More misadventures

Wow. It really is amazing how differently life turns out than expected. I am now 29. Separated from a long term marriage. Then had my second serious relationship and am single again. I remember thinking of my life in my 20's. I didn't have very fancy dreams. Something like: Married Living on PEI with children But lets look before my 20's. When I was high school I didn't think that I would even be married by now. Kind of interesting. Here is my reality: Separated/single No children Living off island. Say what? haha. Oh well. I have been doing a lot a lot a lot of reflection and focusing myself on what goals are important to me. I have decided that long term, living on PEI is a must. Thus, I have finally started the process of seeking employment on the island. I want to be a mom. Perhaps I will be one of those trendy and modern single adoptive parents? As for a romantic relationship. It doesn't really matter to me. I haven't had much life lived as a single adult so I am going to start there. I have no interests in a long term relationship. I have never felt this way before. Interesting new development. I know better than to say "never". But I really just wanna live my life for me for a while and take care of myself. When I reread this paragraph it does sounds as if I have given up. I know that living on PEI will happen. I can feel it. I also know that I will go on an adventure somewhere for like a year or something. Which order or when, I am unsure. I am moving my furniture to PEI this weekend and going to live out of a suitcase for a while. Wild. I am hurting someone very much by doing this. It is extremely painful but I have to follow my intuition. I am sorry. Very sincerely sorry. I feel terrified in some ways but it is like I am finally putting steps in place to meet my dreams/ next goals. I am so blessed with having loved ones, family and friends who are there for me. TRULY there for me. I don't know what I would do without you. xo