad that I do not work there anymore.

We headed home around 3pm on Sunday. Some of the excitement included picking up hitchhikers in Quebec and driving them all the way to Moncton and narrowly avoiding a collision with a moose or some deer on the highway going 120kph
Since my father just loves to make things exciting he convinced me to push the gas tank as far as it could go. He kept telling me that there was a gas station just minutes up the road. Minutes turned into 40 minutes and we slimley avoided running out of gas. It was the first time that I have ever gotten 570 Kilometers on a tank.

I got home on Monday at 4am and was a zombie until basically right now- Tuesday evening.

It is getting to be the end of my school term, thank god. I just want it to be over. It is hard enough to work on courses at all let alone do well at them right now.

I learned a new term today from a homosexual guest speaker.
Fruit Fly- female that hangs out predominately with gay men. Example Grace from Will and Grace.

I also learned the origin of the term fagot which is from the days of witch burning. Fagot is a term for kindling. When a witch was to be burned the towns people gathered homosexual men and women and used them as "kindling" for their fire.
Fancy that. So much tact and class.

This class also allowed me to see pictures of females and males post operation. The most interesting was the penis that was turned into a vagina. One Female to male was really well done while the other was not so much.

Aside from thinking of vagina and penises I have been thinking about where I will be living by the end of the summer. Seems like it will either be PEI or Kingston Ontario. Hopefully I will have that figured out within the next month.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Winter Thaw Please

The weather slowly changing to my liking. It is so nice to get out of class before dark. Not that I think a lot of myself but I hate walking to the far parking lot at UPEI after dark. You never know who is lurking in the corners.

I relieved a lot of school stress today because I did a group presentation that was worth a wack. Thank god it is over with. I was really lucky this time because the other people in my group were not slackers. It was also nice because they were not simply difficult.

This Saturday I am looking forward to :D
It is my last day at the bank-- and I even cut a deal with a co-worker so I can sneak off a few hours early.
I am pumped for our girly trip to Moncton. It should be a good time.

I have been attempting to plan a visit to Quebec to see my other half but it is complicated. He will not know if he has permission to have the weekend off until FRIDAY. I was going to fly but flights booked 'the day of' seem to be outrageously priced.
I may just end up waiting until I am finished of school and have the time to drive.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

In 3 weeks I will be finished of BMO... FOREVER.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Don't gag
I have been kind of reflecting on life. It is crazy how much things change in such a short period of time. It seems like my life is always "up in the air". I don't think that I am complaining about it- just contemplating.

Don't get me wrong. I am not living a crazy roller coaster life but it is certainly different than my mother's life. I am thinking that the reason that so much change is happening so often is because of my age. I am young and it shouldn't be a huge shocker. I guess that the thing is-- the changes have been pretty big for me lately.

I will get some direction by the end of March. That is when I should know whether or not I have been accepted by University of Victoria. If I am accepted, I will likely move to Kingston Ontario which is where Danial will be doing his specialized training. That is the wonderful thing about internet programs. They will never hold me down to one location.

If I am not accepted, it only makes sense for me to continue going to UPEI. I would love to live with Danial, but I need to do what is best for me. I mean, he is doing what is best for him.

I guess that I am becoming increasingly aware of the fact that we could be living apart for at least one year. I know, I know. I should have known this for a long time. I am sometimes slow to accept reality. That is a long time to live away from my spouse. I want to make sure that I am being clear. I am just becoming aware of how different our lives together can end up.

I am probably repeating myself a bit, but it is what keeps coming to my mind.

Aside from that goo-
I have one midterm left. If I am not accepted to university of Victoria I plan to take summer courses.
One being a philosophy course about existentialism! This gets me far to excited considering that it is both a class and summer school. When I found this course on the summer timetable I must have been making noises because my room mate called to me from her room asking why I was so excited. I think that this could qualify as sad but I don't care because I am so excited!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Eh
It is week 2 living without my husband and I have noticed an emotional trend. When he is able to call me often, I feel fine. When he calls rarely, I begin to feel strange about the whole thing and become confused. My confusion is about how good or not good I can be about the whole thing. I know that it makes sense, but it bothers me that this is happening. I wish that I could have feelings that are level rather than up and down.

It is just such a huge change.-------------

SCHOOL* I saw my exam schedule and it appears that my last exam is on Saturday, April 11th at 7:00PM. I am still so shocked that UPEI has Saturday exams. At the time being it doesn't bother me because I to be finished after the first week of exams. I looked at the summer course listing and there is not a single psychology or family science course that I can take. Shouldn't they hire professors that do not mind teaching summer courses?
This means that I will likely be taking distance courses somewhere. Honestly, I have no idea what I am doing this summer. I don't even know whether or not I will be living on PEI.

WORK* One thing is for sure. I will not be working full time at the bank. Even though it would be easy to obtain I would not feel good about it. I am not sure if I will be with the bank at all by the summer. I don't need to worry about it yet though. The only thing is if I want to visit Danial in Quebec it will be tough to get the time off (I work Saturdays).

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Supper without Danial (or Natasha):
Peanut butter sandwich with red pepper, banana and a dab of honey.
For those of you who do not know-- supper for me is usually a home cooked meal.
hmmm?

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

It doesn't seem that I will need to buy a bed after all. I was getting stressed about dishing out that much money. Especially because it would have been student loan money.

Natasha and her two cats are here now. That makes 3 cats in our apartment. I was wondering if it was gonna feel as if there were too many animals, but it isn't too bad. Our place is kind of wacky with stuff everywhere right now..

haha.. 'Hero' by Papaya just came on via music shuffle. It inspired me to look up the youtube video. Nice. It definitely reminds me of listening to 90's dance music back in the day. Check it out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTrTVNYBOho


I seem to have forgotten how long it can take to write a research paper. I have been working on it all day. You wouldn't know that by looking at the document because it consists of a title page and the reference list. The bibliography took me an hour to do WITH citation machine. Intense.

I will be so happy for this week to be over. Next week is spring break and I plan to do a hell of a lot of chilling. It won't be too precious because mid-terms continue the following week. Oh well.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Today

Danial's plane left this morning at 9AM so we shall see things go. Natasha gets in around 5pm today which is funny timing. My only time officially living alone is today.

Little more boring:
I think that I have decided to buy a new bed. It will be the first new bed I have ever owned. While shopping around it is amazing to see the different types of bed makings. It is kind of annoying because all I really want is a nice comfy bed that lets me sleep.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

What?

I have avoided procrastinating with school for a long time now... until this special paper that I have due tomorrow. Why am I torturing myself?

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Name change... again?

I have had this discussion with many of my friends, some family and acquaintances. When I married Danial the issue of name change turned up. As in many families it was usual for the woman to take the man's last name. We briefly considered the options and then selected the typical.

I then began attending UPEI and took a variety of women studies courses and began to learn about the origin of marriage. As many of us know not so long ago women have been considered the property of man etc etc. I have increased my knowledge (and opinion) regarding gender which built a fire within. I made the choice to change my name without knowing. With the loss of my last name came the loss of the identity that was associated with it. Obviously not 100 percent but enough for me to notice.

This has caused a lot of conflict for me. I am kind of wondering what your opinions are on this?

I guess the next part of the situation is the option to change my name back. When I mentioned this to my mother she said " people are going to think that you got divorced". Obviously she is probably right but is that enough reason to continue this tradition?

I don't want to imply that I against tradition but I have believed that I am part of an equal relationship. If relationships are 'equal' than why is it that the women are the ones that change their last names? Why isn't it a 50/50 thing? Obviously there is still a lot of socialization that makes men feel they should keep their names.

Aside from my casual ranting (haha) my biggest thought is whether or not to change my name back. At this point I have almost decided to.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I have been pretty overwhelmed and stressed over the last while. It seems that there is so much to do all the time. I had a pretty refreshing day today. I had a little bit of a chance to sleep in this morning and then went bowling with my family. It was interesting because it was our first family event that had four couples.

I have been craving pizza delight for a ridiculous amount of time considering that it is practically across the street. After bowling we all headed there for lunch. I wish that I could sat that it was amazing but I got a salad that was more croutons that lettuce. Oh well, I can't complain too much about a free meal.

Dan and I went home afterward and chilled in our sunny living room on the couch.
So yeah, it has been an pretty chill Sunday.

We bought a whole chicken which we plan to make for supper tonight. This even despite the warning that kidneys may still be located inside the carcass. haha

I hope that this semi-lazy day allows me to re-energize and get back to the books.

I have that scratchy feeling in my throat.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Work Rant

I have been stewing about this increasingly over the last few weeks. I have been working at the bank off and on since 2005 yet I haven't gotten a satisfactory raise since January 2007. This wouldn't be horrible except for the fact that I have been trained for a higher level of work (opening bank accounts/ investments). I have been actively working in this role since August 2007 however I still get payed as a teller.

At first I didn't let it bother me because I am a casual worker. Of course it still is not fair, even as casual I should be paid for the position that I am doing. I then approached my boss regarding a raise and he said sure. This happened in August 2007 as well as November 2008. Have I seen it? No. I have asked him a couple of times since then. He has given me his word on two things which he has not followed through on. 1) a fair raise to be getting the wage for my work role
2) To put me in the 'system' as permanent part time.
I approached him about this and he assured me that "stokes are in the fire, it will happen in the new year". Last weekend I mentioned it to him again and he said "the stokes are in the fire".

I think this is horribly unfair. I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I mean, if I was a shitty employee and doing a shady job, sure, but he has told me numerous times that all of my coworkers have gone to him saying what a great job I am doing. They also say that I am "so helpful with both coworkers and clients".

If I am doing such a great job, why am I being treated like this?

To top it off, I am casual without the benefits of being casual. At my place of work a casual person is not committed to come in on any specific days of the week and is able to pick and choose the days he or she wants to work. Not in my case. I am told that I am being "depended" on for Saturdays. I asked to have February 7th off (which I should just be able to tell them rather than ask) and he has the nerve to say " If so and so is not working otherwise we will need you".

Ha!

Not that he deserves a reason, but I explained that it is Danial's last day on PEI.
I am considering on blatantly reminding him of my casual status.

I don't know. Part of me wants to stick my feet in the ground and tell him enough is enough. The other part wants to continue the decent working relationship that we have had over the years. I don't want this job to be something that I cannot have on my resume.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Here's the verdict

Thanks for everyone's input on hairstyles. I called around a couple of places and have an appointment tomorrow morning at Absolutely Fabulous. Apparently they have a 'master stylist' who is really good at determining suitable hairstyles for certain face shapes etc. I am leaning towards a long bob that is asymmetrical.

Enough about hair, and onto the important stuff.

As many of you may already know, Danial has been accepted to the army as a Land communications tech. Some people consider it a big deal while others do not. It is going to be a huge lifestyle change for both of us, but in the end it will make Danial happy with his career (I think). For anyone who has known for a while will be wondering how this happened. I have changed my perspective on many things over the last year(s) and the army is one of them. I did not move to 100% support the army but I am not dead set against it. Clearly it has been set in place for a reason.

It has been interesting seeing people's reactions to the news. I was prepared for people to think that it was a terrible idea, but surprised to find so many are supportive.

I have been even more impressed and surprised with the people who have been asking about how I feel about it. I am shocked with the concern of people who do not even know me that well. On the other hand, however, "The Army" is one of those topics that people usually have their opinions on. For good reason of course.

Danial will be leaving on February 8 which so happens to be the day that my buddy Tasha arrives in Charlottetown. A trade I suspect.
She will likely be staying with me until her boyfriend moves back to the island. I am pretty happy about the timing.

The whole thing still doesn't feel 'real'. It probably won't until I roll over in bed to find the other side empty.

Very exciting. I could feel change coming and here it is.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Hair




heya, I am considering a new hairstyle, so please rate the pics up above. You can click on them and rate them out of 5 or just let me know which one is your favorite.

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Arg. I just got home from attending half of two meetings. The coordinators of both meetings were not impressed with the fact that I was not staying the entire time. I hate when my schedule gets double booked like that. It makes me feel horrible. I feel strange even talking about having a 'schedule'. I used to laugh at people that would say "just let me check my schedule". I am now kind of one of them. I am hoping that I am just overwhelmed because of classes beginning and all this volunteer stuff. I don't want to have to cut anything out because I enjoy everything that I am involved in.

I have been so confused this week. I haven't even been to all of my classes yet. Lets just add another one tomorrow. mua. I would like to keep on track right away but this week has slipped out of my grasp.

on a happier note, I have lunch at the Gahan with Sarah today. Haven't seen that lovely lady in over a month! I am so lucky to have good friends. I have also had some coffee action with Sharlene this week.
haha. So I complaining about not having time but of course I am making time for my buds. What is a week without gal time?

Oh--side note-- I have a beautiful sexy blister on my heal from a pair of boots that I bought from Mark's Work Warehouse. It is the first thing I have ever purchased from there. It is also the first pair of quality and sensible boots that I have ever gotten. This is the sad thing. I always end up buying footwear that looks good and deal with the pain. I attempted to avoid that and am still sporting sexy huge blisters.

I need to stop blabbering here and read school text shit.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

spoiled

*sigh*
I am in a great mood right now. I had a long crappy day at work and then made a pointless drive to the country. When I made my way home I found that Danial was busy at work the entire day. He fixed our bookshelf, put all the clean clothes away, cleaned, put two storage units up and unpacked a wack of boxes. He completely organized our bedroom and a closet. I am sure there is much more that he did that I am forgetting. Talk about impressed!!

It was so nice to come home after a crappy day to find all of these things done. What a sweety. Our place feels so much bigger and homier now.

I am always pretty shocked with how well Dan is at impressing me.

Considering this, it is not a huge surprise that I am looking forward to a nice and quiet evening with my husband at home. This includes the necessary movies, pizza and popcorn. Jeeze. I feel like a lucky gal.

Enough goo.

School begins again on Monday and I am not at all prepared. I am taking a stats course which I'm not looking forward to. I am not the best at math. Next week is also when I begin my official support shifts at the crisis center. I am pretty nervous about this. I have had sooo much training but I am not sure if I am prepared. Time will tell.

ooo. My bro got back from the big apple. Very jealous. He had an amazing time.
I think that my next venture will be international.