Get a Hobby?

Lately I have been... bored. Bored with school. Bored with exercise. Bored with socializing. Bored with work. Just all around bored.
I realized that my typical interests don't catch my attention much anymore. I used to enjoy attempt at making my own clothes, painting, movies and random outdoor adventures. Now it all seems uninteresting.

I wonder if my boredom is really a sign that I need to 'check in' on my perspective. Some people just seem so happy and content with their lives. I should try just being happy with what I have. I always say that I want to enjoy the present moment more... I am just not sure if I know how when I am so preoccupied with planning the future.

Honestly, I have been pretty stressed since September. The combination of a hectic school schedule and loads of hours at work has been rough. I keep telling my self "just one more month!".

Friday I had a little release from the load on my shoulders because I passed in an assignment worth 50% of my grade. Yep. 50% I do not have floating around my mind anymore.

I am really looking forward to having a little break from school. The month between terms is never really enough. I have not had a term off since summer 2008, so c'mon December! Imagine! 8 months without school to worry about.

When I think about it--- it's kind of funny how bored I feel while I am so stressed and busy. I'm probably less bored with my regular hobby like things and more bored with school and work.

Ick. I need to stop saying the word 'bored'. I really do not like that word.

So let's see. How to enjoy the present? Shall I practice mindfulness? Or shall I have drinks with my lover. I'm thinking the drinks/lover combination sounds more enjoyable at the moment <3

Here's what's happenin

I was getting sick of trying to find a SW related job and then something popped onto the lovely job bank that caught my interest. Working in group homes that specialize in adult mental illness. I applied and had a call for an interview the next day. Had the interview and was hired on the spot. So far I am really enjoying it but still find myself job hunting online. Today I found a job that has multiple social worky programs that are contracted through the government of NB. I decided to do something that I can honestly say that I have never done before. I cold called them at 4 in the afternoon. The call just happened to be answered by one of the owners and we had a grand chat about this job as well as another one that she thinks might be suitable for me as well. Positive about this job is that is located right here in little ol' Oromocto. She told me to send her my resume (duh) and said that she looks forward to interviewing me. Maybe she was really interested or maybe she just wanted to get me off the phone. Who knows *shrugs*. I'll wait and see.

The other job she mentioned REALLY interests me because it has paid holidays and regularish hours.

That is my life right now. Nothing too exciting. Taking my last 3 courses and am pretty pumped for this degree to be finished in December.

~Jenn

So I found out that I got the job at UPEI. It should be interesting. I met with the instructors that I will be working with today and we created a general layout for the term. I think that I'm really going to like it. In the afternoons I get to take the students to different places to teach them about PEI. I am planning on taking them to the beach once or twice so it should be good :D

I haven't been excited about a job in soooo long that I have forgotten what it is like to work somewhere that I like.

Eh
It is week 2 living without my husband and I have noticed an emotional trend. When he is able to call me often, I feel fine. When he calls rarely, I begin to feel strange about the whole thing and become confused. My confusion is about how good or not good I can be about the whole thing. I know that it makes sense, but it bothers me that this is happening. I wish that I could have feelings that are level rather than up and down.

It is just such a huge change.-------------

SCHOOL* I saw my exam schedule and it appears that my last exam is on Saturday, April 11th at 7:00PM. I am still so shocked that UPEI has Saturday exams. At the time being it doesn't bother me because I to be finished after the first week of exams. I looked at the summer course listing and there is not a single psychology or family science course that I can take. Shouldn't they hire professors that do not mind teaching summer courses?
This means that I will likely be taking distance courses somewhere. Honestly, I have no idea what I am doing this summer. I don't even know whether or not I will be living on PEI.

WORK* One thing is for sure. I will not be working full time at the bank. Even though it would be easy to obtain I would not feel good about it. I am not sure if I will be with the bank at all by the summer. I don't need to worry about it yet though. The only thing is if I want to visit Danial in Quebec it will be tough to get the time off (I work Saturdays).

Work Rant

I have been stewing about this increasingly over the last few weeks. I have been working at the bank off and on since 2005 yet I haven't gotten a satisfactory raise since January 2007. This wouldn't be horrible except for the fact that I have been trained for a higher level of work (opening bank accounts/ investments). I have been actively working in this role since August 2007 however I still get payed as a teller.

At first I didn't let it bother me because I am a casual worker. Of course it still is not fair, even as casual I should be paid for the position that I am doing. I then approached my boss regarding a raise and he said sure. This happened in August 2007 as well as November 2008. Have I seen it? No. I have asked him a couple of times since then. He has given me his word on two things which he has not followed through on. 1) a fair raise to be getting the wage for my work role
2) To put me in the 'system' as permanent part time.
I approached him about this and he assured me that "stokes are in the fire, it will happen in the new year". Last weekend I mentioned it to him again and he said "the stokes are in the fire".

I think this is horribly unfair. I feel like I am being taken advantage of. I mean, if I was a shitty employee and doing a shady job, sure, but he has told me numerous times that all of my coworkers have gone to him saying what a great job I am doing. They also say that I am "so helpful with both coworkers and clients".

If I am doing such a great job, why am I being treated like this?

To top it off, I am casual without the benefits of being casual. At my place of work a casual person is not committed to come in on any specific days of the week and is able to pick and choose the days he or she wants to work. Not in my case. I am told that I am being "depended" on for Saturdays. I asked to have February 7th off (which I should just be able to tell them rather than ask) and he has the nerve to say " If so and so is not working otherwise we will need you".

Ha!

Not that he deserves a reason, but I explained that it is Danial's last day on PEI.
I am considering on blatantly reminding him of my casual status.

I don't know. Part of me wants to stick my feet in the ground and tell him enough is enough. The other part wants to continue the decent working relationship that we have had over the years. I don't want this job to be something that I cannot have on my resume.