brrrrrrr I am so cold right now!!
So I keep having these awful dreams about a friend that I havent talked to in a long time.. and they annoy me so much. There are obviously things goin on in the back of my mind about this person.. lol sometimes it is not so at the back of my mind..
I just have to get my head around it.. Obviuosly I am purposly leaving out much detail about it because I have no idea who culd be reading this.

Just to put some of you at ease.. im not talking about anyone who i have spoken to in the last year.. haha
These dreams are so friggen detailed.. This one centered around crazy fruit flys.. facinating i know.
I am not in touch with back of my brain so much anymore.. if that makes any sense at all
blah so cold! the heat is on but i am still freezing.
So many things are in the air with my life right now that i have learned to just not think about it anymore.
I probably should be making some large decisions but i am just too wrapped up with other things at the moment.

I better start some school work or i will be regretting it later!
Brad and Melissa are coming over tonight for supper.. so that should be fun.. better make use of my time till then
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Summer has come and gone again!
oh well..So i am back into school full time. Quite the interesting life change..but i guess that is what im all about. I can keep doing the same old thing. lol.

I had a funny realization a few minutes ago. I was looking at an old yoga,pilates and stress relief book I had..that Dan got for me... I then began thinking about the scented candles and bubble bath that he gets me ever year. He gets me this special calming bubble bath for stress relief.. Then I also remembered how he got me a medication and stress relief tape.. as well as tension tamer tea.. and cooling releaving face masks..
he got me a pilates mat and yoga dvd...
As i was thinking this i turned to him to bring up theses tibits.. and he quickly says.. " I always get you stress stuff because you seem to always be stresses"

Wow.. Was he reading my mind.. not that i think that im stressed ALL the time.. but how he THINKS i am stressed all the time hehe

Why havent i picked up on these signs before.. I mean it has been 5 years of him showering me with stress relief gifts.... this huge trend that i have been completely blind to.

Obviously I must have some stress issues.. but i certainly dont think that im the type of person that is stressing every day of the week.

I am definetly more high strung than him..
He has always been a pretty layed back type of guy that wouldnt get too stressed about every day things..
I know that i definetley think about things into detail far too much.

Oh well .. maybe i will take some of my dear husband's advice and chill out.

I feel pretty special to have a cutey that is always taking care of me. :)

So I feel like I am waisting the summer. I finally got to the beach last weekend. Not as if we really had many beach days so far this summer.
I guess that there is a lot going on in life for me right now though. I have a lot of things that I am trying to do at once. One thing that I did do is tell my boss that I am thinking of going back to school full time. He was completely cool about it. I think that he may be the coolest boss that I ever had.

He even gave me the option to work there part time during the school year.

Now will I actually go to the school?? Or will I back out??
For those of you who know me well, know that I have been wanting to go to school for the last two years on and off again.

I keep making reasons not to go.. but then find myself kicking myself in the ass for not doing it.

I am now putting a hell of a lot more effort into going this time.. but that does not mean that it will happen.

Of course.. all my own fault...
Lots of exciting stuff going on,.. but I don't feel good about the whole internet world knowing my junk.

I know I know.. I never used to give a crap.. but I guess that I am changing...

Changine topic:
I am planning on going to the Aerosmith concert this Saturday... Am really wondering who else will be playing..considering that it is an all day event.

Maybe there will be someone good? Meh
I am going with my sista.. so it could be fun.. hehe

OHOHOH
Here is something.. I may be moving off island to Toronto or something!!
But here is the real shocker.. It may be without Danial..
Yah.. I hear ya saying.. 'You wont be able to do it!'
but I will..

Poor Danial will be the one going nutty.. not know what to do with his time.
I only know that from experience.. when I moved home and Dan stayed in fredericton for a month.

Who knows what will happen in the future!

So I woke up this morning to the phone ringing..but i ignored it.. Then whoever it was hung up and called back.. i let it ring through again... then when it rang the third time..i decided that it must be important enough to drag my but out of bed...

So I jumped up..grabbed a blanket... ran into the living room to get the phone.. Yah I was naked.
When i answered the phone i found out it was Dan telling me that my aunt was on her way over to pick something up..
just as he was telling me i heard a quick knock and there she was... "HI!"
I was like okay danial she is here and i have to go because im naked.

She was like oh my god your naked!! its okay its just me..Why are you naked??!
I explained to her .. that i just woke up.
She couldnt believe that i was still in bed at 10:00am

That all embarressed me a little bit.//
But I became even more embarressed to look around and see the mess that she was seeing. I see this lady once or twice a year and she was getting quite the impression.

Of course guys it was friday night last night.. so ihad a few drinks.. aka empty bottles.. i gobbled some fast food.. aka fast food garbage.. not to mention that everything elses was kinda in a crazy mess.

Then instead of leaving with what she needed .. she tried to make some conversation to make me feel better.. i couldnt even answer her in a normal way. ha ha

Nice aunt.. love her.. no scarcasm.


Am i turning into a housewife..no.. i am just starting to care about when people come in and find our "morning after" mess. This does scare me to think about what else i might turn into.. come the future.
meh..i am not going to worry about..
I am kinda happy because i actually have a two day weekend..

egret

Long time no post. I almost decided to retire this blog. I of course am sitting here not able to sleep.. I am so full of marshmellows that I swear if you were to take a blood test only sugar would come out.
I have been on vacation for the last week.. and am sillily getting upset about it. I dont feel like i am taking advantage of the time as much as i should be .. yet i havent really been wasting a whole lot of time.
Maybe I am just more depressed about the idea of going back to work on monday. BLAH!

At least I will be going back to some nice shifts again. (not that i have much to wine about in that department anyways) Thats right ...monday to friday 8:30 till 5:00.. no more thursday nights ... and the weekend off.. Pretty sweet right?

I am so wound up right now.. eek

I decided to go rollerblading today.. and of course wiped out.. It was a crazy slow motion free fall.. Where i basically had time to think about the fall i was about to endure.
After i fell i scraped myself off the pavement and began laughing histerically. I felt like a kid again.. i was too proud about my scraped knee.


Now im feeling the pain though.. lol.. Man i can be a tough bitch. I also accidently sliced open the side of my foot with a dull foot scrapey thing which killed.

I dont know why but i am not getting my usual burst of excitment with the coming summer.. Usually the change in weather would be enough to keep me from cranking..not this time..
But so help me that is not going to stop me from having an AMAZING summer! Summer is my season.. I cant waste it by being silly.
..... oh oh oh.. I had the most amazing dream.. but i am not going to say it because i fully intent to make it into a movie..Thats right .. a big time movie WITH a sequel.. and that damn sequel has an alternate ending!!

I dont want to ruin it by telling you about it here on blog.

You know what I really hate> Are ticks. .. I saw one once and i get sooo grossed out with it now.. I was planting a flower and saw something that looked like one and i almost cried...
And let me tell you.. I am not the type that usally cries over bugs..

I dont really like these insomic posts.. because they dont make much sense to me... meh

My heart is pounding, hands are shaking and I am extremely weak at the knees. No I didnt see Jim Carrey. I just pierced my friggen ear. I have this lovely condition where I continously pierce my ears, and one side grows over in a day and the other stays open. So NEEDLES to say I have more holes in one ear than the other.. and usually cannot wear ear rings because the other side friggen grows over.

I decided that I am giving it one more shot.. but OMG my nerves!
I used to love the rush from getting a piercing.. now im an old chicken shit.

Other than that my life is extremly boring. Pathetically I would be saying the same if I was getting a lap dance from a gay male dancer.

What can I say? everything seems so boring. I am also extremely fustrated because I dont even have the freedom to go on a random road trip. Man I dont get two days off in a row.. and i would feel really guilty if i ever faked sick.

The randomness seems to be taken away.

Oh well.. something is going to happen soon. I can feel it. I just have no idea what it will be. If nothing happens I will need to make something happen. lol.

Something I have noticed for the last while is that my tummy is screwed up feeling. It feels like someone went inside and twisted all of the organs and arteries. It is like one of my ovaries have been moved from the lower pelvis to my right shoulder, while the other one was pushed down closer to my legs.

Sure sounds healthy ey?

Swimming is coming soon.. and i will look just as sexy in a bathingsuit as i did last year.. which is neither good nor bad news. meh

yay.. I am happy i pierced my friggen ear. I actually miss my tongue ring. I bet my teeth would have been in pretty bad shape by now though.

So.. here is my new goal:
To get 2 days off in a row and do something fun with them!

Ouch.. im turning the big 21 this week. Meaning that I will be legal everywhere. No biggie though right? I can't wait to go swimming, camping and to have a bomfire.
I have been pretty boring lately. I have been busy with my upei course as well as my bank course.
Thank god I won't be doing any summer school.
There is so much flowing through my mind right now that I can't put it into words.
PEI PEI PEI pro or con?
I think that I am killing my brain with this rap music that I am listening to right now.

So Im playing online poker and sucking at it. Can anyone explain how I woke up Sunday morning with a chipped tooth and extra clothes on? Didnt think so. I must say Jenna.. you bring an interesting night. I havent cruised around for that many hours straight since I was 16. The wreath expedition was confusing but entertaining. I loved the dream park .. even though i was in a dress wearing pointed shoes..which continued to get caught between the boards on the playground.
Good times
My lips are chapped from cinnamon hearts.
I am in an amazing mood right now. I cant say that i had a great day..but nothing to complain about

arg.. i am not happy right now. Friggen Jackson was caught in the act of pissing on my coat which so happened to be on the love seat. What a fucker. There is nothing more discusting then the smell of cat piss.
I dont care if he can be all nice and cuddly..DONT PISS ON MY STUFF!
enough
My head is kinda spinning right now. My course just seemed to decide to dump all of the work into the next couple of weeks. Whatever though. It is my own fault for going to school part time.
I am a big whiner..
I am lucky that i am a never ending optimistic loser though. Otherwise I would probably be pretty depressed right now.

I am finally beginning to understand that i am a huge money waster. Best of all is that I usually have nothing to show for it.
I was just sidetracked for about 20 minutes..

Dream

I had a dream the other night.
I was at an old friends house, and so was my cat chicken. Hime me and a couple other guys were just hanging out in the living room when this guy i dont know says "hey lets go hand out in the other room for a minute" I said" Oh god I know what you wanna talk to me about"
He was going on to me about how he knows that i have a man but my friend just doesnt understand why i dont want him. How this friend still really likes me, and thinks that we would have something 'special'. I looked at this guy and rolled my eyes and told him" ya that I have been with Dan for four years. This has been going on with _____(friends name) for over four years. I cant believe that he is still talking about it."
The guy was all shocked. By this time we were just hanging out lying in this ol friend of mines bed. He started getting all touchie feely when my cat chicken jumped up on my chest all happy. She was just purring away and i didnt look at her .. When i did look at her i saw that she caught a mouse. She ran away leaving this dead mouse on my chest.
I thought "okay eww gross i have to get that off me"
The guy said "hey that's not a mouse"
I looked back down at it and whatever it was its eyballs started bleeding out along with other places.
I started freaking out, jumped up and started gagging.
I was going to vomit.

So I ran to the bathroom only to find that the it was in use and the door was closed/ So I ran to the kitchen to find somewhere to puke and found that my ol friends parents were doing dishes.
There wasnt any more time. I put my hand over my mouth and started projectile vomiting. Vomit spraying in between the cracks of my fingers all over the kitchen floor, even some on the wall.

Everyone was looking at me like my head was cut off.
Then my stomach started rowing again, so i ran to the bathroom and continued getting sick.

Nice dream ey?
My dreams are so vivid, its like my unconcious mind is trying to scream at me to listen.

Busy busy busy.
I like it. I can truthfully say that I would rather have a million things to do and be putting them off than to have nothing to do and be doing nothing.
I have been putting a lot more effort into getting together with the family lately. I mean the grandmothers and maybe even the cousins. I spend a ton of time with my immediate family, which is great. When I lived in fredericton i missed them so much i got a house right next door to them when i moved back!! Im not sure if i will always be like that though. If i am it will be impossible for me to ever move far away for a while. Cant live with them or without them:)

I would like to make a tribute to Mr Clow. Who passed away last Saturday evening. He may have been 85 years old but he was always out and about...Until the unfortunate turn of events on Saturday night where he was crossing the street and was hit by a vehicle. (No alcohol or anything was involved but it is still really sad)
He is one of the neighborhood people that you would always see around within grand tracadie. If he wasnt driving up and down the road in his car he was taking Toby for a walk, always giving a wave on his way by.

I beleive that these things happen for a reason though. Even if they dont seem to make sense they happened for a reason. There have been so many deaths in this neck of the woods that it just makes me wonder what it is suposed to mean. Bernie, Darrell, Grampie, Tyler, Linus...
I dont know.