I saw this on Aimee's blog and decided to steal it.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Sold a house, moved to a downtown location, go to Calgary and volunteer at a crisis center.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made a resolution last year. This year I hope to avoid freaking over the small stuff focus more on the present (so yes to the second part of this question)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Chelsea Ling! aka Matt's lady


4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year thankfully

5. What countries did you visit?
Didn't visit- just lived in good ol Canada

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A decision about my school path. Curtains.


7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 14- random adventure with Heather, Lin and Sharlene
November 13- Too cheesy
August 12- 2nd wedding anny
September 9- 6 six years with Dan
Last week of September- Trip to Alberta!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I became less of a bitch and less stubborn

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not being there as much as I should of been for my friend during her first serious breakup experience.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was sick off and on for 2 months after my Calgary trip. I had an ear infection. My car accident knee wound has been killing me, had a lovely fall down the pizza delight stairs (911 jail) and have gorgeous bruises that randomly form on my legs. I have been falling apart this year.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
laptop.. maybe?

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
JILL

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Rob.. appalled- not depressed

14. Where did most of your money go?
going out, movies, booze

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Road trips.. surprisingly on PEI, trip to Alberta, selling out house, randomly bumping into people that I consider awesome. Sadly last night a 'The Hills' episode. Dancing!


16. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
Womanizer, I kissed a girl, put your hand up on my hip, clumsy, Hot n cold.. clearly I do not know the actual names of many songs

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Both to the extreme. I have been bipolar this year (no pun intended)
b) thinner or fatter? a little fatter
c) richer or poorer? richer...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Painting, road trips, exercise

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Getting into silly T.V. series

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Dan and I have already celebrated, then my grams, my 'rents and then the 'rent in law's

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nah

22. How many one-night stands?
I don't think it counts when it is with your husband

23. What was your favourite TV program?
ANTM

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a strong word but I dislike one particular person more this year than ever.

25.What was the best book you read?
Jane Eyre

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Battery Point hehehe

27. What did you want and get?
A different perspective on life

28. What did you want and not get?
To hitch hike across Canada or the US 60's style :(

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
Into The Wild

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Went to Gahan for drinks with matt, chelsea, Tasha and Danial and enjoyed a gift of Vanilla vodka

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having the house sell before July, I would be living in Toronto right now otherwise.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
I would wear random clothes that I found or randomly turned up in my laundry.

33. What kept you sane?
Danial, Sarah, Tasha and long hot bubble baths

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I have been obsessed with Tyra this year.. I am brave enough to admit it ;)

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
ABORTION- and how a woman's body deserves to be her own. How when a woman become pregnant her body suddenly becomes societies concern. This as well as many other women issues.

36. Who did you miss?
Tasha, Mitch and other people who I have lost contact with over the years.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
Sarah :D

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008?
To understand the origin of things before jumping to join

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
any song that talks about ups/downs, enjoying being young.

I am a baby

A few minutes ago I was watching the Planet Earth DVD set and CRIED when a wolf caught a calf. I balled. Dan had no idea why I was sobbing over it and kept telling me "it's nauture,,, hunny, like the circle of life" .. Talk about being overly emotional!!

I am sitting on my couch and here random clunks and rattles coming from the neighbours. Whatever it is, it keeps running up an down along the wall we share. Hmm I wonder what they are doing. I am sooo not used to hearing people living near by. I have never heard them talk. This makes me wonder if it is because they are mute of if little sound travels between the walls. I would prefer that my neighbours did not hear all of the conversations that I have.

I am not in a good mood at the moment. Hell with it.. I am sad. I got really frustrated because I could not get my point across to Danial about something stupid. Fuck that pisses me off.

I bumped into a crazy girl that I used to be friends with today. I didn't exchange words, just facial expressions. Her craziness was not just 'fun' it was also 'crazy bitch'. Some interesting memories though.

School's Out/ Chicken

So I thought I would be a dork and post a couple pics of my kitty. She is clearly cranky in both pictures.. She does not enjoy the flash of a camera in her eyes.
All in all I have been having a good week. It is always nice to spend time with friends and family after being hidden away from the world for a while.. Honestley, I was only really 'hidden' from my parents. I made a visit out there recently. I am going to be sure to see both of my grandmothers over the holidays too.

Today my plan is simple-- get together with Ali for hot chocolate and then go to the gym. I am getting excited about going xmas shopping. Our trip to Halifax isn't going to happen so that leave a couple of extra dollars to do things.

I hate the fact that it is raining outside. I can't stand gross slush.

I got a mark back on one of my final papers which I didn't think was amazing and I got a 90 on it. Something like this happened in another class where I had two projects worth 20 percent each. I got 97 on one and 100 on the other. On top of that the class had 'participation' points worth ten percent of the grade. There is 50 percent that I got full marks for. I like to think that it is because I am smart and get good grades, but I have the strange idea that maybe the professors are 'easy markers'. This shouldn't bother, but it kind of does. I didn't want to attend university to get the whole 'Internet scam style' degree. I get how people think that since they "Pay so much money for university they deserve a decent grade" but I think that is crap. I want to go to university and feel like I am making an accomplishment. Maybe this is asking too much?

Whatever. I love how people have such strong opinions about the stingy requirements to get into certain programs. I agree that some of the requirements are crazy because they do not even pertain to the area but for most part they are logical.

I had an interesting debate with a chick recently about how some school programs require volunteer experience. She thought this was outrageous. Once again, I can understand her thoughts but she couldn't see past it. She thought that since she pays money to a place that it should be enough and she should be able to get into whatever area that she wants by waving around the dollar bills. Isn't this kind of crazy? I know that it may happen, but it is scary to think about high class medical doctors having no 'medical smarts' and be performing surgery. I am sorry lady, but I pray that you will never have the funding to operate on me.


~PEace

Stupid Apartment

grr.. I am no princess but I get reeeallly annoyed with the shit that does not work in this apartment. I don't think that we have a single doorknob that works as it should. I went to go do dishes today and of course the plug does now work. Dan bought this flat plastic thing that moves everytime something bumps into it. Eff..

Okay I feel a little better.

I dont think that it is a horrible place to live. It is pretty good actually. I just dont have patience for things that do not work.

So I guess that I was a lot more stressed about school than I realized. After I became aware that this term has been complete I felt all light, airy and happy. Happy is good.
I am excited for the gals party tomorrow night. I am curious if people will be more in the "woooooo partay" or "Pj's and movies" mood. I will be happy with either or.
I would like to thank Tash for the "Early christmas pres". I can't wait till you move home!!!!! :D :D :D
It has been far to close to a year which is waaayyy to long.

*As Is*

So, I was becoming more and more frustrated with studying for exams so I decided to take a break and post. I am quite surprised with the amount of posting that I have been up to lately. I have two exams and then my semester is complete. I am pretty bored of school right now, but who isn't? If finances allow it I plan to go out this weekend after working hard all term. Not that this would be an extreme special treat because I have been out a lot since I moved into town.

I don't have anything too interesting to say which means that I am clearly only posting to avoid other things that need to be done.

I have been expectantly began to understand myself more lately. This is kind of funny because I always had a good grasp of 'me' in the past. I went through some tough times in the last couple of years and have coped in ways unusual for myself. I am so custom to just blabbering anything that comes to my mind and having instant relief that I am impressed to finally be able to tame it down a bit.
Naturally, this does not apply when I am overly intoxicated.
I went to the other extreme for a while which was attempting to keep it all down-- as I should have already known, this does not work for me.

I love being married and am happy that Danial and I have a mutual understanding of what marriage is to us. I have far too many times den when couples have completely different expectations of themselves and each other which lead to ultimate confusion.
I am glad to say that I feel like a generally happy person.

I wish that I didn't but I do--CCR Baby~I love you

Kind of in a rhyme mood today. My rhymes are always song so I guess that they are more melodies.
Current Setting-
On Dan's computer in the living room while Mr X is in the office performing click floor. Dan has gone for a run and I am apparently timing him. He did what I was going to when we moved to town.. He is running on a regular basis and cutting down the junk food. He is sculpting his muscles and hopes that I will call him a hunk.

It was a long boring day today. It was my final days of classes for the term :)! Yep, kind of exciting. I did not get the end of the term kick that usually happens. 2 exams and then I am finished... holidays indeed.

I really wish that I had a extra large bath tub to have a nive relaxing bath. I don't mind our new place but I am a bit nervous to bath it up. I remember living on West Ridge Cres and having a bath. Wonderful thing about apartments is that often the part of the tub that you rest you head is situated so that you can see directly behind the toilet. To my horror I glanced in that direction and it was like a secret portal for monsters to escape into our realm throughout the night. SO gross. It was like a gross mold growth that was furry? Just so happened to cover the entire back of the toilet.
This is something that I have come to fear. This apartment too has that special toilet/tub situation and I am likely going to avoid it.




So... I thought I would post this pic of creepy me and Tash from New Years 2007 (I think).. It's hard to believe how short my hair is! I can't believe how creepy I am..Oh well..

I am kind of surprised that I already am missing things about our house. We put a lot of work into at the end and it became more and more of a home. 3 years living in one place is a long time for me. I already miss having my own deck, fire pit, flower beds.. etc. It was the right decision though. We don't have it holding us back anymore, so I will just have to look forward to the next time we purchase/build a home.

My Glade Plug-in Overwhelms Me

I have way too much to do but instead I have decided to post! ahah. So I am sitting in my living room right now listening to Dan make supper while being overwhelmed by the fresh glade plug-in. I don't know what is wrong with me but my sense of smell is reallly sensitive. An example of it is our new apartment-- usually I would be used to the smell by now, but I can still smell the people that were here previously. I am not saying that they stink-- it just really confuses me. This is probably because I had the luxury of living in a new home that had no previous owner smell.
I think that the strangest thing about my newly acquired sense of smell is that when I get a "whiff" it is like a smack in the face. *Pow* Here you go-- a blast of an overwhelming scent.
The last time that I remember having this issue is when I lived in Fredericton and worked at BMO on Saturdays. After being up later and intoxicated the night before I had the special ability of smelling all of the scents associated with each individual that I waited on that day. :S :S Not a good experience.

Today while re-organizing/unpacking we came across the Christmas decorations which brought up my spirits a bit and I put up a couple of things :). I am trying really hard to avoid decorating full fledged until I am finished of this semester.

Eww. I just looked at my foot that had fallen asleep and it has turned a dark purple.

I look forward to tonight because I am getting together with Sarah for coffee! I love how certain people can make me so happy when I see them.

I am half asleep right now,,, but this is not unusual. I am almost sickened with how far into November it is. Next thing to come and go is christmas.

It is that busy time of the school term where everything is due and everyone is so drained from classes. It will be awsome when it is over. I will have almost a month off from school :) Of course I have no special plans for this time other than pick a few extra shifts and prepare for christmas.

Danial has been doing awsome with the unpacking. I have not done any of it because I am "only school mode".

I have been thinking (as I sometimes do) about how things have changed. I have met some realy awesome people since high school, but my original buds will always have a special place in my heart. I am not in contact with quite a few people who have been really important to me. I know that it is normal for people to drift apart... It's just that I miss them. When I look at Danial I am in awe because he is still close to his original friends (minus a few exceptions).

I don't know.. maybe I just didn't/haven't put in enough time or effort to keep in touch... blah.. it doesn't matter what the reasons are.... I just MISS THEM.

I hate (right now) how so much of life is focusing on the past or the future. It seems almost impossible to only think about the here and now.

Even though I am having all of these thoughts about the past I am pretty happy with the present. I will no longer be waiting for hours and hours for Danial to get off work to go home.

oh--side note: I have not lost touch with everyone that I went to grade school. I have successfully reconnected with a couple of yas (Jill, Tasha). You two are important to me too :)

-Peace

Fresh

Pheuf..
Since I last posted a lot of stuff has happened.. the most exciting is that we sold our house. It was completely unexpected because our house was not even officially for sale anymore. Our original Realtor contacted us and said that someone wanted to look at our place. We said 'okay' and they made an offer the same day that they saw it. On top of that they gave us less than two weeks for closing of the mortgage. Honestly, everything was very much still not official until less than a week before closing pending their mortgage approval and our house inspection. This left us with very little time to pack and find a place. Somehow we managed to do this and are now moved into an apartment in Charlottetown.

New found freedom! I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Right now Danial and I have plans that could take us anywhere across Canada so it was a relief to have the place sold.

I am really enjoying living with the convenience of Urban life. We are pretty close to the heart of Charlottetown and I am not used to saving all this time that was previously used for traveling to and from. It is going to take a while to get used to the 'city noises'.

Even with the stress and craziness of moving I have been in a good mood lately. I am happy that this has finally fell into place.

Never said it would be easy,
but who said it would be his hard?
-Coldplay

It doesn't seem fair
To you or to me
to be caught up in that type of fantasy

I try and I try to put myself in your shoes
It doesn't work and is fustrating,
Like spinning thread onto spools

Then I noticed
There are forbidden names
Names that aren't said
without emotional turns

Why are there limits?
To what can be said or done?
Life is without freedom
no matter what we have said or done

It was previously simple
The rules were clear
But when the time comes it changes

It is all so confusing,
because of within
not lost in translation,
with varsious tongues or fears

I wonder-----

I am currently avoiding school work. This is something that was regular when I was at UNB but hardly happens anymore. I am extremely overwhelmed right now ("is it possible to be 'whelmed'" haha). My brain is spinning. I can't complain too much though because I have had an okay day today. I got back a couple of assignments and did better than I expected to. That makes it okay. I am glad that I will now be having both Monday and Friday off. I really need it! I was finding that working on Monday just stressed me out. I will still work Saturdays, which I don't mind. I can do whatever on the weekend as long as i get sunday to catch up on reading.

Obviously school is on my mind A LOT. That is the biggest part of my life right now. I feel like I am at such strange point in life. I think that I feel like that any time that I think clearly about my situation.

Other than school and work, I am volunteering at two places. One is quite organized- a crisis centre the other not as organized- i basically pick the events that I would like to take part in. In the past I never would have understood just how much cna be learned from volunteering. I have always been the type to take pride in my job, but volunteering give me a different aspect.

ah.. I know what I need.. a chill night out of the house. Not a big adventure or a bar scene but just something simple.
I ran out of my favorite Chai tea ..

hmmmm

Finally curtains in the living room. It only took 3 years and we were too cheap to purchase our own. Mom was nice enough to give me an old set. I don't like getting too "homey" here though, because I fully intend to move out.
The market it so awful right now that our house is a hard sell. I feel like it holds me back. I was going to be in Toronto for September 2008 but cancelled because of the house not selling.

I watched the movie "Into the Wild". I have been thinking about it a lot because it is so bittersweet. Sometimes I can completely relate to him. I too, was once was all honest and found it horribly fustrating to realize that it isn't how people work. I love how this story describes freedom. Ultimate freedom being into the wild with no strings attached. I wish that I could just go somewhere.. get up and leave without having obligations. Not likely ey? It is one of those things that I hear most people say at least once.

I know that I say it all the time, but I am shocked how different my life is now than what I expected. And I am only 22. The pressure is more and more 'on' to be responsible as we get older and older. I can totally relate to the people who never settle down. I wish that I could have a real adventure. Even though I say this I realize that it probably won't happen. Not with my current situation at least. I really want to explore, but not in a structured way.

I went on a trip to Calgary which was awsome. I am surprised with how different it is compared with the maritimes! Even compared with Central Canada it is a huge change.

Another tihng about the "Into the Wild" story that makes me think is about solitude. Even though I love people and would be extremely lonely without anyone, I sometimes wish to be completely alone. I don't just mean alone for a day to myself. I sometimes wish that I could be alone for months and months at a time. I have fantasies about what it would be like. Life is so busy that I don't get too much time for self reflection any more. Now that I am a little more mature I understand that this is simply 'life'. I wonder if being alone would increase my creativity or simply make me see clearly that I have lost my creativity?

I think it would be interesting to be alone for an extended period of time and then see who would come across me. Would I have interesting insights? Or would I simply turn into a crazy?

Oh here is another thought... Children... I think that it is funny that I was brought up to automatically assume that I would have kids someday. It is made to seem to logical and natural. Would it be horribly selfish to not have children? I think that the ability to create life is amazing but why should I feel like I want to do this. It is interesting that so many people feel that they need to have children to be fufilled. I certainly want to be fufilled or to reach "self actualization" but I believe that baby making is not required.

Now this is not saying that I do not want to have kids, it is just me questioning how the idea of having kids was placed in my mind.

There is something that I need to do to reach fufillment, but I wonder if striving to reach this is what keeps humans active and happy. If I reached my full potential I guess that I can then continue to retain it, but I think that people would loose interest in life.

All that I know is that my deepest "want" is not material. I am not sure if it is an adventure or to attempt becomeing a better person but the "want" is there.

If only I could sufficently psychoanalize myself. haha.

questions questions questions. I am full of them.

summer 2008 = summer of damage. It all began at the end of May when I was leaving a local restaurant after supper. I was walking down a set of cement steps when I lost balence and went into the air face first. Luckily my legs managed to reach the cement before my face. The pain ran up my legs as if my bones have splintered.
Most recently involved a tumble in the grass burning my knees.

My legs are still covered in bruises cuts and burns.

brrrrrrr I am so cold right now!!
So I keep having these awful dreams about a friend that I havent talked to in a long time.. and they annoy me so much. There are obviously things goin on in the back of my mind about this person.. lol sometimes it is not so at the back of my mind..
I just have to get my head around it.. Obviuosly I am purposly leaving out much detail about it because I have no idea who culd be reading this.

Just to put some of you at ease.. im not talking about anyone who i have spoken to in the last year.. haha
These dreams are so friggen detailed.. This one centered around crazy fruit flys.. facinating i know.
I am not in touch with back of my brain so much anymore.. if that makes any sense at all
blah so cold! the heat is on but i am still freezing.
So many things are in the air with my life right now that i have learned to just not think about it anymore.
I probably should be making some large decisions but i am just too wrapped up with other things at the moment.

I better start some school work or i will be regretting it later!
Brad and Melissa are coming over tonight for supper.. so that should be fun.. better make use of my time till then
~

Summer has come and gone again!
oh well..So i am back into school full time. Quite the interesting life change..but i guess that is what im all about. I can keep doing the same old thing. lol.

I had a funny realization a few minutes ago. I was looking at an old yoga,pilates and stress relief book I had..that Dan got for me... I then began thinking about the scented candles and bubble bath that he gets me ever year. He gets me this special calming bubble bath for stress relief.. Then I also remembered how he got me a medication and stress relief tape.. as well as tension tamer tea.. and cooling releaving face masks..
he got me a pilates mat and yoga dvd...
As i was thinking this i turned to him to bring up theses tibits.. and he quickly says.. " I always get you stress stuff because you seem to always be stresses"

Wow.. Was he reading my mind.. not that i think that im stressed ALL the time.. but how he THINKS i am stressed all the time hehe

Why havent i picked up on these signs before.. I mean it has been 5 years of him showering me with stress relief gifts.... this huge trend that i have been completely blind to.

Obviously I must have some stress issues.. but i certainly dont think that im the type of person that is stressing every day of the week.

I am definetly more high strung than him..
He has always been a pretty layed back type of guy that wouldnt get too stressed about every day things..
I know that i definetley think about things into detail far too much.

Oh well .. maybe i will take some of my dear husband's advice and chill out.

I feel pretty special to have a cutey that is always taking care of me. :)

So I feel like I am waisting the summer. I finally got to the beach last weekend. Not as if we really had many beach days so far this summer.
I guess that there is a lot going on in life for me right now though. I have a lot of things that I am trying to do at once. One thing that I did do is tell my boss that I am thinking of going back to school full time. He was completely cool about it. I think that he may be the coolest boss that I ever had.

He even gave me the option to work there part time during the school year.

Now will I actually go to the school?? Or will I back out??
For those of you who know me well, know that I have been wanting to go to school for the last two years on and off again.

I keep making reasons not to go.. but then find myself kicking myself in the ass for not doing it.

I am now putting a hell of a lot more effort into going this time.. but that does not mean that it will happen.

Of course.. all my own fault...
Lots of exciting stuff going on,.. but I don't feel good about the whole internet world knowing my junk.

I know I know.. I never used to give a crap.. but I guess that I am changing...

Changine topic:
I am planning on going to the Aerosmith concert this Saturday... Am really wondering who else will be playing..considering that it is an all day event.

Maybe there will be someone good? Meh
I am going with my sista.. so it could be fun.. hehe

OHOHOH
Here is something.. I may be moving off island to Toronto or something!!
But here is the real shocker.. It may be without Danial..
Yah.. I hear ya saying.. 'You wont be able to do it!'
but I will..

Poor Danial will be the one going nutty.. not know what to do with his time.
I only know that from experience.. when I moved home and Dan stayed in fredericton for a month.

Who knows what will happen in the future!

So I woke up this morning to the phone ringing..but i ignored it.. Then whoever it was hung up and called back.. i let it ring through again... then when it rang the third time..i decided that it must be important enough to drag my but out of bed...

So I jumped up..grabbed a blanket... ran into the living room to get the phone.. Yah I was naked.
When i answered the phone i found out it was Dan telling me that my aunt was on her way over to pick something up..
just as he was telling me i heard a quick knock and there she was... "HI!"
I was like okay danial she is here and i have to go because im naked.

She was like oh my god your naked!! its okay its just me..Why are you naked??!
I explained to her .. that i just woke up.
She couldnt believe that i was still in bed at 10:00am

That all embarressed me a little bit.//
But I became even more embarressed to look around and see the mess that she was seeing. I see this lady once or twice a year and she was getting quite the impression.

Of course guys it was friday night last night.. so ihad a few drinks.. aka empty bottles.. i gobbled some fast food.. aka fast food garbage.. not to mention that everything elses was kinda in a crazy mess.

Then instead of leaving with what she needed .. she tried to make some conversation to make me feel better.. i couldnt even answer her in a normal way. ha ha

Nice aunt.. love her.. no scarcasm.


Am i turning into a housewife..no.. i am just starting to care about when people come in and find our "morning after" mess. This does scare me to think about what else i might turn into.. come the future.
meh..i am not going to worry about..
I am kinda happy because i actually have a two day weekend..

egret

Long time no post. I almost decided to retire this blog. I of course am sitting here not able to sleep.. I am so full of marshmellows that I swear if you were to take a blood test only sugar would come out.
I have been on vacation for the last week.. and am sillily getting upset about it. I dont feel like i am taking advantage of the time as much as i should be .. yet i havent really been wasting a whole lot of time.
Maybe I am just more depressed about the idea of going back to work on monday. BLAH!

At least I will be going back to some nice shifts again. (not that i have much to wine about in that department anyways) Thats right ...monday to friday 8:30 till 5:00.. no more thursday nights ... and the weekend off.. Pretty sweet right?

I am so wound up right now.. eek

I decided to go rollerblading today.. and of course wiped out.. It was a crazy slow motion free fall.. Where i basically had time to think about the fall i was about to endure.
After i fell i scraped myself off the pavement and began laughing histerically. I felt like a kid again.. i was too proud about my scraped knee.


Now im feeling the pain though.. lol.. Man i can be a tough bitch. I also accidently sliced open the side of my foot with a dull foot scrapey thing which killed.

I dont know why but i am not getting my usual burst of excitment with the coming summer.. Usually the change in weather would be enough to keep me from cranking..not this time..
But so help me that is not going to stop me from having an AMAZING summer! Summer is my season.. I cant waste it by being silly.
..... oh oh oh.. I had the most amazing dream.. but i am not going to say it because i fully intent to make it into a movie..Thats right .. a big time movie WITH a sequel.. and that damn sequel has an alternate ending!!

I dont want to ruin it by telling you about it here on blog.

You know what I really hate> Are ticks. .. I saw one once and i get sooo grossed out with it now.. I was planting a flower and saw something that looked like one and i almost cried...
And let me tell you.. I am not the type that usally cries over bugs..

I dont really like these insomic posts.. because they dont make much sense to me... meh

My heart is pounding, hands are shaking and I am extremely weak at the knees. No I didnt see Jim Carrey. I just pierced my friggen ear. I have this lovely condition where I continously pierce my ears, and one side grows over in a day and the other stays open. So NEEDLES to say I have more holes in one ear than the other.. and usually cannot wear ear rings because the other side friggen grows over.

I decided that I am giving it one more shot.. but OMG my nerves!
I used to love the rush from getting a piercing.. now im an old chicken shit.

Other than that my life is extremly boring. Pathetically I would be saying the same if I was getting a lap dance from a gay male dancer.

What can I say? everything seems so boring. I am also extremely fustrated because I dont even have the freedom to go on a random road trip. Man I dont get two days off in a row.. and i would feel really guilty if i ever faked sick.

The randomness seems to be taken away.

Oh well.. something is going to happen soon. I can feel it. I just have no idea what it will be. If nothing happens I will need to make something happen. lol.

Something I have noticed for the last while is that my tummy is screwed up feeling. It feels like someone went inside and twisted all of the organs and arteries. It is like one of my ovaries have been moved from the lower pelvis to my right shoulder, while the other one was pushed down closer to my legs.

Sure sounds healthy ey?

Swimming is coming soon.. and i will look just as sexy in a bathingsuit as i did last year.. which is neither good nor bad news. meh

yay.. I am happy i pierced my friggen ear. I actually miss my tongue ring. I bet my teeth would have been in pretty bad shape by now though.

So.. here is my new goal:
To get 2 days off in a row and do something fun with them!

Ouch.. im turning the big 21 this week. Meaning that I will be legal everywhere. No biggie though right? I can't wait to go swimming, camping and to have a bomfire.
I have been pretty boring lately. I have been busy with my upei course as well as my bank course.
Thank god I won't be doing any summer school.
There is so much flowing through my mind right now that I can't put it into words.
PEI PEI PEI pro or con?
I think that I am killing my brain with this rap music that I am listening to right now.

So Im playing online poker and sucking at it. Can anyone explain how I woke up Sunday morning with a chipped tooth and extra clothes on? Didnt think so. I must say Jenna.. you bring an interesting night. I havent cruised around for that many hours straight since I was 16. The wreath expedition was confusing but entertaining. I loved the dream park .. even though i was in a dress wearing pointed shoes..which continued to get caught between the boards on the playground.
Good times
My lips are chapped from cinnamon hearts.
I am in an amazing mood right now. I cant say that i had a great day..but nothing to complain about

arg.. i am not happy right now. Friggen Jackson was caught in the act of pissing on my coat which so happened to be on the love seat. What a fucker. There is nothing more discusting then the smell of cat piss.
I dont care if he can be all nice and cuddly..DONT PISS ON MY STUFF!
enough
My head is kinda spinning right now. My course just seemed to decide to dump all of the work into the next couple of weeks. Whatever though. It is my own fault for going to school part time.
I am a big whiner..
I am lucky that i am a never ending optimistic loser though. Otherwise I would probably be pretty depressed right now.

I am finally beginning to understand that i am a huge money waster. Best of all is that I usually have nothing to show for it.
I was just sidetracked for about 20 minutes..

Dream

I had a dream the other night.
I was at an old friends house, and so was my cat chicken. Hime me and a couple other guys were just hanging out in the living room when this guy i dont know says "hey lets go hand out in the other room for a minute" I said" Oh god I know what you wanna talk to me about"
He was going on to me about how he knows that i have a man but my friend just doesnt understand why i dont want him. How this friend still really likes me, and thinks that we would have something 'special'. I looked at this guy and rolled my eyes and told him" ya that I have been with Dan for four years. This has been going on with _____(friends name) for over four years. I cant believe that he is still talking about it."
The guy was all shocked. By this time we were just hanging out lying in this ol friend of mines bed. He started getting all touchie feely when my cat chicken jumped up on my chest all happy. She was just purring away and i didnt look at her .. When i did look at her i saw that she caught a mouse. She ran away leaving this dead mouse on my chest.
I thought "okay eww gross i have to get that off me"
The guy said "hey that's not a mouse"
I looked back down at it and whatever it was its eyballs started bleeding out along with other places.
I started freaking out, jumped up and started gagging.
I was going to vomit.

So I ran to the bathroom only to find that the it was in use and the door was closed/ So I ran to the kitchen to find somewhere to puke and found that my ol friends parents were doing dishes.
There wasnt any more time. I put my hand over my mouth and started projectile vomiting. Vomit spraying in between the cracks of my fingers all over the kitchen floor, even some on the wall.

Everyone was looking at me like my head was cut off.
Then my stomach started rowing again, so i ran to the bathroom and continued getting sick.

Nice dream ey?
My dreams are so vivid, its like my unconcious mind is trying to scream at me to listen.

Busy busy busy.
I like it. I can truthfully say that I would rather have a million things to do and be putting them off than to have nothing to do and be doing nothing.
I have been putting a lot more effort into getting together with the family lately. I mean the grandmothers and maybe even the cousins. I spend a ton of time with my immediate family, which is great. When I lived in fredericton i missed them so much i got a house right next door to them when i moved back!! Im not sure if i will always be like that though. If i am it will be impossible for me to ever move far away for a while. Cant live with them or without them:)

I would like to make a tribute to Mr Clow. Who passed away last Saturday evening. He may have been 85 years old but he was always out and about...Until the unfortunate turn of events on Saturday night where he was crossing the street and was hit by a vehicle. (No alcohol or anything was involved but it is still really sad)
He is one of the neighborhood people that you would always see around within grand tracadie. If he wasnt driving up and down the road in his car he was taking Toby for a walk, always giving a wave on his way by.

I beleive that these things happen for a reason though. Even if they dont seem to make sense they happened for a reason. There have been so many deaths in this neck of the woods that it just makes me wonder what it is suposed to mean. Bernie, Darrell, Grampie, Tyler, Linus...
I dont know.

arg

.. umm yeah.. about the last post... Dont really remember where i was trying to go with that. flagla.
So christmas has come and gone.. Everyone family wise were sick all at different times.. I was a little but not bad enough to complain.
My job is really boring. It is so friggen boring. Some of you out there wouldnt think so.. you would love every minute of it.. but im just going through a blah work stage.
What else is new?
the potluck last night was great. Everyone had suck amazing food. It was delicious. Huge turn out though. Met a lot of new people.
Once again realized how much I would like to learn to play guitar.
Just another thing on my huge list of things i want to do.

that's right

Im making a post and i am reallllly wasted!!!
"rocK oN!!!!"
I know a lot of things about myself aka i am learingin to diserfer them.. blah spelling LOL!@
ok soo just so you can see where i am coming from .. so far tonight i have drank a bottle of homemade wine.. some champagbe.. rev.. captain morgain spiced rum ... moose head dry..whatever else i cannot rememmer. .. i am enjoying some wicked awsome live musice shake~m...
i am hearin conversation about "how real it feels... in the 70's)
wtf
am is still doin here!! ahhh
ok enough!!!!!!

locomotion

Christmas is almost here!! I have been putting of shopping stubornly because I was in denial how close it is! We put lights up outside last night. Bright blue ones. It is fun to have our own house and get to pick what goes outside.

Every week goes by quicker and quicker. We keep getting busier and busier. I love it like that.. so I am not complaining. I am one of those people who goes nuts when there is nothing to do. I would much rather have a load of things I could be doing and choose to do nothing instead :)

My weekends are too short. Friday night poker is always pretty wicked.. and then I cant help but go out Saturday night, Simply because I dont work Sundays.
So Danial is makeing a 'special' supper for me right now.. I am so hungry.. mmm

I dont have anything very interesting to say.

Yet I have noticed all of the friggen court hearings about murders lately. Pretty crazy. I dont even have to read a good mystery anymore.. just turn on the news. I have been thinking a lot about how it would suck to be on jury duty. If I was jobless or something it wouldnt matter. But for those huge cases they are only paying people 16,000.00 a year. For people like me with student debt..\other debt.. thats not enought to cover the bills.

I suck .. I am 20 year old and am up to my eyeballs in the negative.. lol
I dont care though.. Things always work out in the end... Although sometimes I feel like I am 47.. Which is why my current goal is to live young for godsakes.. ..I AM YOUNG


~peace

It is 1:45am and I get to work tomorrow. Too bad I cant sleep. I just cant stop thinking when i go to bed lately. I am constantly daydreaming.
Hopefully this post will make me tired enough to sleep.

This week I had a few days vacation.. pretty cool I basically chilled with Dan and Tasha. I have actually been kinda sick for about a week. Sick enough to make me not want to do anything but not sick enough to miss any days i had to work.
Dan and I finally got some yard stuff finished.. We made a wooden railing for our front step today. That was fun ,,I dont think i did too bad using the eletric saw. I have been in christmas mode too.. Doing some decorating around the house. I did skip out on a pot luck that was suposed to be at work tonight. It sounded really fun.. everyone would bring in really yummy food and do christmas decorating crafts.

Sounded fun, but not fun enough for me to go in on my last day of vacation.
So I was just sitting here staring blank for about 10 minutes which to me means I have nothing left to post lol.
:)

new way

.. So I have been doing well with stuff.. yep thats right .. stuff.. Work is good.. I really like my job. And when you are working full time .. it's important.

I kind if feel like I have turned a new leaf.. I usually am feeling really refreshed feeling.. and when i feel depressed.. i just use it to motivate me.

mmm My hands smell like vanilla.
I just went blank,..
Dan and I are finally makeing our place feel like home.. Our walls arent quite so bare. still have a closet half full of unpacked things.. for most part we are good though.. We are such pack rats.. We keep the most meaningless peices of paper.. Like a blank paper I had a doodle of a flower on it..

We found a bag that we didnt unpack since 2003 which had broken glass from the front of an art piece.. I cant believe how horrible my spelling has gotten.. Dam high tech computers and auto spell check.. meh

If ANYONE wants a kitty .. they are ready to go now.. We found a home for one so there are 2 left.. both girl kitties.. on fluffy one medium haired.

I cant live meuch longer with 4 cats.. Cats are great.. Its just cleaning up 4 cats poop box that sucks. blah ..

I also would like to **announce that Dan and I will be hosting a New Years bash this year... The more the merrier! I dont know how many people look at this blog so i will make sure to pass the word more so when it gets closer.

i guess thats enough jabbering for now..

skndal it!!!

I have a kitty scratch on my pinky finger.. oh well.. I miss everyone!!!!! I went to visit tash last weekend and had a wicked time. here are some new pics.. some from the trippppp

WOH
October what? Blue October? Who!?
My fist memory of the hate song by Blue October is wicked.. I was really out of it middle of the night.. and a late night show came on.. I had/have no idea whether it was J~Lenno.. back to the point They rocked that stage.. I will never forget it. Last weekend was awsome.. I went to Elizabeth's concert of hope..with my boss and his wife lol. I saw some crazy intense violin with the horse strings flying off everwhere.. then some Shaye, Dan HILL and Jacksoul. It was cool. During intermission Dan and I did a hop and a skip to the liquor store and got some beer, which we consumed at one of my 'brother in laws' place.. Havent seen them since the wedding. One long night talking about banking clevage.

The weekend before that was also pretty sweet.. Dan and I went bar hopping in the ch'dot. After eating half a delicious donair at Jacks Dan got it to go and put the container in my big toronto purse.. Bad idea.. Cab ride home reached to make the payment to find everything drenched in donair sauce and donair meat. Im sure the cabbie loved it!

Well I have tomorrow off and have the whole night to do whatever I want!

BTW.. Thanks to EVERYONE who took part in the wedding..Everyone pulled together and made our day great! I love all of you!!! :P

hunkin fliez

jua zee
I have the weekend off.. That's right, both Sat and Sun! It seems like no one ever updates their blogs anymore!!
Cmon people! Give me something to do.
brrr
I cant beleive how cold it has gotten today! Time just doesnt stop playing this game with me.. I mean. I am still stuck in April 2005..
Oh yeah.. those awsome nights out with Alex or Tori.

hmmm I think that all I have been doing lately is Reminising.. Right now... I feel almost undescribable.. I dont know what I have been thinking about,, or what I want to do..
I now understand.. that my life is never going to slow down.. Not for a looong time anyways.
Does anyone else feel that time is just rediculous>?

Blogger isnt letting me post pictures..

I am not a born bride.

So the wedding was awsome. It was a beautiful ceremony, the food at the reception was awsome, and I had a lot of fun at the dance.
I am glad that we put as much work into it as we did, but it is time for the wedding excitement to go. LOL.

I was a strange little girl growing up. I never had fantacies of what my wedding day would be like.. let alone fantasize about being married. I was much too preoccupied with discovering whether or not supernatural powers could be acquired.

Growing up I always believed that one day I would just explode with super powers that have been waiting to suface from within.

Even though I am such a BORING adult right now... I definetly have super powers. You want details. nah.

On another note.. I cant wait to begin making clothes again. My parents got Dan and I a sewing machine for a wedding shower,, and I cannot wait to rekindle.

I get married in less than a week!!!

Sleep deprived..
baggy eyed
with gritted teeth.

more and more days
lacking the REM

Donair pizza.. you are my enemy
I must resist the sweet temtation


16 days

less than a month!

I am going to be a mrs in less than a month. It hit me a bit more today with the wedding shower. ..I am having so much fun with this. I hope to see everyone at the open dance... :)

cadada day 2006 :)

pics in red and white

CANADA DAY 2006!

Heres a look.
It is funny.. even though i am 'all grown up' When my brother pushes my buttons .. i explode. My family fights a lot.. just like most families.. but what i have been doing for the last few years.. is try to be the peace maker. I dont let them get on my nerves for all of the stupid things they do.. I try to be there for them to talk to me.. because they cant talk to eachother.. I try to be there for them..

But no matter how much one tries to make thing right.. thing will always blow up. and today by thing i mean me. I just get so sick of trying to do good. and then i slip up by -> yelling back or something..
uh

I just cant keep that built up inside. Anyone who know me.. know that is not me.. I say what i think,,. even when i shouldnt.

Talk about internal conflict..
In case yas couldnt notice.. I am really angry right now. I just get so stressed ..that sometimes.. i just want to jump on a plane and take off..

Some things do get better as ppl get older.. others just dont.

MAy.. ITs MAY!
Time makes me sick sometimes.Then again ..... (Oops lost my train of thought there)
I have started sending out wedding invites. We dont have a lot of ppls addresses.. so if you would like to be reallllly helpful.. send it to me!

Things are going to be pretty wild for time until the end on june.
Unless I become a horrible slacker and throw everything away. One summer course at upei is the equivelent to 2 regular courses it seems. Meh.

Like the pasty white

I am sick.. again :( I seem to be catching anything that is going around these days. Thats what i get for dealing with dirty money I guess.

I want some ice cream. mmm butterscotch.

Dan was on vacation this week.. Lets just say ..I didn t see too much of him. haha

I dont get to say this much.. but i am rreally overslept. I am having trouble typing for each finger has pain. Reasons varying from nasty steam burn, paper cuts and broken nails (the broken nails that go right donw to the skin of course)

I woke this morning around three am.. and was surprised with what i found in the staring back at me in the mirror. It was a strange version of me with exceptoinally slanted eyes that werequite puffy. And my lips pulled to such a tight line one could hardly tell they existed.

I cant wait until our front yard transforms from a mudlot to a grasslot.

Sleeping depresses me. Staying in the house all day long makes me clasterphobic.
I love red wine but miss my grandfather.

I had a great weekend. Natasha and I had our girls night Saturday. Going from pub to pub to try different coctails and martines. Never onve did we have the same drink twice.
Of course prior to that we shopped "till we dropped"

Lots of fun! :)

I am enthused for the upcoming summer. I will have to make up for the beach loss last summer.

I have been in higher spirits that last week or so.. Nice weather does that to me. Even though I constatnly have a sickly cold lagging on.

I love how a new job can make you feel 100 pounds lighter :)
dresses from scratch are my new hobby!

I just want to make time stop.. It is flying by.
..Except for today. lol. I am feeling really crappy. My stomach just wont settle. blah.
Happy Birthday Tasha! :)
Hope that you had a good night last night.
And happy birthday to you too steph!

I have been so drained these last couple of weeks.
Maybe I should take a *spa* day..

...
Today I beleive I will go to the gym and then drink much alcohol. :)
How "delightful"
...

i cannot beleive how quickly time is going by. i am having quite the trouble typing because my finger was sliced by a plastic bottle last night. yum!
the next thing it is going to be summer!
(which i of course cant wait for)
I am pretty stunned right now..Well actually since suday. My grandfather passed away, and it hasnt hit me yet. I just keep having flashes of spending time with him when i was young.
Things like this never happen when you 'expect' them to.

Another day ..another dollar..so they say

hmm
Things are busy as usual. Doing lots of money spending. Not like I really have it to spend. Jeeze Jackson is such a naughty kitten! He wants to eat EVERYTHING. . at the moment that includes my hair.

I drank way too much on Saterday. Even though I didnt get sick.. I do still have a tiny regret.. I really cant remember a whole lot at then end of the night. I mean it was to the point where I was play fighting and dont remember it.
I am really gonna have to watch that. It is actually kinda scary.


And Happy Valentines everyone :)
Today was a hard shift. but i was pleasantly surpised when to be sent home early by 45 minutes. (not too early to miss too out on $$ but just early enough to be considered a treat)

I also very excited to say that we again have a car! One that is not falling apart that is.

Another update.
I really wish that I could find a way to make that martini glass stop swinging so quickly. It is making me dizzy. LOL

We have good water! :) I find it so interesting that one can just dig a hole in the ground for your well and have drinkable water. Especially on PEI, where you can find a fresh water source virtually anywhere.

It is funny the things that I have gotten excited about when purchasing our first home. I mean who would think that a shale driveway would be that exciting! :P

I have to get a start on those wedding invites.

a year!

Wow!
I have had this blog for one full year.. The longest, most consistent web journal I ever had!
So we got the material for the bridesmaids this week. I think that they are going to be really pretty. :) One thing that surprises me, is just how classic you girls want your dresses. :P

I haven't gotten to the gym much lately. Things have just been... crazy to be honest. But hey, it's Friday.

I can't believe how quickly time has been going.
Oh ya.. I got comments again..

mmm I am really craving a carmel capachino from Second Cup.

And my head is still spinning...
Life concerning vehicles.. Fantastic.
<-
Coughing scarcasm.
That might through a few of yas off.. but I dont think it would be smart for me to get into it on here. I may seem to be a flake.. but not in cases like this.
BlAh

Now that I have gotten that off my chest. Work is just 'lovely'.. Life is like a blur.. Oh and here is a 'pet' update. We have named our new kitten Jackson.. After Samuel Jackson.

Crunch..
New layout.
This week has been pathetic. blah. One thing after another I swear. I am sore from head to toe.
What I need is a nice relaxing weekend. I wonder if Im going to be late for work?
SOmetime soon I think there should be a poker night planned. Anyone who is interested send me and email or whatever. +

Here I am.. Dan and I are offically living in the new place.. Nothing is unpacked.. but its all good.
Last night Dan and I babysat his neice. :) That was fun because I havent had a chance to hang out with her since we lived in Harvey.
We got home around 11 and crashed..
I woke around 2am with horrible cramping..Only thing we had was pain killers with caffeen. So needles to say I didnt go back to sleep.
Nope.. I cleaned.. washed dishes..plucked my eyebrows.. flossed my teeth.. Went for a visit to my parents house at 400am to visit the dogs. (No actual dogs.. Im not referring to my family) Went through my mail and trudged back to my place with a shuvel, kitty food, a water bottle and a armload of random peices of paper.

I then decided to make Dan breakfast in bed at 530am.

Judging by my horrible spelling and grahmar that I just cant seem to bother fixing.. This is going to be one long and dumb-struck shift.

friggen pain killers with caffeen.. Never again.. lol

oh ya.. hehe I scared the crap out of my mom at 5am because I was sitting on the sink cupboard thing when she sleepily went to the bathroom for a pee.

I think that may have been too much information.

:)
Started moving stuff into our place. I am pretty excited.

Still not feeling very well. Hopefully I will be up to spirit soon.
:)

2006!

It is 2006! How exciting. School starts tomorrow. Which means new campus and attempting to get around should be fun. Dan just told me that he is "craving fruit, like a nacho flavoured apple and cheese" Then making "chomp chomp" noises. Which can only mean one thing.


He is pregnant. Shhh We havent told our parents yet;)

Doctors say that Dan is a medical phenomenon.. Yet not the original of course.

At work again lol. Just waiting for Dan to get off work to pick me up. This is definetly going to be a challenge doing the one car thing and living in Grand Tracadie. Chicken and new kittys apointments are this Tuesday.

Dan and I had a great christmas. I was really nice. We got a few nice gifts as 'house warming' things. It was cute cause my family made the tags on the presents to 69 pleasant grove rd when they were meant for the mini home.

We still arent really sure what we are doing for new years yet. We probably wont know until Saterday.

number 80

#80
So here I am.. December 24, 2005.. and of course at work. Today is just one of those days. I woke up late, came to work with my hair all wet and cant wait to see if I will be sent home early. I doubt that I will be one of those lucky people though. Which means that I will be missing a christmas party with the future in laws this afternoon. :( All that yummy home made food. I love Dans family. Oh well at least I have another party to go to tonight. :)
So the mini home is mostly finished. by that I mean we have everything hooked up, all that is left is the signing of paper.
I am horribly excited to be getting back to school :) Excited and relieved.

java blabe

arg.. too many passwords.. I was doing so well on the path of a solitary password holder.. all that has changed.. for security reasons of course.
...just not my own personal security reasons.

On another note----

The news that I so randomly posted previously was regarding Dan and I are in the works of becoming home owners. Everything is in the works, yet I keep denying that it is going to happen. What can I say I am quite pass*emistic.

There is quite a bit going on.. I swear, I am just having trouble taking the time to write about any of it.
Jeeze.. I think this is turning into another post about nothing.
ah. I finished all of my christmas shopping. It is the first time I have finished it before the last couple days before. Sweet satisfaction.

Im getting more and more into the festive spirit. There are quite a few christmas parties coming up- and I plan to go to all that I am invited to . :)

update------


excited ....................... stressed...........and really really excited.. will tell more later

out

I went out to velv underground last night. oh yes wed,. night right after i got off work at 12 pm.. it was atually quite the interesting experience. I went out with a couple of gals from work.. I drank quite a bit.. but being lucky as i am i wasnt hung over. Other than that we found a home for one kitty.. so if anyone would like the last on just let us know :)

I am at work far too early and they are sendting ppl home early.. yep that means no extra hours. meh. ill find something to do

early riser

This week I have been bombarded by calls for used wedding dresses. Some of them actually seem pretty nice. aka the ones that were just bought in Septemeber and never worn. I really shouldnt even look for a gown this early, but I guess that is chelseas way of getting me excited..lol Dan and I did pick out our rings. Mine are just getting sized.
I need to get a haircut soon.
At least a trim.
It feels like christmas already! I woke in the morning and could smell winter. :)
I had to go to the doctor again. The prescription the other one gave me just made me sicker.
So I got a new one.

xmas??

whats new????
Chicken was pregnant and did have kittens.. and we discovered that the day that we went to take her to the vet that she had 2 lil kitties. Cute ey? If anyone wants a one let Dan or I know.. We will be wanting to give them a nice home.

I really miss school.. eek.

I have also been pretty sick this week.. I hate missing work from being sick... :S Hopefully I will get better soon.. Its just so crappy.. I am dizzy... and dont have an appetite.. and when I do get hungry and eat, it makes my stomach upset.

posting man

ITs been a while. I keep attempting to post and then the computer will break.. and I will forget to try again. Oh well. Wedding plans are beginning to come together pretty well. It will be at york church, this coming September. We are also getting things with land finished as well. Lots of fun in the near future* :)I am at work right now.. Last night of the week (Y) . Girls weekend ahead.---partying---shopping. Completely girl thing. hehe.


Im taking chicken in to her *first doctors appointment tomorrow.. We will see how healthy she is. I really dont have a whole lot else to say.. And my break is over..

surprise

surprise surprise
Stuck awake on a lazy saterday night. Actually this entire weekend has been crazy tame. Which is nice once in a while. Everytime I close my eyes I think about wedding stuff.. (oh yes; to all those who hav not heard Dan and I are engaged).. Today Dan and I had a BIG day of browsing..everything from rings to dresses, flowers and houses.
It is pretty exciting..yet I only get into these 'spirts' the odd time.
I have been getting in touch with old friends lately.. god I missed you guys :)
Yet I really have no idea how I am going to get in touch with one gal in particular..maybe I will be lucky.
We think that chicken may be a mother to be.. Thats what happens when you dont get her fixed.
and well there is my life lately.. work..planning..family..random friends.. good times.

latala

I feel nice and refreshed right now. I just got back from rollerblading with Dan. It feels great to get a little bit of exercise after working in a call center all day. I have been looking around for some nice material to make a shirt or a skirt out of. I was using moms sewing machine last week.. It is difficult to get used to, but not that different to what I learned with. hopeully it will do. I am also making a scrapbook. Which I am really looking forward to.
I am registered at UPEI for 4 psychology courses, and a biology with a lab. :)
goodgood
A lot has been happening lately.. but i guess i dont have the time to go further...
haha. next thing I know the entire month will have gone by and I wont have written an actual post.

post 71e

pheewww
I am having troubles with this blog. It keeps wiping out.. Maybe 3rd time is the charm. Not a whole lot is new. I have been working for a few days now... we will just have to see how long i actally last with it.
I am also trying to get school things straightened out. UPEI is so much different than UNB.. I am lookig forward to it though.
Mine and Dans new thing is rollerblading... And let me just say that I have definetly 'lost' it over the last couple of years. We have a lot of fun though. Dan begins work next monday.. he has started his classes too.
Lots of 'newness' in our lives.
I am not sure what I will be doing Friday night.. but Saterday Dan and i will be celebrating our 3 year.. :) :) :) :) :)
If anyone hasnt seen ranna, matt and robs new place you are missing out. :P
shmoddah boolatta bloom.

fh

Summer is comin to an end!
I love fall. It is my favorite time of the year. :)
Here is what is new;
We have been doing a lot of nothing. Having no job and all. We have also been goin out with friends quite a bit etc.
actually I was getting a little bit nutty at the end of it because I am so used to being overly busy constantly.I dont feel like that anymore because I do have a job set up. That job being at Resolve Corp as an internet Rep. I begin next Tues.
This job hunt wasnt that painful. It will hopefully work out too.. because come January I can still work there part time.
Gotta do what ya gotta do!
I am officially going to UPEI in January as well. Things in that department are going smoothly SO far.
hmm.. im still not in a writing mood. well if anyone is doing anything fun this weekend message me :)

Home again

We are home again..
This time permanently.. I think that once Dan and I get working we will be mostly living at his 'rents place.. Curently we are back and forth from his to my parents.
Other than that all else that is new is im about to begin the wonderful job hunting again.
Dan my brother Leigh and Rob all camped out at Blooming Point Saterday night.. It was really fun.. and strange at the same time.. By strange i am simply referring to a lady who decided to take her screeching son to a campout in the middle of the night.. and another group singing horrible charokee on the beach lol.
It feels so good to not be living in Fredericton. *sigh
hmm .. yep i m not in the writing mood..

PinK

BusY weeK~

Something new to look at! I was getting bored of the darkness of strange emily.. Im not finished changing it around yet.. Im not the best with html..especially with blogger..

Its moving week once again. lol.. This time wont be as rushed though. I get to get rid of all my bAnking responcibilities.. As in Special keys.. combinations passwords.. and all of that other stuff that I shouldnt really be talking about. Yet it actually doesnt matter because NO ONE has access to anything by themselves..
There are always double keys, comz passwords.. etc.
I am thinking of trying to get another bank job on PEI.. My branch managers are going to put a word in at both ch'town branches.ok enough boring stuff! :P
I am really looking forward to be back on the island for good. Well for good for a while.. who knows what will happen a couple of years from now... I am releived that i will get to help out my family easier... I think that this is the best move at the time being...

Hoping weather will be good Saterday night!
Only 3 more days of work :)

Im not even sure if i will have the chance to get together with all of my new buds from freddy before i leave... If not .. you guys rock! I will visit.
This is to court**** Call me when you get to town.. I dotn know whats happening tomorrow night***

cr@zy

okay.
RANDOM ACT OF THE DAY->
I bought a digital camera.. I litteraly just jumped out of my chair and raced to future shop to get inminutes after* they shut their doors. Heyhey they woulnt say no to an easy sale.. anywho.. I dont regret it ..yet.. and here is a funny pic of chikki.. There is a funnier one of me.. but I decided against it :P ..
Yay I can take pics now!

Sometimes

Sometimes when I watch an extremely strange movie, it makes me think. Sometimes it is hard to grasp an idea of what reality is suposed to feel like.
I have this creepy tendancy..
Whenever I watch movies which deal with crazy high amounts of psyological problems, I begin to wonder. I mean.. sometimes I can actually relate to those things. Which causes me to wonder..
and then I scare myself.
(haha)
Ever imagine what it would be like to be so deep within the burrows of your mind to have created a whole new reality? Since we do apparently only use 10 percent of our brain.. and there seems to be a fine line 'between genius and insanity'.. couldnt that mean that everyone who is considered delusional has actually just developed over that 10 % mark.

ok.. so I just finished watching 'Trauma' .. i canot say that it is the best movie that i have ever seen.. but it did make me think.
..which isnt unusual considering i thing way too much.

Our phone has been acting strangley. I was waiting for Dan to call .. and was annoyed that I havent heard from him all night.. I then decided to give him a call to see if everything was good. Only to find a bunch of messages from him on the telly.. Each one becoming more and more concerned. While I was listening to these messages.. the phone became more and more crackly. It has been like that for the last few weeks now.. but this time it just kept getting so loud that i could barely hear the messages.. And then somehow the crackling turned into some sound .. that was almost like a little girl humming.
lol.. ok.. enough of me sounding silly.

I was very glad to find that I am finished of work next Friday. For some reason i had it in my head that I wouldnt be finished until the following friday after that. yay!
Which is great because of how much fun next Saterday night will be !

yayayay

I just arrived from PEI.. My big trip that was just over 24 hours. I made use of the time though.
I am also glad that Im not dead from exaustion.
hehe.. actually I had A LOT of fun. Good time with good friends and family.
I am dreading going to work tomorrow.. Im scared that my manager is going to be a bitch about the fact that Im leaving. ,,non~neaded stress.

My last day is the 26th and we will probably get moved over the 27th. Which means that weekend Dan and I want to head out to the beach to camp.. drink.. roast m~mellows... etc.
Come one come all! :) :P
Im going to send an email to ppl whom I have on MSN..
So yeah.. that is the 27th of this month.. and it is a saterday night.
oh right.. The beach.. hmm.. Blooming Point..
Yeah.. that should be good. lol

NEWA!S

IT IS 9AM.. and Dan and I are OFFICIALLY moving to PEI!
Feels so good to have soemthing figured out. Our lease runs out at the end of the month, which means that we will be all moved over by sept 1st. (shhhhh Dont tell anyone)
Hopefully a bit earlier than that.
Im finished work the 26th and Dan is finished the 23rd. So we might have a lil bit of the august sun left. :)
The only thing that ended up holding us from leavign freddy was that we have okay jobs.. and PEI isnt the greatest place to find good jobs.
but the livign expenses are so high here... that we havent been able to put any money away for school or anything. We would basically be living the 'working life' with no family.. beach.. etc.

haha

Jeeze, I wonder if its obvious how excited I am.
Well, now i get to finish getting ready for work. Today is my shortest shift of the week.. something to look forward to today :)

SunsTruCk

Todays event;
Worked at 900am with about 3 hours of sleep.. surprisingly the day went quickly .. I got home and had the most amazing hour of chillaxin.. :) My bro and i then headed to shoot some hoops.. It was about 2 years since i have gotten a b~ball in a hoop.. I caught on quickly though;)
While baking in the tourching sun I quickly became dehydrated.
I had even more fun last night though.
Leigh Jullienn and Alexander and i headed out to Harvey Station to the lake. Oh ya the nb lingo is just rrroolling off my tongue!

Anyways it was a great lil place to swim.. not quite as good as home.. but def. close enough.
I gotta have my swimming no matter where I live.

We will be probably going to the lake again tomorrow.. we have ta bring Dan along for the fun.
I am also undecided about this weekend.. I only have sunday off. which is my fathers party..aka family renunion.. as i have probably mentioned before. I dont know how well it work out.
with time and all.

If i dont go i will be going out to a beach party for sure..

I do have other news .. but is isnt officially official till after work tomorrow. Which just means it was completely pointless for me to type that.


We then headed back

And The Cat Came Back The Very Next Day!!

Our landlord was really upset that chikki was missing.. so she cooked up the idea to keep the main door to ourside open with a shoe and for us to put some food out for her..
So she went out and put her bf shoes between the door blah blah blah.. and we kept teh door at the bottom of our stairs open as well.. so that she could get to the other one right at the top if she DID come back..

Then about a half an hour after we got back from picking up Dan from work.. we heard her meowing at the top of the stairs to get in..

We still arent 100 percent sure what happened.. but we are just so glad to have her back!
and tht she was smart enough to find her way.

On another note.. I HATE WORKING 6 days a week..
well at least the way it is set up.. blah.
I swear.. if that position is still available near the end of august.. for 5days a week..im going for it

Dan and I still dont have any idea what we will be doing come september..
It is looking more and more like we will get to stay in our apartment if we want to.. (less moving =good)
but who knows.. Dan could be in PEI by then.. or at least have a job lined up.. or i could end up going to school full time again..

it is just crazy the different amount of options that we have to dig through.

I will probably be going to see wedding crashers tonight.. Considering that Tory will be leavingFreddy this saterday!! We have had some good times bud

I got this wicked tan.. the worse part is that it is on my palms..
oh yes the beauty of fake tanner cream. I am very impressed on how well i have been avoiding blotchyness though.
Since the end of jul.. i have been trying to get outside every chance i get.. Cant let summer 05 get away on me!
My fathers 50th b~day/ family renunion is coming up on the 14.
I cannot possibly get work off. but im wondering if i should say screw it and go over for a day.

Who would think that even with Dan and my income.. that things are still so tight? I know i didnt for sure.
Wow my bro has been here for aweek already..

awful news

I have horrible news :(

Our kitty chicken has been missing since about 8 oclock last night. We are going crazy
.. We havent seen her since I made a quick stop in at the apartment.. to pick up some pizza and go to Alex's for biking and Ghost world.

I know that she didnt get outside when we left cause I remember closing the door carefully behing me.
What is strange is that right at the time that we were on our way out the door again 4 ppl who were lookin at the house (Which is for sale) Were on their way up the stairs to look at our part of the place. They went up right after us and we havent seen her since//

Actually.. Out of the approx. 10 ppl who have looked at the place since it was put up for sale.. I got the strangest vibe.

And when we got home they had pulled about ten feet of our cable out of the wall and left it in front of the coffee table. Our computer end table/desk thing was also moved further from the wall..
I found that strange but didnt think much of it until our poor lil kitty went missing :(

I cant stop thinking about it.. Dan is really upset too..

I mean the worse part is that we dont have ANY idea what happended to her..
Of course we can make assumptions.. but that wont get us anywhere..
:( :(
She could be trapped in some horrible place within the apartment that we dont know about..
Outside for the first time since we got her as a stray in the thunder and lightening..
taken by some horrible person.

I dont know..
I know tha tsome ppl would think that oh she is just a cat but.. really she is the first big thing that Dan and I have shared together when we first moved out together..

:(

yeahcha

I am exausted..
I can barely keep my eyes open and ve felt likethis for over a week,,
oh the joys of working 6 days a week.. etc.

I am having Wendys ordered for me as i type..mm
actually i think that it just arrived.

My bro hitched a ride back to freddy with us.. and I think he will be staying till the 14 of august.

Wow.. time...
The pei trip was good.. It was busy.. but fun
I cant wait till i get things figured out for this september..

We dont even have a new apartment line up..
hmm Im daydreaming about random things...
I guess this was kinda a pathetic post lol

exciting

we have fond a chicken sitter!
It was quite random and odd.. but i got a chick from my work to do it.. she seemed pretty willing.. i bet that it is only cause she wants the ability to go through our stuff when we are not around.. but thats cool.. we will do anything to have someone bfing food to our cat!


Aww, Man there are soo many things i wanna do when i get to the island. example *Go to the BEACH! NB sucks in that department. Thee sand is like horrible gravel mixed with glass.
us islanders are friggen spoiled..

The only really big thing that has been happening lately, has been apartment hunting, and attempting to get the next few months figured out.

I am soo excited about this weekend. :)
We dont have much time but we are going to try to make everday count..
My biggest goal is to visit my grammy misener.. considering that i havent seen her in SUCH a long time.. and I havent actually visited her since Dan and I have been together.. we would just bump into her every once in a while.

and of course to go to Dwaine and Marie's wedding..

im so glad that we have the chance to get to PEI this summer..
I was at the point where i thought that it wasnt going to happen.
..

alkjf

I get to for a trip to PEI soon!
It will be a short trip.. but none the less.
Dan and I will be moving again soon.. By soon I mean at the end of August. Our lease runs and we want to find something more affordable and closer to work,,
This is sad.. I might be repeating myself merely because I cannot remember what I have written in previous posts. meh who cares.
I am really trying to keep from getting burnt out from 6 days a week of working in the $$$.

blah.
I have made a large career choice.. In my eye it is anyway.
I enjoy being vague which is why I am not going to go any further with that past statement.

Lately I have been going on spontanious adventures. Now to some they may not see quite exciting.. but i find them interesting.
After an rampage of a whopping 4 book purchase, I have been pleasure reading lately. Its been a long time since I have read a book that wasnt strictly educational material.
hehe.

I wish that the St john river wasnt dirty..I would go swimming in it every day.. Life just doesnt go that way though.

Within the last few months, it has seemed that Dan and I would be staying here in Fredericton for much more than a year.
Thankfully we have decided not to live in lil old freddy for the rest of our lives and have made a game plan to get back to PEI..

'the grass is always greener on the other side'

Poor chicken is going to hate moving..She hates anything that causes her to leave the confort zone of her territory.

July

Here we are in July.
I could easily see summer drift by before my eyes.
Simply because i spend 5 out of 6 days in a airconditioned building.. and then by the time i go home the sun is going down.
Hopefully that wont be the case..
So far i have a little bit of vacation time for the endish of july/..
I might get some for august...then i wont completely miss out on the PEI beaches..
Today was my first experience with an NB beach.. and lets jst start off by saying that.. it wasnt even natural..Totally man~made..

I was walking on the sand barefoot.. only to find more pain than I would have walking on gravel..considering that it was a particular mix of gravel..large rocks.. and something that almost resembles sand..
and then we went swimming..
only to find the walk to water that was high enough to swim in just as painful.. for me anyways.
crappy rocks..
Now I know that we do have beaches on pei that are rocky too.. but im used to grand tracadie...blooming point... stanhope even.

Canada day was interesting..
A bunch of us went to party at friend Daves place..
I drank far too much.. but oh.. didnt spend any time sitting by the bathroom toilot..
I had more than one *embarrising occurence.. and to my surprise they werent my fault at all.. except for i found myself on my ass halfway inside and halfway outside a screen door.. (I didnt break it..that happpened from an earlier adventure of Tori)

Now.. The reason I say I drank too much was not because I had too much to handle.. but I had to work the next morning at 8am..
So the following morning I made my way into town with perhaps 3 hours of sleep..
I of course couldnt drive..for i was still wasted..

Yep .. a drunken day at work.. Hopefully i didnt have that distinct scent of liquor.
I havent pulled one of those off since the summer i met Dan...So I remember..
meh maybe not.. Im wont say anything for sure.

I got home yesterday from work,.... happy to be able to find some food.. which my stomach was torturing me for starving it..I just couldnt get the acidic feeling away and took a gravel.. That was around 6.. I was cloncked out..and the this morning found that i somehow managed to make myself a full meal the past evening.

Today, should be a nice relaxing evening with dan (Hopefully).. we have movies rented.. and popcorn will be popped.

Im in a girly mood.. so dan and i rented the first season of sex and the city..You surely will find us brain washed some day down the road.

It is canada Day!
Yep.. July..I dont have time to sya much, cause im on my way out to go downtown.. but thats the story..and im sticking to it!

I think I will pukeif time goes any quicker.. arg.. What happened to the spring? Next Friday, it is july.
ahh.. scary

Yesterday it was about 36 degrees.. and then it felt like at least 40 with the humidity. I was lucky for the worse part of the day cause I was working inside with air conditioning.

So i got drunk last night.. The first time in a whle.. Since I did have today off I thought last night I couldnt just let it goto waste! I got a head start on drinking cause Dan didnt get off work till 1am..

and while i was waiting I decided I wanted to go and 'makes some friends'
I didnt know how I would do this .. So I decided to go on a adventure.. I got dressed and went walking in the middel of the night by myself drunk! woo hoo..

I was on my way to go over the walking bridge.. and had gotten my feet and legs covered in mud.. so I took of my sandals.. and staggered along the wooden bridge..
It was the most at home I htink that i have ever felt in fredericton..

It was amazingly nice out.. with the odd cool breeze.. It felt like i was walking towards a beach.. especially because I was surounded by water..

Near the end of the bridge I randomly snuck to one of the hidden benches to dry my feet and legs , to put my sandals back on..

While I was walking I noticed that there was someone walking behind me..and by the time I was ready to go I knew that he wouldnt be that far away.

So I JUMPED out and scared the shit out of him..
It was easy to tell that he was nervous.

and that is how I 'Made my friend' He accompanied me downtown fredericton.. I was kinda paranoid about him.. and had my keys between my fingers, just in case. He did say strange things.. I began to wonder how I would split ways with him.or if he would just tag along with me all night?

While walking I saw this random fountain,, and being me I rand and jumped up by it and began putting my hands in the water.. he followed.. and the next thing I know I was soaking wet.. He was splashing me! I got really wierded out .. and jumped backto the sidewalk.. wondering how this would end..

We walked only a couple minutes more when he rear to the right... to go into an alley.




and then said.. this nice meeting you "what's your name?"
"Jenn"
"Nice to meet you Jenn, Im Randy"

Just like that i was on my own again.
I actually kindagot lost..eventually finding myself outside all the different bars..
It was intersting to see the crowd types change just as i walked down the street.

I then bumped itno another guy.and we chit chatted for quite a while.. He seemed uite well known.. random flocks of ppl would stop and talk for a while..
ewww..i just remembered that i took a drag off a strangers cig.. eww! blah..
okay.. im done writing about my night that was interesting, mostly to me.. lol

sfdas

working 'bank hours'

It is interesting.. Cause I dont miss out on those fun weekend nights, and I have a regular set schedule.
The downer is that I am a complete night owl. It is really hard for me to keep a normal sleep schedule..
My body has always loved staying up till about 5 in the morning and then sleeping all day.. So whenever I get into a routine and then accidently stay up a bit later than usual.. Im screwed.. blah

So i went and bought A LOT of sutff yesterday.. And i mean stuff like clothings..
i almost had a heart attack.. It is really weird having Dan and I working full time hours.

I am not so good for the gym lately..cause i havent been physically feeling well.

I am really annoyed at myself today cause imanaged to get my cash 200 dollars over.. wtf?!
I was in a horrible daze ALL day.
i just couldnt think clearly ..arg.. hopefully it gets better for tomorrow..cause i still have to find my damn mistake :S..
Dan has a short vacation right now.. :) So we are actually getting more than a rushed hour a day of time spent together!
I have a headache right now

mmm. We went to brewbakers today.. What a cool place to go! We just got desert and tea/coffee.. but it was such a nice atmosphere.
argallbaggle
okay enough of this random blobber jobbers!

I havent posted much lately!

Im just relzxing to my BTO.. Every time I here them or CCR I think of hanging out with my father .. listening to those CDs over and over again loving it.. Usually it would be while we were driving somewhere off PEI..

I am having a lot of *sweet summer memories right now. Sadly I dont have many GRAND memories from last summer.. I did get to go swimming quite often..which made it amazing. I think the thing that made it bitter was working at Dalvay.. At the end of it..I hated my shifts so much that .. it made at least 5 days a week sickning. and usually the other 2 were barely enough to let me regain myself.

It is too early to tell whether I will end up liking my current job or not.

So Dan an dI are hoping to make our vacations coincide. Hopefully we can get the time off in the summer so we can make a nice trip to PEI. Man.. I dont know what i would do...and entire summer away from the beaches????
That my friends is something that I have NEVER done before.. I have always lived nice and close to the beaches... so I am REALLY hoping that will work out.. Actually it is my vacation that will probably scew it up.. I cant get time off in July cause everyone has already scheduled for it. ... The best bet for me is August.. which is exacely where Dans work is booked.

I shall say interesting!

This is my second week of going to the gym consistently.. yet i am about to ruin it tonight! I let Dan take the car cause I had a special ***visit.. and my pain pills had not kicked in yet.. Well..Im justa sailing right now.. and am seriusly considering making the *sort of long walk to get there...

They say that if you go consistently for 3 weeks, your body is in the habbit.. and you wont find it hard to go anymore..
Which would be why Im experimenting with this.!

Other than that my life is pretty boring.. i went to see my friends recently purchased house (congradulations :P) Went for drinks at mexicala rosas.. which was fun :).. yep.. that would be my life right now.. now really interesting.
who wants to go on a road trip????? :D

workers

Had my first day at BMO today (Why is my computer beeping strangley?) It was kinda boring. I really just acted as another tellers shadow the entire time..attempting to soak up a bit of what she is doing. Im hoping it will be easier to catch on whenever I am doing it hands on.
I am also very proud to say that Dan and I woke up especially early, had a good breakfast, and did something really weird.. We went for an early morning workout. Fun stuff.
Then Dan and I went home so I could shower and get ready for work.. and poor Dan became ill.. Im not sure why.. but it was here and gone.
I got the call today about the other BMO branh.. I begin there next Thruseday evening.
So I called up Panos to let her know that I did get the position, and she was all ... well she wasnt as 'nice' towards me.
This one gal i work with is annoying cause she is all obsessed with getting her tips.. even sometimes for tables she didnt even wait on. In fact she is so obesses, she went and ragged onto this other chick, about how I didnt give her all her tips. How I took more for myself and all of this other BS. So Im thinking that this got on to my supervisor and that is why she is acting strange.

All I can say for that is screw them..Im only goin to be gettin a shift or 2 there a week..Sure i love the tips..but im not really depending on them..
Eh.. Anyways .. that is the end of that 'bitterness'

My father called me tonight to let me know that they finally found the body of T.W. After 6 months... they found the body. I always kinda deep down hoped that he just had to get away from it all one day and took off to the other end of the country or something. and that someday he would randomly be back in Grand tracadie, acting as if he never left.

Thing like this make me wish that I had gotten to know certain ppl better. He was a good guy. I knew him since approx grade 1.
It is crazy how you can know someone for so long.. but now actually know them.

There have been so many deaths between relatives and family friends in the last few years.. Especially this year. Im just hoping that it doesnt continue like this. I wish all of the immediate families the best.

Dont let go

Wow.. It is cr@zy warm here in Fredericton.. I mean like 31.. ouch! I think that i already have a bit of a tan. What is new what is new?? I am going to be taking clinical psychology from UNB online..that should work out well, considering I am going to be working a lot. Dan and I finally got another gym membership. It is at the YMCA..which is good simply because all the aerobics classs are free, and there is that pool.. (Which will come in handy in this weather). I feel so much better now that i can go to the gym again.. I was getting day passes and stuff since school got out.
I was trying to go jogging up the road...but I dont feel compfortable doing it. I am much more compfortable running at a gym where I wont be the only one breaking a sweat. It used to be the opposite way for me..but I supose I have gotten used to the gym suroundings.

I am seriously condsidering changing this template.. I have had it for a while.. but it just isnt suiting my mood lately. LOL

I begin working at the Bank of Montreal this monday. I am getting very anxious about it. I jsut want to be in the run of things.. and see if I will like it. I got a call from the other branch today..so looks like I will be working for both after all. 5 days a week at one and then Thurseday night and Saterday for the other. Weird a bank that is open Saterday.

I met of with Tory and Dave yesterday. Tory and I walked around and then went she got some pizza. We then relized that it was far too warm to be walking around.. and called Dave to meet us at DQ.
We then went driving around town in his cute lil convertable. Tory got some drinking pics developed.. They are hilarious!

I then rented the movie 'Garden State' ...and LOVED it ! I think it might be one of my top 5 movies.. I can relate to the strangness of Sam in soo many ways. I t was an awsome movie.