At work again lol. Just waiting for Dan to get off work to pick me up. This is definetly going to be a challenge doing the one car thing and living in Grand Tracadie. Chicken and new kittys apointments are this Tuesday.

Dan and I had a great christmas. I was really nice. We got a few nice gifts as 'house warming' things. It was cute cause my family made the tags on the presents to 69 pleasant grove rd when they were meant for the mini home.

We still arent really sure what we are doing for new years yet. We probably wont know until Saterday.

number 80

#80
So here I am.. December 24, 2005.. and of course at work. Today is just one of those days. I woke up late, came to work with my hair all wet and cant wait to see if I will be sent home early. I doubt that I will be one of those lucky people though. Which means that I will be missing a christmas party with the future in laws this afternoon. :( All that yummy home made food. I love Dans family. Oh well at least I have another party to go to tonight. :)
So the mini home is mostly finished. by that I mean we have everything hooked up, all that is left is the signing of paper.
I am horribly excited to be getting back to school :) Excited and relieved.

java blabe

arg.. too many passwords.. I was doing so well on the path of a solitary password holder.. all that has changed.. for security reasons of course.
...just not my own personal security reasons.

On another note----

The news that I so randomly posted previously was regarding Dan and I are in the works of becoming home owners. Everything is in the works, yet I keep denying that it is going to happen. What can I say I am quite pass*emistic.

There is quite a bit going on.. I swear, I am just having trouble taking the time to write about any of it.
Jeeze.. I think this is turning into another post about nothing.
ah. I finished all of my christmas shopping. It is the first time I have finished it before the last couple days before. Sweet satisfaction.

Im getting more and more into the festive spirit. There are quite a few christmas parties coming up- and I plan to go to all that I am invited to . :)

update------


excited ....................... stressed...........and really really excited.. will tell more later

out

I went out to velv underground last night. oh yes wed,. night right after i got off work at 12 pm.. it was atually quite the interesting experience. I went out with a couple of gals from work.. I drank quite a bit.. but being lucky as i am i wasnt hung over. Other than that we found a home for one kitty.. so if anyone would like the last on just let us know :)

I am at work far too early and they are sendting ppl home early.. yep that means no extra hours. meh. ill find something to do

early riser

This week I have been bombarded by calls for used wedding dresses. Some of them actually seem pretty nice. aka the ones that were just bought in Septemeber and never worn. I really shouldnt even look for a gown this early, but I guess that is chelseas way of getting me excited..lol Dan and I did pick out our rings. Mine are just getting sized.
I need to get a haircut soon.
At least a trim.
It feels like christmas already! I woke in the morning and could smell winter. :)
I had to go to the doctor again. The prescription the other one gave me just made me sicker.
So I got a new one.

xmas??

whats new????
Chicken was pregnant and did have kittens.. and we discovered that the day that we went to take her to the vet that she had 2 lil kitties. Cute ey? If anyone wants a one let Dan or I know.. We will be wanting to give them a nice home.

I really miss school.. eek.

I have also been pretty sick this week.. I hate missing work from being sick... :S Hopefully I will get better soon.. Its just so crappy.. I am dizzy... and dont have an appetite.. and when I do get hungry and eat, it makes my stomach upset.

posting man

ITs been a while. I keep attempting to post and then the computer will break.. and I will forget to try again. Oh well. Wedding plans are beginning to come together pretty well. It will be at york church, this coming September. We are also getting things with land finished as well. Lots of fun in the near future* :)I am at work right now.. Last night of the week (Y) . Girls weekend ahead.---partying---shopping. Completely girl thing. hehe.


Im taking chicken in to her *first doctors appointment tomorrow.. We will see how healthy she is. I really dont have a whole lot else to say.. And my break is over..

surprise

surprise surprise
Stuck awake on a lazy saterday night. Actually this entire weekend has been crazy tame. Which is nice once in a while. Everytime I close my eyes I think about wedding stuff.. (oh yes; to all those who hav not heard Dan and I are engaged).. Today Dan and I had a BIG day of browsing..everything from rings to dresses, flowers and houses.
It is pretty exciting..yet I only get into these 'spirts' the odd time.
I have been getting in touch with old friends lately.. god I missed you guys :)
Yet I really have no idea how I am going to get in touch with one gal in particular..maybe I will be lucky.
We think that chicken may be a mother to be.. Thats what happens when you dont get her fixed.
and well there is my life lately.. work..planning..family..random friends.. good times.

latala

I feel nice and refreshed right now. I just got back from rollerblading with Dan. It feels great to get a little bit of exercise after working in a call center all day. I have been looking around for some nice material to make a shirt or a skirt out of. I was using moms sewing machine last week.. It is difficult to get used to, but not that different to what I learned with. hopeully it will do. I am also making a scrapbook. Which I am really looking forward to.
I am registered at UPEI for 4 psychology courses, and a biology with a lab. :)
goodgood
A lot has been happening lately.. but i guess i dont have the time to go further...
haha. next thing I know the entire month will have gone by and I wont have written an actual post.

post 71e

pheewww
I am having troubles with this blog. It keeps wiping out.. Maybe 3rd time is the charm. Not a whole lot is new. I have been working for a few days now... we will just have to see how long i actally last with it.
I am also trying to get school things straightened out. UPEI is so much different than UNB.. I am lookig forward to it though.
Mine and Dans new thing is rollerblading... And let me just say that I have definetly 'lost' it over the last couple of years. We have a lot of fun though. Dan begins work next monday.. he has started his classes too.
Lots of 'newness' in our lives.
I am not sure what I will be doing Friday night.. but Saterday Dan and i will be celebrating our 3 year.. :) :) :) :) :)
If anyone hasnt seen ranna, matt and robs new place you are missing out. :P
shmoddah boolatta bloom.

fh

Summer is comin to an end!
I love fall. It is my favorite time of the year. :)
Here is what is new;
We have been doing a lot of nothing. Having no job and all. We have also been goin out with friends quite a bit etc.
actually I was getting a little bit nutty at the end of it because I am so used to being overly busy constantly.I dont feel like that anymore because I do have a job set up. That job being at Resolve Corp as an internet Rep. I begin next Tues.
This job hunt wasnt that painful. It will hopefully work out too.. because come January I can still work there part time.
Gotta do what ya gotta do!
I am officially going to UPEI in January as well. Things in that department are going smoothly SO far.
hmm.. im still not in a writing mood. well if anyone is doing anything fun this weekend message me :)

Home again

We are home again..
This time permanently.. I think that once Dan and I get working we will be mostly living at his 'rents place.. Curently we are back and forth from his to my parents.
Other than that all else that is new is im about to begin the wonderful job hunting again.
Dan my brother Leigh and Rob all camped out at Blooming Point Saterday night.. It was really fun.. and strange at the same time.. By strange i am simply referring to a lady who decided to take her screeching son to a campout in the middle of the night.. and another group singing horrible charokee on the beach lol.
It feels so good to not be living in Fredericton. *sigh
hmm .. yep i m not in the writing mood..

PinK

BusY weeK~

Something new to look at! I was getting bored of the darkness of strange emily.. Im not finished changing it around yet.. Im not the best with html..especially with blogger..

Its moving week once again. lol.. This time wont be as rushed though. I get to get rid of all my bAnking responcibilities.. As in Special keys.. combinations passwords.. and all of that other stuff that I shouldnt really be talking about. Yet it actually doesnt matter because NO ONE has access to anything by themselves..
There are always double keys, comz passwords.. etc.
I am thinking of trying to get another bank job on PEI.. My branch managers are going to put a word in at both ch'town branches.ok enough boring stuff! :P
I am really looking forward to be back on the island for good. Well for good for a while.. who knows what will happen a couple of years from now... I am releived that i will get to help out my family easier... I think that this is the best move at the time being...

Hoping weather will be good Saterday night!
Only 3 more days of work :)

Im not even sure if i will have the chance to get together with all of my new buds from freddy before i leave... If not .. you guys rock! I will visit.
This is to court**** Call me when you get to town.. I dotn know whats happening tomorrow night***

cr@zy

okay.
RANDOM ACT OF THE DAY->
I bought a digital camera.. I litteraly just jumped out of my chair and raced to future shop to get inminutes after* they shut their doors. Heyhey they woulnt say no to an easy sale.. anywho.. I dont regret it ..yet.. and here is a funny pic of chikki.. There is a funnier one of me.. but I decided against it :P ..
Yay I can take pics now!

Sometimes

Sometimes when I watch an extremely strange movie, it makes me think. Sometimes it is hard to grasp an idea of what reality is suposed to feel like.
I have this creepy tendancy..
Whenever I watch movies which deal with crazy high amounts of psyological problems, I begin to wonder. I mean.. sometimes I can actually relate to those things. Which causes me to wonder..
and then I scare myself.
(haha)
Ever imagine what it would be like to be so deep within the burrows of your mind to have created a whole new reality? Since we do apparently only use 10 percent of our brain.. and there seems to be a fine line 'between genius and insanity'.. couldnt that mean that everyone who is considered delusional has actually just developed over that 10 % mark.

ok.. so I just finished watching 'Trauma' .. i canot say that it is the best movie that i have ever seen.. but it did make me think.
..which isnt unusual considering i thing way too much.

Our phone has been acting strangley. I was waiting for Dan to call .. and was annoyed that I havent heard from him all night.. I then decided to give him a call to see if everything was good. Only to find a bunch of messages from him on the telly.. Each one becoming more and more concerned. While I was listening to these messages.. the phone became more and more crackly. It has been like that for the last few weeks now.. but this time it just kept getting so loud that i could barely hear the messages.. And then somehow the crackling turned into some sound .. that was almost like a little girl humming.
lol.. ok.. enough of me sounding silly.

I was very glad to find that I am finished of work next Friday. For some reason i had it in my head that I wouldnt be finished until the following friday after that. yay!
Which is great because of how much fun next Saterday night will be !

yayayay

I just arrived from PEI.. My big trip that was just over 24 hours. I made use of the time though.
I am also glad that Im not dead from exaustion.
hehe.. actually I had A LOT of fun. Good time with good friends and family.
I am dreading going to work tomorrow.. Im scared that my manager is going to be a bitch about the fact that Im leaving. ,,non~neaded stress.

My last day is the 26th and we will probably get moved over the 27th. Which means that weekend Dan and I want to head out to the beach to camp.. drink.. roast m~mellows... etc.
Come one come all! :) :P
Im going to send an email to ppl whom I have on MSN..
So yeah.. that is the 27th of this month.. and it is a saterday night.
oh right.. The beach.. hmm.. Blooming Point..
Yeah.. that should be good. lol

NEWA!S

IT IS 9AM.. and Dan and I are OFFICIALLY moving to PEI!
Feels so good to have soemthing figured out. Our lease runs out at the end of the month, which means that we will be all moved over by sept 1st. (shhhhh Dont tell anyone)
Hopefully a bit earlier than that.
Im finished work the 26th and Dan is finished the 23rd. So we might have a lil bit of the august sun left. :)
The only thing that ended up holding us from leavign freddy was that we have okay jobs.. and PEI isnt the greatest place to find good jobs.
but the livign expenses are so high here... that we havent been able to put any money away for school or anything. We would basically be living the 'working life' with no family.. beach.. etc.

haha

Jeeze, I wonder if its obvious how excited I am.
Well, now i get to finish getting ready for work. Today is my shortest shift of the week.. something to look forward to today :)

SunsTruCk

Todays event;
Worked at 900am with about 3 hours of sleep.. surprisingly the day went quickly .. I got home and had the most amazing hour of chillaxin.. :) My bro and i then headed to shoot some hoops.. It was about 2 years since i have gotten a b~ball in a hoop.. I caught on quickly though;)
While baking in the tourching sun I quickly became dehydrated.
I had even more fun last night though.
Leigh Jullienn and Alexander and i headed out to Harvey Station to the lake. Oh ya the nb lingo is just rrroolling off my tongue!

Anyways it was a great lil place to swim.. not quite as good as home.. but def. close enough.
I gotta have my swimming no matter where I live.

We will be probably going to the lake again tomorrow.. we have ta bring Dan along for the fun.
I am also undecided about this weekend.. I only have sunday off. which is my fathers party..aka family renunion.. as i have probably mentioned before. I dont know how well it work out.
with time and all.

If i dont go i will be going out to a beach party for sure..

I do have other news .. but is isnt officially official till after work tomorrow. Which just means it was completely pointless for me to type that.


We then headed back

And The Cat Came Back The Very Next Day!!

Our landlord was really upset that chikki was missing.. so she cooked up the idea to keep the main door to ourside open with a shoe and for us to put some food out for her..
So she went out and put her bf shoes between the door blah blah blah.. and we kept teh door at the bottom of our stairs open as well.. so that she could get to the other one right at the top if she DID come back..

Then about a half an hour after we got back from picking up Dan from work.. we heard her meowing at the top of the stairs to get in..

We still arent 100 percent sure what happened.. but we are just so glad to have her back!
and tht she was smart enough to find her way.

On another note.. I HATE WORKING 6 days a week..
well at least the way it is set up.. blah.
I swear.. if that position is still available near the end of august.. for 5days a week..im going for it

Dan and I still dont have any idea what we will be doing come september..
It is looking more and more like we will get to stay in our apartment if we want to.. (less moving =good)
but who knows.. Dan could be in PEI by then.. or at least have a job lined up.. or i could end up going to school full time again..

it is just crazy the different amount of options that we have to dig through.

I will probably be going to see wedding crashers tonight.. Considering that Tory will be leavingFreddy this saterday!! We have had some good times bud

I got this wicked tan.. the worse part is that it is on my palms..
oh yes the beauty of fake tanner cream. I am very impressed on how well i have been avoiding blotchyness though.
Since the end of jul.. i have been trying to get outside every chance i get.. Cant let summer 05 get away on me!
My fathers 50th b~day/ family renunion is coming up on the 14.
I cannot possibly get work off. but im wondering if i should say screw it and go over for a day.

Who would think that even with Dan and my income.. that things are still so tight? I know i didnt for sure.
Wow my bro has been here for aweek already..

awful news

I have horrible news :(

Our kitty chicken has been missing since about 8 oclock last night. We are going crazy
.. We havent seen her since I made a quick stop in at the apartment.. to pick up some pizza and go to Alex's for biking and Ghost world.

I know that she didnt get outside when we left cause I remember closing the door carefully behing me.
What is strange is that right at the time that we were on our way out the door again 4 ppl who were lookin at the house (Which is for sale) Were on their way up the stairs to look at our part of the place. They went up right after us and we havent seen her since//

Actually.. Out of the approx. 10 ppl who have looked at the place since it was put up for sale.. I got the strangest vibe.

And when we got home they had pulled about ten feet of our cable out of the wall and left it in front of the coffee table. Our computer end table/desk thing was also moved further from the wall..
I found that strange but didnt think much of it until our poor lil kitty went missing :(

I cant stop thinking about it.. Dan is really upset too..

I mean the worse part is that we dont have ANY idea what happended to her..
Of course we can make assumptions.. but that wont get us anywhere..
:( :(
She could be trapped in some horrible place within the apartment that we dont know about..
Outside for the first time since we got her as a stray in the thunder and lightening..
taken by some horrible person.

I dont know..
I know tha tsome ppl would think that oh she is just a cat but.. really she is the first big thing that Dan and I have shared together when we first moved out together..

:(

yeahcha

I am exausted..
I can barely keep my eyes open and ve felt likethis for over a week,,
oh the joys of working 6 days a week.. etc.

I am having Wendys ordered for me as i type..mm
actually i think that it just arrived.

My bro hitched a ride back to freddy with us.. and I think he will be staying till the 14 of august.

Wow.. time...
The pei trip was good.. It was busy.. but fun
I cant wait till i get things figured out for this september..

We dont even have a new apartment line up..
hmm Im daydreaming about random things...
I guess this was kinda a pathetic post lol

exciting

we have fond a chicken sitter!
It was quite random and odd.. but i got a chick from my work to do it.. she seemed pretty willing.. i bet that it is only cause she wants the ability to go through our stuff when we are not around.. but thats cool.. we will do anything to have someone bfing food to our cat!


Aww, Man there are soo many things i wanna do when i get to the island. example *Go to the BEACH! NB sucks in that department. Thee sand is like horrible gravel mixed with glass.
us islanders are friggen spoiled..

The only really big thing that has been happening lately, has been apartment hunting, and attempting to get the next few months figured out.

I am soo excited about this weekend. :)
We dont have much time but we are going to try to make everday count..
My biggest goal is to visit my grammy misener.. considering that i havent seen her in SUCH a long time.. and I havent actually visited her since Dan and I have been together.. we would just bump into her every once in a while.

and of course to go to Dwaine and Marie's wedding..

im so glad that we have the chance to get to PEI this summer..
I was at the point where i thought that it wasnt going to happen.
..

alkjf

I get to for a trip to PEI soon!
It will be a short trip.. but none the less.
Dan and I will be moving again soon.. By soon I mean at the end of August. Our lease runs and we want to find something more affordable and closer to work,,
This is sad.. I might be repeating myself merely because I cannot remember what I have written in previous posts. meh who cares.
I am really trying to keep from getting burnt out from 6 days a week of working in the $$$.

blah.
I have made a large career choice.. In my eye it is anyway.
I enjoy being vague which is why I am not going to go any further with that past statement.

Lately I have been going on spontanious adventures. Now to some they may not see quite exciting.. but i find them interesting.
After an rampage of a whopping 4 book purchase, I have been pleasure reading lately. Its been a long time since I have read a book that wasnt strictly educational material.
hehe.

I wish that the St john river wasnt dirty..I would go swimming in it every day.. Life just doesnt go that way though.

Within the last few months, it has seemed that Dan and I would be staying here in Fredericton for much more than a year.
Thankfully we have decided not to live in lil old freddy for the rest of our lives and have made a game plan to get back to PEI..

'the grass is always greener on the other side'

Poor chicken is going to hate moving..She hates anything that causes her to leave the confort zone of her territory.

July

Here we are in July.
I could easily see summer drift by before my eyes.
Simply because i spend 5 out of 6 days in a airconditioned building.. and then by the time i go home the sun is going down.
Hopefully that wont be the case..
So far i have a little bit of vacation time for the endish of july/..
I might get some for august...then i wont completely miss out on the PEI beaches..
Today was my first experience with an NB beach.. and lets jst start off by saying that.. it wasnt even natural..Totally man~made..

I was walking on the sand barefoot.. only to find more pain than I would have walking on gravel..considering that it was a particular mix of gravel..large rocks.. and something that almost resembles sand..
and then we went swimming..
only to find the walk to water that was high enough to swim in just as painful.. for me anyways.
crappy rocks..
Now I know that we do have beaches on pei that are rocky too.. but im used to grand tracadie...blooming point... stanhope even.

Canada day was interesting..
A bunch of us went to party at friend Daves place..
I drank far too much.. but oh.. didnt spend any time sitting by the bathroom toilot..
I had more than one *embarrising occurence.. and to my surprise they werent my fault at all.. except for i found myself on my ass halfway inside and halfway outside a screen door.. (I didnt break it..that happpened from an earlier adventure of Tori)

Now.. The reason I say I drank too much was not because I had too much to handle.. but I had to work the next morning at 8am..
So the following morning I made my way into town with perhaps 3 hours of sleep..
I of course couldnt drive..for i was still wasted..

Yep .. a drunken day at work.. Hopefully i didnt have that distinct scent of liquor.
I havent pulled one of those off since the summer i met Dan...So I remember..
meh maybe not.. Im wont say anything for sure.

I got home yesterday from work,.... happy to be able to find some food.. which my stomach was torturing me for starving it..I just couldnt get the acidic feeling away and took a gravel.. That was around 6.. I was cloncked out..and the this morning found that i somehow managed to make myself a full meal the past evening.

Today, should be a nice relaxing evening with dan (Hopefully).. we have movies rented.. and popcorn will be popped.

Im in a girly mood.. so dan and i rented the first season of sex and the city..You surely will find us brain washed some day down the road.

It is canada Day!
Yep.. July..I dont have time to sya much, cause im on my way out to go downtown.. but thats the story..and im sticking to it!

I think I will pukeif time goes any quicker.. arg.. What happened to the spring? Next Friday, it is july.
ahh.. scary

Yesterday it was about 36 degrees.. and then it felt like at least 40 with the humidity. I was lucky for the worse part of the day cause I was working inside with air conditioning.

So i got drunk last night.. The first time in a whle.. Since I did have today off I thought last night I couldnt just let it goto waste! I got a head start on drinking cause Dan didnt get off work till 1am..

and while i was waiting I decided I wanted to go and 'makes some friends'
I didnt know how I would do this .. So I decided to go on a adventure.. I got dressed and went walking in the middel of the night by myself drunk! woo hoo..

I was on my way to go over the walking bridge.. and had gotten my feet and legs covered in mud.. so I took of my sandals.. and staggered along the wooden bridge..
It was the most at home I htink that i have ever felt in fredericton..

It was amazingly nice out.. with the odd cool breeze.. It felt like i was walking towards a beach.. especially because I was surounded by water..

Near the end of the bridge I randomly snuck to one of the hidden benches to dry my feet and legs , to put my sandals back on..

While I was walking I noticed that there was someone walking behind me..and by the time I was ready to go I knew that he wouldnt be that far away.

So I JUMPED out and scared the shit out of him..
It was easy to tell that he was nervous.

and that is how I 'Made my friend' He accompanied me downtown fredericton.. I was kinda paranoid about him.. and had my keys between my fingers, just in case. He did say strange things.. I began to wonder how I would split ways with him.or if he would just tag along with me all night?

While walking I saw this random fountain,, and being me I rand and jumped up by it and began putting my hands in the water.. he followed.. and the next thing I know I was soaking wet.. He was splashing me! I got really wierded out .. and jumped backto the sidewalk.. wondering how this would end..

We walked only a couple minutes more when he rear to the right... to go into an alley.




and then said.. this nice meeting you "what's your name?"
"Jenn"
"Nice to meet you Jenn, Im Randy"

Just like that i was on my own again.
I actually kindagot lost..eventually finding myself outside all the different bars..
It was intersting to see the crowd types change just as i walked down the street.

I then bumped itno another guy.and we chit chatted for quite a while.. He seemed uite well known.. random flocks of ppl would stop and talk for a while..
ewww..i just remembered that i took a drag off a strangers cig.. eww! blah..
okay.. im done writing about my night that was interesting, mostly to me.. lol

sfdas

working 'bank hours'

It is interesting.. Cause I dont miss out on those fun weekend nights, and I have a regular set schedule.
The downer is that I am a complete night owl. It is really hard for me to keep a normal sleep schedule..
My body has always loved staying up till about 5 in the morning and then sleeping all day.. So whenever I get into a routine and then accidently stay up a bit later than usual.. Im screwed.. blah

So i went and bought A LOT of sutff yesterday.. And i mean stuff like clothings..
i almost had a heart attack.. It is really weird having Dan and I working full time hours.

I am not so good for the gym lately..cause i havent been physically feeling well.

I am really annoyed at myself today cause imanaged to get my cash 200 dollars over.. wtf?!
I was in a horrible daze ALL day.
i just couldnt think clearly ..arg.. hopefully it gets better for tomorrow..cause i still have to find my damn mistake :S..
Dan has a short vacation right now.. :) So we are actually getting more than a rushed hour a day of time spent together!
I have a headache right now

mmm. We went to brewbakers today.. What a cool place to go! We just got desert and tea/coffee.. but it was such a nice atmosphere.
argallbaggle
okay enough of this random blobber jobbers!

I havent posted much lately!

Im just relzxing to my BTO.. Every time I here them or CCR I think of hanging out with my father .. listening to those CDs over and over again loving it.. Usually it would be while we were driving somewhere off PEI..

I am having a lot of *sweet summer memories right now. Sadly I dont have many GRAND memories from last summer.. I did get to go swimming quite often..which made it amazing. I think the thing that made it bitter was working at Dalvay.. At the end of it..I hated my shifts so much that .. it made at least 5 days a week sickning. and usually the other 2 were barely enough to let me regain myself.

It is too early to tell whether I will end up liking my current job or not.

So Dan an dI are hoping to make our vacations coincide. Hopefully we can get the time off in the summer so we can make a nice trip to PEI. Man.. I dont know what i would do...and entire summer away from the beaches????
That my friends is something that I have NEVER done before.. I have always lived nice and close to the beaches... so I am REALLY hoping that will work out.. Actually it is my vacation that will probably scew it up.. I cant get time off in July cause everyone has already scheduled for it. ... The best bet for me is August.. which is exacely where Dans work is booked.

I shall say interesting!

This is my second week of going to the gym consistently.. yet i am about to ruin it tonight! I let Dan take the car cause I had a special ***visit.. and my pain pills had not kicked in yet.. Well..Im justa sailing right now.. and am seriusly considering making the *sort of long walk to get there...

They say that if you go consistently for 3 weeks, your body is in the habbit.. and you wont find it hard to go anymore..
Which would be why Im experimenting with this.!

Other than that my life is pretty boring.. i went to see my friends recently purchased house (congradulations :P) Went for drinks at mexicala rosas.. which was fun :).. yep.. that would be my life right now.. now really interesting.
who wants to go on a road trip????? :D

workers

Had my first day at BMO today (Why is my computer beeping strangley?) It was kinda boring. I really just acted as another tellers shadow the entire time..attempting to soak up a bit of what she is doing. Im hoping it will be easier to catch on whenever I am doing it hands on.
I am also very proud to say that Dan and I woke up especially early, had a good breakfast, and did something really weird.. We went for an early morning workout. Fun stuff.
Then Dan and I went home so I could shower and get ready for work.. and poor Dan became ill.. Im not sure why.. but it was here and gone.
I got the call today about the other BMO branh.. I begin there next Thruseday evening.
So I called up Panos to let her know that I did get the position, and she was all ... well she wasnt as 'nice' towards me.
This one gal i work with is annoying cause she is all obsessed with getting her tips.. even sometimes for tables she didnt even wait on. In fact she is so obesses, she went and ragged onto this other chick, about how I didnt give her all her tips. How I took more for myself and all of this other BS. So Im thinking that this got on to my supervisor and that is why she is acting strange.

All I can say for that is screw them..Im only goin to be gettin a shift or 2 there a week..Sure i love the tips..but im not really depending on them..
Eh.. Anyways .. that is the end of that 'bitterness'

My father called me tonight to let me know that they finally found the body of T.W. After 6 months... they found the body. I always kinda deep down hoped that he just had to get away from it all one day and took off to the other end of the country or something. and that someday he would randomly be back in Grand tracadie, acting as if he never left.

Thing like this make me wish that I had gotten to know certain ppl better. He was a good guy. I knew him since approx grade 1.
It is crazy how you can know someone for so long.. but now actually know them.

There have been so many deaths between relatives and family friends in the last few years.. Especially this year. Im just hoping that it doesnt continue like this. I wish all of the immediate families the best.

Dont let go

Wow.. It is cr@zy warm here in Fredericton.. I mean like 31.. ouch! I think that i already have a bit of a tan. What is new what is new?? I am going to be taking clinical psychology from UNB online..that should work out well, considering I am going to be working a lot. Dan and I finally got another gym membership. It is at the YMCA..which is good simply because all the aerobics classs are free, and there is that pool.. (Which will come in handy in this weather). I feel so much better now that i can go to the gym again.. I was getting day passes and stuff since school got out.
I was trying to go jogging up the road...but I dont feel compfortable doing it. I am much more compfortable running at a gym where I wont be the only one breaking a sweat. It used to be the opposite way for me..but I supose I have gotten used to the gym suroundings.

I am seriously condsidering changing this template.. I have had it for a while.. but it just isnt suiting my mood lately. LOL

I begin working at the Bank of Montreal this monday. I am getting very anxious about it. I jsut want to be in the run of things.. and see if I will like it. I got a call from the other branch today..so looks like I will be working for both after all. 5 days a week at one and then Thurseday night and Saterday for the other. Weird a bank that is open Saterday.

I met of with Tory and Dave yesterday. Tory and I walked around and then went she got some pizza. We then relized that it was far too warm to be walking around.. and called Dave to meet us at DQ.
We then went driving around town in his cute lil convertable. Tory got some drinking pics developed.. They are hilarious!

I then rented the movie 'Garden State' ...and LOVED it ! I think it might be one of my top 5 movies.. I can relate to the strangness of Sam in soo many ways. I t was an awsome movie.

cause' curiousity killed the cat....,

I have absolutely no idea who knows comes to this site..so lets play a game.. If you are reading this right now..or have read something previously on here..Then post a comment.. It 's not hard..I promise..All you have to do is click on the top where it says 'comment' , type your message and then your name..and then publish.
I am just curious.. even if you arent the'posting' type.. just do it :)
Thankyas

Stolen

Stolen from Ranna, who stole it from Jane
10REALLY RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME
1)I am ALWAYS up for something new
2)I want to be a cop
3)I have had an infatuation with Jim Carey since I was 8
4)I HATE star wars and star trek.. or anything like that..It gives me the willys.. but i just recently relized I watched Ewoek.. which is Star wars..and I likes it!
5)I cant help but be myself..no matter how annoying I can get..
6)I ask a lot of random and sometimes personal questions to everyone..ppl i barely know to great friends (The great friends usually get used to it)
7) I want to trade in our car to get a motorcycle, and go for a road trip to Mexico
8)I follow the belief that 'it is only awkward if you make it awkward'
9)My favorite time to swim is at night..at the beach.. I am going to miss it this summer:(
10)I have this tiny obsession with crawling into ppls minds to understand waht makes them tick

WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1)HONESTY is key
2)being open(Like to randomly do something)
3)Say my name as if you like me or somethin
4)Completely take me by surprise
5)Hold me when you somehow knwo that I need it
6)Treat me as an equal (I like when we can both fit into the 'pants')
7)Know me better than I know me :)
8)Not be the jelous type..(Jelousy is an not needed feeling)
9)Be Be completely your own individual
10)Remind me of the good old times, smile because of now, and take quick glimpses into the future


THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
1)My clock that goes on my wrist
2)The wring that Dan gave me 2 christmas's ago
3)A goofy face
4)a bra
5)a new hair color (overexaturating..not EVERY day)
6)My purse..At least my girl wallet


PLACES I'VE VISITED OR INTEND TO
1)Quebec (been)
2)Ottawa(been)
3)Calgary (Must go to before i have kids)
4)State (wouldnt mind visiting)
5)Africa (would love ot spend a few months)
6)Greece (Intend to)
7)Pretty much anywhere exotic would be where i intend to go

THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1)Have my own child/ Get married(WIth my father walking me down the ile)
2)MAke a huge presonal achievement
3)Be a grammy
4)Have closure with everything and everyone that has ever bothered me (HA! not likely)
5)Do much travelling
6)Be wealthy enough to have assets to leave to friens and family
7)I want to live in Calgary for a lil while..I need to
8)I want to have made 'Life~long friends'


THINGS I'M AFRAID OF

1)Leaving on bad terms with a loved one, and then them dying
2)I have a lways worried and worried about close family members dying.. Everday I think of one of them dying in detail..at least once.. it is horrible..
3)Waking up and relizing that my entire life was a dream.. and that my real life is much much worse
4)Not being able to provide for my parents when they become to old to continue working
5)Never being able to retire.. Life getting harder and harder rather than easier and easier
6)Losing my originality

THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
1)Shower
2)eat
3)plan to brush my hair
4)used to job hunt everyday.. now this is my first day not doing it in about 7 months
5)Play with chicken"the kitty'
6)Try to understand myself more
7)Hang out with Dan


THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
1)Get into the wine..(It will lead to either me drunk before i pick up Dan or give me a headache
2)Stress about ANYTHING (I worry too much)
3)let chicken fall our of my lap

PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW1. Matt sigh.... we've been apart for about 20 hours ... heheh

I got a good job :)

So that Bank of montreal job i have randomly mentioned went through :) I am really really happy about that.. My first good job!!
Hopefully i like it.. Other than that I bummed an extra shift @ Pano's this week.. so that means a whole 2 shifts this week..dunno if i can handle it ;)

Other than that my life has been really really boring.. i have no money..
Well..I have been attempting to keep myself busy..Last night dave came over and we watched the entire Space Balls movie along with Airplane
Dan and i have to borrow a vaccum again cause our s is exploded and the ppl that own this house are gonna be selling it..so they will want it to be open to be shown around..does that mean that dan and i will have to move? I dunno..we will have 2 wait and see

{:-)
And that's all my news for today.

update :)

And if I were a professional...
While applying for these more professional jobs.. sending thankyou letters, properly written, and carefully being placed withing an envelope with my return address typed in the corner..I have found that I really like it.
Wow.. New fork in my road..I know I have been driven to be a police officer for quite some time..but this other side..expresses the whole other side of 'Jenn' ..Which most ppl have never met. It makes me want to be polished and knowledgable about business.I do have the need for business in my vanes.. Yet I also love the excitement i could encounter being on a police force. Of course there are pros and cons for each. I will just have to keep the opportunity for both open. I would like to take a couple of Criminology courses...along side with some business courses.. I think that both could be benifetial for where I want to go in the future.
I snagged a free day pass at the YMCA today.. Damn I should have brought my bathing suit.. ohwell.. It was a pretty random event..
Another thing that Danial put into my head was the idea of joining the army.. Wow,, Sounds pretty far fetched for me I know.. but it would really be on the right path for something such as the RCMP..and I wouldnt have to work these crappy jobs I have been working at the past few years.
I wonder what other ppl see me as in the future.. A cop.. Or a business woman.. {If anyone has any thought on this you should let me know :)}
Im still applying for jobs.. trying to find that 'good' one.. I even applied to one in oromocto.. 20 minutes outside of town.. I heard from them that day and have to get a 2 to 3 hour skill testing thing done this week.. fun stuff!

good stuff

An up side to me never getting a decent job,, would be that I would never really have to try that hard.. for anything..i could be an *underachiever..To some this would be ideal..maybe I could live with it? Probably only for a year or 2 tops.. but never say never...

Why it is sooo much better!

-My new serving job is soo much better than Dalvay because..
-We get to wear not only skirts.. but shorts..
-We DONT have to wear blouses! Or ugly vests!
-We arent nessecarily forced to wear dress shoes..
-Hell, i dont even have to tie my hair back..and it is a hell a lot longer than it was last summer
-My shifts are never split shifts!
-It is conveniently located IN town
-When it gets crazy busy..i wont get screamed at for stuff i didnt do!
-My tips arent 15% but 50% to 100%
-I dont have to carry huge scary trays on my sholder :) So I dont have to use those damn awkward tray stands
-There arent any cloth table clothes that must be changed EVERY time a table has been used once..
-I dont have to serve food on the left and drinks on the right!
-The chefs or cooks arent arragent!

Okay..SO it may seem that Dalvay was a higher rank job..but right now i feel so much less stress..and if anyone complains I just laugh because of all the listed above..
Dalvay wasnt taht great though..I mean the chef would be putting lobster on a plate and he would mix up the claws with another lobster so that one had two small pointy claws and the other one had two huge meaty claws..
I thought it was just something that i would notice because of my family background.. but when i served it the travellors from somewhere..noticed and actually switched them..haha
Okay..Well this would have had to be my most random blurb of thoughts for the day lol

watch1

..I finally got that clock for my wrist replace today :) {The one that I ruined when i went swimmin with all of my clothes on last august} Good times.. SO i got a completely new one without a single scratch.. I havent worked a whole lot yet..Which i dont mind cause i have been unemployed for too long to be able to jump right back into a 40 hour work week.. yes pathetic!
I am wearing matching socks today.. for no reason at all..I bet it is a sign!
I bet it means that it is time to do some laundry! That i will have to use all of my tip money on!! eh.. oh well.
Clean clothes are wonderful ..
Last night I had about 6 dreams that I can remember..and they all involved something bad happening to my family or Dan. Here is the the sequence they were.

Dream 1->Dan and I drunk, had to crash at at party..Dan went and cuddled with this girl (they fooled around a bit) and he tried to make me sleep on the bed wihile they snuggled on the mattress together

Dream 2->Dan and I werwe in a town controled by an eveil man.we didnt do exacley what he wanted so he had his men after us (To kill us)..It was a chase ...a scary one

Dream 3->My whole family was at the harbour.A lil old lady my mom cleans for had her house on the warf..I went to try finding my mother there.. to only recieve a strange phone call..Alarmed i ran to find her.. She wouldnt let me knwo what was going on.. what she was in danger of.. Then her best friend showed up and informed me that the little old lady was a serial killer and my mother was the next victom on her list

Dream 4->We were at my familys' house.. An old friend stopped by..she had the same manly hands as my dad..She was trying to use our computer and kept messing it up..My mother started screaming in her room and my father started yelling in the living room at us.. I scurried to see both of them just to find they were both exauseted and miserable ,, and on the verge of dying
So there is a bit of a taste.. It was a nice two weeks on PEI cause I couldnt remember any of my twised dreams..

lllp lllp

La loo la to boota bang!
So .. Today was an intersting day..
The weather in freddy is georgous first off.. even though there is suposed to be rain...
So yesterday i applied for jobs...Some crappier than others..
Then I went to this nice pub to apply.. and the guy is the assistant chief fro campus police {To be more exact my bossette :P haha Insidish thing)
He told me to come around 930am the following morning (This morning) and he would be a reference for me.. and would put in a good word.. coolio
So i woke up @ 930am this morning all grupmy and said screw it.. i dont care..I hate job hunting..
Then at 1000am i got a phone call from Panos..this greek restaurant (Pardon all of my spelling) ..He asked me a couple of questions and said he would like to schedule and interview.. I told him that the only time that i wasnt available would be tomorro until the afternoon(I have to go to an information meeting for this call center that i applied to..and keep applying for and then backing out cause i find a better job)..Then he was like "How about today..I can do it before 1200pm.. (Talk about short notice).Of course i didnt care and said "Sure" ..So i barely made it there on time.. And had a strange meeting with the owner and this other gal right at the front desk.. (I later found out that she is in charge of the dining room)..And yeah..it was one of my lucky times when they didnt really aske me interview questions and except "When can you start" .. I said my usual "Anytime" and they said "Okay..can you start right now?" i was caught so off guard..but i did it.. it wasnt too hard.. i jsu got to know the run of things and helped them whenever needed.. for like 2 hours .. (Which earned me about 10$dollard of tips)
Then later than Dan expeceted
He pretednted to be mad or upset or something.. but then i could tell he had a surprise for me.. which was that this other job had called for an interview..
We then went and did some shopping;.. when we got back Quiznos called for an interview (I applied for both Quiznos and Panos yesterday)
To say the least it has been an intersting day..
I made Danial supper ( for once :P) We had some more of the wine from the night before.. Everything is going pretty good..Just good enough for something to screw it up.
I wonder what i will end up hating about working at Panos? hmm.. i will just have to wait and see i guess.
My feet are aching from girl shoes.. they are all blistered and jsut beautiful..
I am now off to watch my Jim Carrey in "A serie of unfortanate Events" :D
And to drink Brazillian beer..

soo

I am planning on going to Fredericton tomorrow.. I am pretty excited..I wonder how many ppl actually know about this page.. Meh
I dont have a clue how long I will actually be in Fredericton.. So I am just going to go with the flow.I am still applying for jobs in PEI and Fredericton. I have been missing Dan a lot..but Im not dying .. My friend Natasha was asking me "I know you trust him..but isnt there still part of you that wonders if he is being 'naughty'?" "No..i really dont wonder thatat all. I dont have any reason to Tash" well she still seemed kinda doubtful..But that is just cause she doesnt understand yet..Of course there is always a chance that something like that could happen..but that just isnt Dan..and if it did happen it would have happened whether or not i was in the same province.
I had a lot of fun this weekend..it is so nice to have *school stress gone!
I have soo much packing to do but im takin a break right now..i wonder if i will even be able to wake up so early in the morning.
I went to my grandparents today for a indoor bbq..It was good..But my grandmother kept gettin Leigh and I huge plates of food..
Leigh and I had fun playing some poker..Texas to be exact. I would never wanna live near a casino cause i could see myself gettin pretty close to having a gambling problem.

another post

So not a whole whole lot has been happening on the island.. I got one interview out of all the resumes that I have dropped off.. That *cough cough interview was today. Which consisted of me going there, and the guy seeming dumbfounded because he obviously forgot..He then took me aside and told me that mikes was closing down for like a month and wouls be doing all the new hiring at the beginning of June "Sort of like a little cavation" He said. HA! Like I am going to be around for that. I told him that I just couldnt wait to hear from him then.. What a lie.. Yet when i walked out of mikes,, I didnt feel pissy or annoyed..In fact I felt very relieved. Strange ey? I woke this morning really really cranky for no real particualr reason other than that I didnt want to bother with my interview.
Just before the interview I stopped in at Mikes to give myself a quick check in the mirror.. and I just looked at my self and mummbled"Why didn't I just call in and cancel this morning?" Funny thing is,, if i was open to work there then.. I would actually think about it. The guy who i talked to had the same eyes as Dan..Dont see that too often.meh

After the **interview I went back to A&W to wait for my ride.. I tell you ,One thing I sure missed about living with my rents' was not having a vehicle haha..
I really need interview practice..Which is one of the big reasons I didnt cancel it. I was going to use Mike as kind of an expereimental interviwe place. If I really want Pizza Hut accross the street is hiring.
I seem to have worked in that little area of ch'town a lot. I started at Walmart, Then went to wendys that is close to there, and then I went to Sobeys. They are all almost on the same plot of land. I also worked at holiday inn, but that is a lil bit further towards northriver way.


So if I am lucky I may get to go to the drive inn tomorow night..im sure that it will be PaCkEd. And then Cory might wanna do something this weekend too.
Hmm..Someone just got home..

wooho!

My weekend was pretty boring. I went to BINGO, thats right BINGO with my mom Friday night .. For those who dont know, I tend to go to bingo with my rents' for "Quality Time"..
I then stayed up all night talkin to Dan..
Saterday was even more interesting.. I went into town around 4pm and 'window shopped' till i ran into megan, who just so happened to be performing at the confed center and made plans for me to watch it with an old friend of mine Cory.. I havent seen or spoken to cory since grade 10. Megs dropped me off at his place, and we caught up..
We then went an looke at a apartmetn downtown together.. and just wholy crap! I never knew ch'town had such amazing apartments!
It was so huge and nice :)
I should move in there lol

We then headed over to see the show.. which was good
I am really glad that i decided to go in the end. :)
An now i am just about to drive into town to pick up my bro and his friend..
I still need a job.. :S
I am stressing even more about it..I am offically broke... Last 5 dollars was spent today
...

BORED!

I am bored, and annoyed..Cannot find anything productive to do so I am posting about it. I wanna go swimming..That would be really friggen fun! I should go to the university pool or something.
The hardest part of being stuck in the country..Is being stuck! i forgot how annoying it is to not have a vehicle, and how clasterphobic I get when I feel stuck. i wonder what everyone is up to this weekend,.
I am going to this play thing on Saterday.. So that should put some time in..Just not quite enough for satisfaction...Looks like I will have to look into that! haha.
Maybe I should get into a sport .. or get a hobby or something..
Wow Dan ... I never relized until now just how much time I really did spend with you!

quizly

Here is a *personal quiz
If it isnt quite obvious that i am dying of bordom.. ya must be blind :P
Click it and fill it if yas want---> -> The quiz <-

PEI

So... Here I am on PEI..."Oficially". The thing that I have been writing about quite often in this blog.. I have come to the conclusion that the "things" which I have suspected are true.. I love being vague. That does lead me to relize I didn't make a mistake in certain aspects.

I miss Dan already.. and it hasnt even been 24 hours...jeeze.
This is definetly going to be a strange summer, I can feel it.
So I got an actual little journal thing like I have mentioned previously..which means this blog will become much less personal..Which may just may be a good thing considering that it is posted on the internet.. haha.

Other news-> We got to the island around 3:30pm and went around and said our "hellos" to my family, and I then began trying to get ready to go out with Ranna and all them..which sucked.. I hate trying to find clothes to wear.. Life would be so much easier nude. Got into town around 9 or something and snuck Dan to Robs place for a surprise. Which proved to be interesting..

The crowd was and interesting mix, because I havent seen most of the ppl since last August at a beach party..and I seen others whom I used to know as a child..I drank extremely quickly. .. a tender mix of smirnoff ice and breezers.. wonderful.. The smirnoff shouldn't have been involved because..I drank way to quickly..

I was in one of my chatty moods at Robs place..but then we went to JR's .. only to have my lisence taken because it was expired..I gave the friggen bouncer a hug for letting me in :S (That really bugs and grosses me out cause the time before Saterday night that I went out,, some bouncer asked me to "come home" with him..eww) I got into the bar and remember flashes of such things as 1)The bar was crappy, small and dark 2)I dont remember seeing anyone that I knew..at all..It was as if i was there by myself 3) I made it into the bathroom to get sick 4)Next thing I knew Dan was aiding me to the ally way and i found some random chair {Totally a scene in a movie} only to get sick again 5)We then slowly made our way to Matt and Rannas..Which I barely remember at all.. All that I know is that I litterally couldnt stand up..I couldnt see a thing..My vision was that blury.. and to top it all off I began weezing and weezing and could not breath while shivering my but off.. I would have most definetly won myself a seat in the drunk tank if timing was right.

Congradulations Jenn!!Your worse drunk ever!!
Thanks you Dan and everyone else who had to put up with me that night..I can only imagine what a drag I was..Hopefully I didnt do anything mean or extremely stupid..

The next morning Dan filled me in with events that I coudnt remember..Things such as mumbeling about "What to do with the land".. The fact that Rob was there.. How I somehow ended up having Matt and Ranna's compfy couch to myself.. and the best thing.. Me jumping out of bed in the middle of the night over Rob (Who I thought was Matt) and over to a door by the computer mumbling how "I have to get out of here" ..Yeah,. And that was most definetly not the door outside.
Again ..Sorry for anyone who had to put up with me :S

Oh yeah,,Then I experienced my first semi~hangover then next day..

The rest of the weekend wasnt that interesting..I did get to apply for jobs with Chels in the crappy freezing rain on Monday..
Hopefully I get a good job..There has to be something out there ... right? I am getting tired now.. I had a big day of cutting family members hair..woo hoo.. I also need to get back into excercising ..that last week of exams didnt help..

yo

So I am gettin ready for PEI tomorrow.. I will be leaving around 10:30.. im getting really excited..I will get home and then that night be going out with Ranna and whoever else for her b~day..
Eh.. This apartment is a pig's stie.. We just kept putting off doing anything, cause i now dont have any school work .. in other words.. spare time.. We have left everything so long that we are drinking out of jars and eating off of stirophom plates and bowls.. haha
I really dont feel like doing that cleaning thang.. but i gess it muct be done.

So .. Mikes' called me for an interview on PEI.. I dont know anyone who has ever workde there.,, so i dont know if it would be a decent place to work or whatever..

Guess I will have to go to the interview and find out..

yay!! summer is here...ish!!!
Well.Im finished of school.. which is all that really matters.

"doo doo doo
lookin out my back door"<-CCR

Here at the apartment by myself again

woo hoo! Actually .. I havent been stuck at home for a whle now.. I have been hangin out with many random ppl.. Guess that is what happens nearing the end of exam time when everyone is heading home..I have gone to DQ 4 days straight now..And then today almost made it 5.. but decided to quit before i made myself sick of my favorite junk food.. I cannot wait to get swimmin in the summer!

I really do not think that i did that well this set of exams. :( I am thinking that would be because I really didnt want to be going to school this entire half..but i thought I was making the right choice {So I wouldnt miss out on the money that i have put towards a year round course.

hmm..I went to hang out with that Dave guys friends last Saterday night..We played a board game.. PPPEEERRRRFFEEECCTT! .. I never like board games for a long while.. so I guess that i am catching up with that along with card games...Cards make me happy :)Gotta love being a big weirdo.. O well.. keeps things intersting..

This summer ..I would like to go to the beach at least 4 to 5 times a week..I woud like to do some sort of boating adventure..a camping adventure.{along with some hiking of course}..I plan to go on quite a few road trips..One in particular to visit my friend Natasha.and the rest pretty much to see Dan :P..I also plan to get into better shape,, so i can pass the police acadamy physical.
"I wanna know, have seen the rain?
I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain?
Coming down on a sunny day.."
^
I know.. more random CCR :D

I gotta get out of the whole procasination thang! Ok.. off to do something...productive..hopefully :)
PEI This Saterday!!
HAPPY EALYISH B~DAY ALEX!!!!!!!!!:
HAPPY EARLIER BIRTHDAY CORANNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D

:P

So .. My mood has been nuts lately..I mean one time i am crazy happy and ready to rule the world and then the next.. im extremely negative..A nd feeling helpless
Right now i am feeling pretty good.. I think that a lot of this has to do with my mixed feelings about going back to PEI..
I need to dye my hair and maybe get it styled .. somthing kinda funky
Any ideas?
I gave chicken a hair cut today.. she has been shedding like crazy so I though i would give her a nice cool trim.. Since she is a kitty and doesnt like to stay still too long.. It is a pretty funny looking doo.. Well It isnt too bad..She just looks really scrawny.. Im just glad that i didnt accidently cut her..That would be sad.

Last night I had a movie night..
A guy that I got drunk with and met last friday came over and we went to Blockbuster together.. I think it is pretty cool to be that casual with a friend when it is only your second time meeting them.. We watched "Control" ..which was totally one of my type of movies.. It has a psychology experiment.. giving patients drugs to help reduce their **Killer behavior..
It was a nice mix between the twisted mind of a criminal.. and the use of psyological test.. I reccomed it for the viewing of others..I also went to the cinames to see Sin City the night before..Which was even more to my satisfaction surprisingly..I saw the trailer for it.. and it seemed to be okay.. but the movie was amazingly exciting! I would watch at least 2 more times (andi am one of those ppl who watch a good movie once and are never apealed to watch it again..which is why i never buy DVDs)
Last night was jsut what I needed.. A stress free night of chillin with a friend watchin some flicks.

Im still trying to find the least expensive way to PEI.. Hopefully it will all work out :)
Wow I have a lot of useless garbage in my head..Eh it all has to come out sometime lol

eh

So I made a point not to post till after an interview that I had today.. It was for PC financial {Where DAnial works} .. It would have been good cause' The training wouldn't start till May 18 so i could go to PEI and fix up my family :P and see everyone.. and not have to go through the big moving thing. Well This interview didn't go so well.. I went for a nap and woke up with a half an hour to get ready.. I didnt even shower for it I was that rushed. .That was really really stupid of me to do, because then I was "Wake up stupid" .. I couldn't think at all.. She was asking me all of those damn questions and i went dumb.. WTF? I am not shy.. I was prepared for the interview the night before.. and i began to think about all the little things..
1)I just found out about the interview last night
2)I am smack in the middle of exams..Why couldnt i say that i would do it on monday instead? :S
3)Who is stupid enough to take a nap right before the intervie and not even set the alarm. I even had a dream during that nap of many unfortanate events that lead to me missing the interview
4)I did almost cause an accident while driving on my way there. I blame it on temperary blindness
5)I got extremly rushed and fustrated on my way there due to heavy traffic.. couln't find a parking spot..I was luck to be there right on time.
6)I parked on an area of private parking for a minister..I was in that much of a panic

-------Which led to me rushinng out after the interview to see if my car was towed.. It wasnt.. Instead some very nice old lady parked behind me to block me in..Purposley mind you..I know this because as I began to attempt to manouver my way out of the spot. She came out and began giving me a hard time.. "The minsters are and out of here all the time" I probably deserved this..A sign from god? It is a sign of something for sure! There wasnt a single car in that lot.. Then 20 minutes later packed with only one spot to spare..
I apologized and told her that i was really sorry (Which i was) .. And I think that she could see my upset and fustratedness somehow. And she just all the sudden said okay.. you are from pei (she checked out the plate) Just dont let it happen again.. and she moved the car to let me out.. Me being so overwhelmed with everytihing .. began to cry.. I just love driving while cryin .. right downtown..where everyone stares..
--When i finally arrived home Danny was there all cherry... hoping that his gf gets to stay in Fredericton with him.. and I begin to cry again.. So he comforted me and gave an upset girl just what she neede.. To be treated to a wonderful Dairy Queen Treat..

I was so proud.. I usually am horribally stressed for exams. . and really really freaking out (I get extremly anxious for exam taking.. which 40% of the time leads to little panic attacks where i go blank during the exam) This time I was totally cool.. But this just topped it off . I am not a stress wreck of a ball de confusion.

Ya know what.. ? It isnt even that I really wanted that job in particular.. It is just that.. Every interview I have been having lately has been becoming worse and worse.. Before I knew what I was doing.. I knew what i was doin lol.
It also doesnt help that about two days ago I decided that I am going to improve myself.. From everything to mental thoughts (Become more confident) to physical(Goin to the gym)..The biggest thing that I wanted to do is to make a goal .. and then actually achieve it.. Which of course..led me to doing better in interviews.. Which we all know the ending result today..
eh.. okay.. So i got .. most stuff from the days fustrations off my chest.. So I am going to stop whining.

In other news..Exams are half way finished :) Yay..
Yesterday while studying at Tim hortons down town.. Julienne and I had an interesting conversation with some drunk guy at 6 pm.. He was an emotional wreck..{The reason I can say this is because no one really reads this}
He seemed to be an ok guy.. but everything to how he just plopped down beside us.. without anything to him following us up the street a bit at the end ...just seemed a bit strange.. Which is even stranger.. is that he looked extremely familular to me..
Rather than getting into details.. This was a very sad guy.. i dont mean sad in the pathetic sense..I just mean.. he was so sad that it was pouring out of his eyes.. Sadness .. defeat.. and simply fustration.
All of his thoughts were mixed together .. to the point where he didnt even make a whole lot of sense to himself...
I can honestly say tha ti have been pretty close to that feeling..It really made me think (I know I know ,, more thinking) just about how life really is..
eh.. Im not going to bother getting further into that topic either.. It would come out of me just as mixed as it did from him..and he was under the influence ..

I really am at this point..where I really need to make some changes.. they may be gradual but as long as they are eventually achieved.. I need to make some achievemnts..
I need to grow..s o that I can be happy with myself more consistently..
Right now.. I almost feel as if I am floating.. just floating.. In no particular direction.. What a waste it feels!
I hate always feeling as if i am torn in two opposite directions.

---Crap.. I said that I was going to stop whining!!
Jeeze.. lol.. I applied for advantage.. So if i get a reply for that .. we shall see..
The weather is nice.. I think that I need to go for a nice walk.. freshen my head..see where that leads me ..Maybe more icecream :)

:)

This post is mainly to deliver some traffic to Dan's new web page.. It is soo much cooler than mine.. But i did help him out with it.. So it's all good! :)
Scroll down on the right column under links and click on "Danny~G" ..It is a workin ptogress but he is doing so well :P
Check it out

what a night

okay..What a night
I can honeslty say that I soo much fun last night.. I mean wow
I drank the most I have since the summer that Dan and I began going out.. (Well minus all the dequila at the old apartment..which was just like water)
wow.. It was amazing :)
lol.. But since i turned 19 i get Id'd EVERYTIME now
Since it was the last day of classes.. The bar was PACKED!
I danced like mad.. lol. . I was a crazy drunk dancer.. I met another hippy..
I had my own version of crown serfing lol!
I also was flashed by a girl.. weeiirrd.. She was showing off her nipple piercing
lol
And not to mention.. There was some guy and..I just knew for some reason he was a big asshole.. So i bitch slapped him lol..
Soo much happened..
I also made a 1am call to one of my good male friends(Will not disclose the name)
And got all emotional because he is such a good friend..

Good times :)

I am getting excited about gettin back to PEI.. I wonder what place has replaced Myrons now.. hmm

hehehe

Our chicken cat is soo cute :)..
Dan bought a Micki of Jack Daniel's and had it last night. And she runs around the entire apartment playing with it.. Who would think that a cat would be such a fond drinker of J.D ;)

It is so cute though...Seeing her *chase that bottle
..lol. This almost sounds like animal cruelty..
I really need a digital camera so i can post pictures of her doing things like that

another

so .. It is officially official.. I am going to PEI for the summer... The summer so far.. Who knows where i will end up next fall.. I am excited about it but yet obviously a lil sad.. cause that means that Danial will be here in fredericton.. But as I said..Lots of visits

So yes.. Fun at the beach.. I have never gone a summer without that yet! I think that I will live with my family.. but i dunno .. That may depend on other things .. Like I will be looking for a job in town.. So I wont be bringing the car.. Which may be an inconvenience.
I shall see.

This Friday should be fun.. .. but I now really really need to get into studying.. I mean i havent gone to class yet this week, which is a bad sign!

One summer When I was in junior high i kept a journal.. And i wrote in it Every single day.. I think that I will try to d otha tagain this summer.. Maybe not every day.. but at least once a week.. That would be good..
Ouch my lip is stinging

crap

man.. this blog is messed.. The post that is after the pic of Jill and I didn't work before and then magically apeared today.. same as the one I did today.. which is why I might be talking about the same things more than once,, Im also sure that the exact same thing will happen with this one!

19

So I am now 19.. wow.. No more sneaking into bars..no more underage anything.. I have recieved so far a couple of cute e~cards from Ranna' and Moe.. aww ..
Last night Dan made me a yum yum bithday supper :D .. mm so good. And he gave me a birthday -> Sewing kit (yay now i can make clothes ish), two different kinds of bubble bath (One for stress and relief theraputic and the other basically a natural mix of things in the form of white chocalates) and finally a cute set of chimes for decoration.. (I love decoration)
So that made me happy.. Then we settled down for our first night of our cable.. lol
-Oh yeah he also got me some special sandman tea that is meant to help me sleep :)
Which i did actually have much trouble sleeping last night, for a number of reasons that had nothing to do with my birthday.. I didnt fall asleep till 6:30 am with the time change.. Im extremely stressed out about what is going to happen after I am finished of exams..not to mention exams themselves .. I have been contemplating between living on pei and fredericton.. Dan will be staying in F---- this summer for sure..
The main reason I am seriously considering moving to PEI is because my family seems to be in real need of help.. Everything from financial things to personal things.I dont think that I will get into it too much here because I have no idea who reads this..and it is very personal for me.
Our family has never been well off... we have had some really hard winters..and I guess that this last one for them has been one of the worst. Im am kinda confused about things.. But last night/this morning.. I have seemed to come to the conclusion that it may be best for me to move to PEI for the summer.. I know that my family misses me just as much as I do them..So I would like to go back to help them ,, in every way that i can.. Dan agrees that this would be good considering the situation.. (i am leaving a lot of details out).. The thing is that if I go then no one will take care of Dan .. lol He will get lonely.. but I guess it is for the best... This is what I have been thinking.. But as everone knows.. I will have to give it a little more time because I tend to find new perspectives. And there is the issue that I cannot stand living with my entire family for more than a week at a time without going nutty..But I would have to find ways around that.. I cant always worry about myself for things.. And also from what i hear I may not have to worry about dealing with them all in one house.. for reasons.. Fuck fuck fuck.. I am having trouble expressing myself.. I shouldnt censor this because of people I dont know reading it, I shouldnt give a shit about that!
:( Another time

Heya Ben! This is Jill.. And she is pretty friggen happy here!

So ya.. up there is an old friend of mine Jill and I on graduation.. and she reminds me ever so much of Ben's chik Emily.. There attitudes, and mannerisms rather than their physical appearance. I have not spoken to Jill since the summer.. I think that I will give her a call... And the pic below is yet another of Chels and I when I was back in PEI for x~mas..
Wow It is april and my classes are finished by the end of this week! Today is my rent's anniversary and tonight is my B~day.. Both numero 19!
Yes thats right, my parents got married and then i was born the next morning ..
I am now old.. lol. No I wont be old for a while.. But now I wont have the excitement of sneaking into bars.. I went to kareokeelast Wed. It was pertty fun.Yet different then what I expected..Which is all that I will say!

I also saw the movie "Hitch" last night.. It was a good movie.. It was one of those that you see and you leave the theatre with a lil bit of hope for life.. Made me feel, that it can end up well in the end..
I want to go swimming
and for a jog..
and take over the world mu hahhahaha.. YEAH right! Like I want to take over that much chaos.
I am so easily distracted,,Lately every time i go to post... Someone starts chatting to me on MSN.. and that is the end of it.. as it is now!

ehhh graw! 

TiMe n' StUff

Wwo.. Time is moving quickly again.. Slowed down for a while there .. but .. speeding..
So I left my credit card at the fleural shop.. and have to deal with all those security settings things.. we now have CaBle.. on our computer.. higH teck.. I officially Didn't get the Accenture job.. eh.. I expected that... As long as I get a decent job after this year is finished i will be happy.. It is most likely becasue my resume has been thrown together at the last minute.. meh.. Will touch it up at some point.. Eec..
So this weekend is my birthday.. I dont think that i will go too crazy with it.. Might just go to a pub for a drink.. Why? Because NEXT weekend is when the party will be.. I think that Victoria and a bunch of us are going to get drunk and go dancing.. not sure where yet.. Hopefully alex and that bunch will all want to go, because they are a blast. hmm.. I wonder where i would find the better job.. Fredericton.. or PEI.. We shall see.. Shouldnt worry about that now.. just ... exams..:S It is so hard to concentrate on school during this wonderful weather. hmm ..Maybe I will go to the gym

stuffed up

so this weekend was a good one.. :)
Matt and Coranna got here on Friday evening.. We played a lot of card games.. then I had to go to work for 10pm.. (It was an annoying shift, and I think it is where i caught the cold i now have)
When I came home at 3 am everyone had crashed and left me with some yummy taco and greek pizza..
Then I woke the next morning sick .. Shook it off, and thought "Hey, I want to buy a shirt" .. so did Coranna.. so we spent a whopping total of 4 hours in the mall ( I took the longest which is strange) Finally foudn a shirt, which is completely different then i expected. If looked at the right way it can be seen as a pink bag.. It just has to be worn right.
We then had a nap.. to regain energy for the drinkng ahead.
We started around 9 pm.. AND both alex and BEn came over.. It was much fun.. By 12:30 we got out of the apartmetn and headed to sweet waters (I was worried about getting in because I heard it was tough to in Fredericton, and I dont turn 19 till the 3rd of april ->Ended up not being a problem) And we DanCeD .. So fun :)I hope the pictures turned out.. luckily I dont think that I appear in many of them if any at all ( at least that i remember :) )
blahblahblah.. All that jag that usually happens at bars..
eventually retired for the night

Then on Sunday went to Cora's for breakfast..which reminds me to stop gettin get the banana chocalate custard next time ..(It is good ..just so many bananas and so much sugar) waffle .. The matt and Coranna headed back to PEI (Hopefully you guys made it okay) ..
SO it was just right .. not too little or too much party
But then Dan and I headed out to Harvey Station for an easter dinner which was delicious but we were still stuffed from Cora's ...Came home and watched "Love me If you Dare" which is not a bad movie..

I really hope that i will be able to get to PEI at the end of april
I dont think that I got the accenture job, considering that I was suposed tohear from them last friday.. Oh well.. I wont be sure till I get a rejection letter in the mail (I am too optimistic and hopeful to lose all hope for it)
Now my big goal for the remainder of the weekend is to get to it and write a paper that is due tomorrow.. I think that I should be able to .. Dan wont be there to distract me . .he has to work

Oh ya .. On Saterday night after leaving Sweet's Alexander and I had much fun dodging in and out of Ally ways.. we were total spies :)

hmm, now I wonder if i will have the money or energy to go out next weekend for my birthday.. I kinda wish that Icould go to PEI for it..That would be fun, but no trips till exams are over.. I should get started on the job hunt thing!!

Concluding-> I had an awsome weekend!

i post a lot

news,
~My chicken cat likes salads
~I did some hard core yoga. and am still alive
~Went shopping today with the swishiest of the swishiest (BEN AND ALEX) jj .. They are starting to make decent clothes
~I ended up buying a pair of grey businessy pants.. which made me relize,,, I have a huge bum. :P
~Our comp. is all clogged with garbage, and wont let me check my hotmail :(
~I only have one shift this week for cp.. should i get it switched..? hmm
~I relized how horrible boobs are.. I cant wear a button up shirt without it basically popping at the chest.
~I smoked a cigarette today.. And get extremly light headed.. how releiving
~Now that is going on spring.. I have the constant craving to shop
~My hair is boring me.. I should start styling it or something.. maybe a new colour?
~I got a cute answering machine message from Danny today :)
~I broke the vaccum last night .. I guess its dying time was soon anyways.. It is pretty historic


I LOVE how I can write and write about nothing.. I guess that I have to get these random thoughts out somehow other than talking to my self.. LOL jk
I am getting excited for my b~day .. I havent been to the bars since August.. so hopefully it will be a treat!
~I want to go swimming

lalala

Here I am alone in the apartment again.
**My favorite commercial.-> "Oh taking a break Susan?"
Monotoned Susan-> "My wrists are on fire" *Crackle crackle
"Try this..hi~ya wooo cha!"
->Says smooth business woman
MS-> "Thanks, that really worked..."
Business man-> "My back is on fire..."


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...........................To be continued


I within a half an hour of Danial having to leave for work I decided to cut his hair.. Poor kid.. hehe. It was a ... quick ..chop.. but i think he has had worse.Our apartment has turned into a monster.. maybe I should clean it with all of my imaginary free time.

blabberjabber

So tired.... Who whould think that patroling a boat show could be so draining and boring.. how exausting. Wow.,.. This school year went by like a flash.. In fact the last few years went by like that..I still feel as I did when I was 16.. When asked my age, I even slip once in a while. I have watched about 5 Julia Stiles movies in the last week, so that was exciting... Other than that I have been over to Alexanders house for the last few nights.. Everyone I know seems to be drained from school and work. It happens.. I think that my energy is picking back up due to the amazingly gorgeous weather!.. It puts me in clouds as soon as I walk outside. I am proud of myself for having made some actual trips to the gym.. :) That is another reason for my good mood.. I always have such a grand adrenalin rush after a good workout.. I am contemplating joining Martial Arts as well.. :) hopefully I keep it up.
Im not happy about everything in life right now.. Im am doing horrible in school.. I dont think that I will flunk out, but I really do need to keep ontrucking with the studies.. And I also get random sad moods that disapear and then come back.. So that is kinda weird. It gets scary how up and down my moods can be. ..Oh well, I will get through it.. That is all for now I think that i will make a trip to the gym ***

Here is a pic that my sis sent to me last night.. Of Dan and I.. lol.. I like it because I have that goofy look and he has his arm ever so awkwardly around me....We look like an odd couple.. PERFECT 

green

mmm Breezers are great. They seem to always be my "Starter" drink. I love Norah Jones.. her music is so relaxing.. It always winds me down..

So I am still having the sleeping thing.. My body just loves to stay up all night and then sleep till 2.. But it is becoming a problem, for the simple reason--> All of my classes are in the morning. At first I thought that it was that I had so much to tell Danial at night when he was home.. But now that he gets off work later.. can't use that excuse. Im forcing myself to wakeup before 12 though.. Yet in that case I still miss most of my classes. Its kinda funny cause I am so drone~ish till about 12:00 and then I get a huge energy burst that lasts till about 4 am.
So being the worrier that I am.. and realizing that I plan to work next year rather than go to school full time, I am already job hunting. I should be doing assignments that I have due the following day, but I always find myself doing job searchs and applying for jobs that may be decent. The two places that are hiring and that actually have contacted me are; Cendant and Accenture. I had applied for Cendant previously,, but they were only looking for full time employees at that time.. That is fine.. But then they just kept calling me.. The same girl.. Im thinking they just had a screw~up with their online application process.. They shouldnt really be that crazy. Then Dan and I went to an information session that they had at the university..
I found that they are nice and organized.. The worse thing about the job is.. hey whatda know? The fact that all I would be doing is taking reservations for car rentals.. and the wage is 8.50 an hour.
Picky am I.. Actually maybe.. but if you have ever tried to find employmetn in Fredericton.. that is "above" average..
ANYWAYS--> They called me and told me to re apply at the end of the school year.. what a surprise.. o well it was worth a shot..

And Accenture.. I did this 3 to 4 step online application process.. and got through it.. and was actually contacted today.. I have an interview Thurseday..But that is all that I will get into that job.. Why? Because I am horribly nervous about the interview! And I don't usually get like this.. I am for some strange reason, extremely nervous.. and ya know what? Am just going to stop thinking about it... Uh.. So.. please .. no one mention it to me till after Thurseday.. :S I know that I am crazy

In other news.. I got the strange envision that my cat isn't really my cat.. She is so different then how she was when we first got her.. Maybe she just missed us? Or maybe it is a spy cat placed here by our landlords, to watch us and our every move,, for some strange kicks.. Yep..That must be it.. And you know what else ? I wouldnt surprise me if They have our place bugged either.. EEK.. I should stop joking about such things.. Knowing how my luck is.. It will now come true.. Meh
So the newest *Slang word that I have found myself thinking about is "Sketchy" I m not sure if it is just a Fredericton thing to use it all the time.. but I like it.. It is like one of those things that I have thought to say but never find the energy.
I am excited about my birthday.. why? because I have always gotten excited for my birthday.. and am hoping to have a blast..This month is already half way finished

I find this blog thing much better, to blob.. Then to write the random jibberish on random peices of paper, which I tend to do..
And I just relized that I don't haven't even made a COMPLETE random jibbersh post. Someday it shall happen.. For now I will just rant and rant about the smallest things in my life ! :D Exciting~ I know!

yet another 

i~ight, buddha bang.. This cartoonish character, just so happens to match my site so I thought it would be right at home.. Look familular?
 

Lately...

-Watching crazy amount of movies.. want to see oceans 12
-Working more for campus police
-Staying up every night till 5 am and sleeping till aprox. 2 pm
-Doing absolutly no school work
-spending way to much time with my bills attempting to do phone banking
-cleaning up chicken's puke cause' she can't digest her food
-telling myself IWILL get to the gym
-Did laundry today (finally)
-Was driving to the university one day this week... while taking the exit, totally wiped out and swerved the car so that it was facing the on coming traffic and then deaked my way back on track.. in a very mellow tone.
-Drinking way too much canned pop, and haveing insane urges for Carmel popcorn
-Wondering about what I missed on the last eposode of Desparate House Wives.
-Relizing that I am getting boring
-Going crazy to clean my apartment... but in need of a vaccum
-Wow, I love Danial.. He puts up with me
-Making up excuses for being grumpy in the mornings (ie. "You kept me up all night tugging my hair!.. and No 75 percent of the time) haha.. I remember these sad attempts for good excuses for my horrible attitude (Sorry sweety)

spare

So I have about 15 minutes before I have to go and pick up Danny so I thought that I would post.. I worked tonight for de campuse police with a guy named Angus.. He is an entertaining character. We get to work together on wed. too.. Tonight our
"hard work" consisted of going to the SUB and watching TV till approx. 11 then we basically called it quits.. fun. As you may have noticed, this is my new layout! Quited different than the other one.. but it suits me.. its kinda weird.. which is me. I just wonder if all the red resembles blood too much?..meh. I like it.
My mood has been EXTREMLY up and down lately..
I really do like the apartment.. I hope that we do end up staying here for more then just the end of the summer..
While applying for jobs tonight I recieved a fun phone call from one of my old co~workers from the red~cross. This guy is about 50 years old, with an awsome personality. I think that i may of mentioned him before.. He called to see how i was doing, and to tell me the exciting events of his weekend..(much more exciting than mine!) Considering that he is now back on the market, and tell s me his interesting dating stories (which I will keep quiet about lol)
Nothing else is really new.... So i am going to stop boring myself.. That 15 minutes went by extremly quickly.. meh..
Life

under wonders

home listening to:Dreamtime by Coldchamber, thanks to Jeff in year 2001.
Sister steff turned the big 14 yesterday, along with nana Irene= Dan Dan's mom, and yes she is 14 too.
All finished working for Red~cross.. wow, never thought I would actually say that.. Out of the 5 workers that i worked with 4 evenings a week with, Last Thurseday was the last day for 2 of us..myself and Corey.. It was laundry night that night and all i was left up with were *dress~up clothings*, so I went with it..Got all dyled up for that ending au de shift. Suprising me, Stacey,the supervisor, had bought us a goodbye cake.. Thats right, a cake that simply said "Goodbye" ... she let us in on the story of this fine cake.. and ended saying "Im never going to see you guys again!" How sentimental.. Sweet actually.. Totally unexpected, and then she gave me a hug, and said that we should all get together for a drink.. aww.. How sweet of her.. I know that I have complained about this job SOSOOSO much, but mainly because of the job itself and the 4 nights a week while going to school full time. My co~workers were pretty cool.. and considering that it was only the 5 of us, in that short 6 week period we have gotten to know eachother well.. And now I am relizing how weird it will be not spending so much of my time in that red~cross building.. Or hearing the life stories of my fellow workers. Interesting.. I also think that i accidently gave them a telephone number that isnt actually mine (moving=forgetting you own number) .. So i think that i will make a visit so we actually WILL be able to hit the pub together.
Other news: Alexander came over a couple nights ago to watch napolian dynomite and without a paddle.. Which was interesting :P AHAHA.. This is proof of my boring life.. but Alex was our first visiter.. talk about being WAY too crazy busy..
Now that it is march breaK I get to wind down and recap.. how beautiful.

it'll be better soon

more about my back thing: I woke up this morning.. and it took a good 5 to 10 minutes to actually get out of bed.. All of the right side of my back.. all the way up to where my neck and chin meet, feels like it is broken.. I dont think that i have ever experienced something this painful..It was a verry scary experience, feeling like litterally could not physically get myself out of bed.. It is now at the point that i cant look to my right or make any sudden movements... Im really hoping that maybe it doesnt have to do with the bang I have on part of my spine :S
other news: This "Jean Guy" guy that i work with reminds me of a french version of my father.. which is nice.. IT is nice to be around open people..lol
My two favorite kind of people in the world are 1) Open and 2) "brutally" honest .. When I meet a person with these particualar atributes, it like a breath of fresh air..IT reminds me that there are actually some "real" people out there lol.